When I have bad moments, I have real bad moments. Like there is nothing worth living for now, hopelessness and let's just throw everything and everyone away. Wow, how did this become my life? I was once so happy, the happiest I have ever been. I miss Brooke so much. She was perfect. I know perfect people don't exist but she was and maybe that's why she couldn't stay. I will always love and want to be with my baby girl.