Ok. Need to vent. Anyone else?

stinkerbell6879

So I know this is not TPR related, but it is IF related. So yesterday my BFF decides to tell me that her and her DH might start TTC. OK fine right? Well they have this idea that they can just hop on it and BAM out comes a kid before he starts school next summer. I had to bite my tongue SO BAD! I wanted to rattle off all of the stats about how it can take a perfectly healthy couple a year etc...and to rattle more off about the fact that they are considered advanced maternal age. Just ugh. It made me feel so bitter and like a horrible person! So then I cried to my DH about how "normal" people and how lucky they are.

I guess the main thing was this news came after I spent the day getting blood drawn, acupuncture needs and a wonderful visit with the vagcam, so all in all just not the time for me to hear how they can just have SEX to get a baby while I just spent the day being poked and prodded. blah.

 

Ok. Anyone else need to let off some steam?

BeckyP005

OK I'll play. Sorry about that. It took my SIL only 2 months...blah. I used to be those pp having everything planned out! Lol

It boils my blood that the family I work for ended up going to dinner twice this week AFTER I already went grocery shopping and spent time making dinner especially when I hate cooking for them

Tomorrow should be sloppy joes...lol

poohniki

Oh I'm so sorry! That is really the worst. The teacher I worked with last year knew I was struggling and decided to try a few months earlier than she wanted to because she was afraid she might have some trouble and BAM, first month. So now she's due right around the time I would have been if IVF#3 worked. Can't wait to work this her in Sept!! blah!

stinkerbell6879

Becky...Oh man! I HATE that! My DH will suggest going out or picking up something, on days I remember to take something out to defrost  :-S which all in all I don't mind, but it messes up the plan! lol

Pooh...Eek! HIDE FROM HER! For reals. I figure my soon to be SIL is off her BCP, so I figure there will be a "honeymoon" baby announcement not long after...

The sad part is that I should be excited that we are trying and instead I am all of a sudden surrounded my possible BFP announcements and it makes me worried how I could react if this DE IVF #2 is a bust...BUT if it does work then I could enjoy pregnancy with some pretty awesome people in my life, so it's such a double edged sword.

Km672

Oh ladies, I feel ya!!!

Me and DH have been trying so freaking hard for so freaking long and it has never ever worked! I can't believe how easy it seems for some people...

Stinkerbell, give yourself a break! You've been through some hard times. Allow yourself to feel however you feel, you have no control over that. The waiting is the worst.
I have a really good feeling about this cycle for you!

I have to remind myself that it's not that I'm upset that my friends and family seem to be able to have perfect little babies so easily. Inside I am broken because we have been through so much and it still hasn't happened for us.

At least it makes me feel better about myself for becoming a bitter, jealous infertile woman!!

sammer818

My boss is all pissy this morning because we have polices in our lab that aren't correct. She's new and I know it's not her fault and we didn't blame her in the least, but instead of saying she'll work on it, she copped an attitude with the other tech and myself and made it out like she had the weight of the world on her shoulders. NOT how I wanted to start my day  ~X(

*HUGS* Stinkerbell. I wish I could go back to the days of being naive about how everything worked. I used to be one of those people who thought it would happen like BAM. 

Becky - maybe you should "accidentally" use too much cayenne pepper??  

KM - I have to do the same thing. It's hard to be jealous, bitter, and happy all at the same time. 

stinkerbell6879

KM....Nope your not alone in the bitter, jealous infertile group! lol. I try to work on it but it happens some times :-) (((HUGS)))

Sammer...UGH. I hate that type of thing at work! I am a legal assistant and HATE when my attorney gets pissy over things I can't control. boo! (((HUGS)))