It has been 3 months since we lost our daughter Brooke. I feel so hopeless. She was my everything. With her I was the closest to Heaven I could get here on Earth. I waited so long to be a mother and she was perfect. My world was complete and there was nothing else I wanted. I would have given everything to keep her in my arms.
Now, I feel like everything is gone and she was my only chance at that life of being a mother. I know I am still her mother and always will be, just not a acting parent. It feels like everything in my life is falling apart. Not that it even matters. I do see a counselor and I go to a support group but nothing takes away this pain or hopelessness that randomly hits. It also feels like my DH doesn't even understand how I feel. I feel like I am completely alone.
Thanks for listening.
Brooke Elizabeth born Feb 17, 2013 grew wings
May 9, 2013 @ 11 weeks & 4 days old from SIDS