PgAL Check In

Mrs Nice

Welcome to PGAL CheckIn!

I hope I find you all well and positive this week! If you have any questions you would like answered, please don't be shy! You can also ask the PAL ladies. Grow little ones, grow!

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?

QOTW: Are you team green or did/will you find out the sex of your Rainbow? Are/were you hoping for one sex or the other? Has your loss influenced how you now answer this question?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

PerkyErky

Thanks for the check ins Mrs Nice

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?

I am 9w6d and baby is an olive this week.

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?

Alice's EDD is tomorrow and I also will be 10 weeks along with this baby. It is just really hard knowing I wouldn't be pregnant with this baby is Alice was still alive. We also have our second OB appt on Wed. I find as we approach each appt I get really anxious. I have no history of an early loss but for the last appt and this one coming up I just start to worry and think something must be wrong. PgAL brain is so brutal.

QOTW: Are you team green or did/will you find out the sex of your Rainbow? Are/were you hoping for one sex or the other? Has your loss influenced how you now answer this question?

We are definitely finding out. I wouldn't be able to wait. We are still hoping for another girl, mostly because we already have our little guy. We would love to have a living daughter. Of course since our loss our biggest goal is to have a healthy take home rainbow baby. And if we have a little boy brewing, he is already loved and wanted more than he will ever know. I do dread the question "will you try for a girl?" if this baby is a boy. We have a daughter, she just isn't here.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

Just to make it through tomorrow ok. And to find out on Wednesday that baby is perfectly fine and my PgAL brain is just evil.

OSUWifey09

@rsigler Sending lots of hugs as Virgina's 1st birthday comes up.


How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week? 15w5d. I think my iPhone app said baby is size of an avocado...?

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? Had an appointment on Tuesday, and things look really good. A/S is two weeks from Monday, and I can already feel the nerves creeping in. Devon's 1st birthday is a week from Monday, and I'm trying to hold it together. I can't believe it's almost been a year.

QOTW: Are you team green or did/will you find out the sex of your Rainbow? Are/were you hoping for one sex or the other? Has your loss influenced how you now answer this question? I totally thought I could be Team Green, but nope. I wanted to know ASAP. Tech and MFM gave me a guess at my 14-week scan, but I'm not coming out with it until after my a/s. Part of that is because PgAL brain is in full force and afraid things will go wrong; part of that is because I want confirmation that this baby is truly a girl and not a boy. I'd be totally happy with either, though!

I was secretly hoping for a little girl, because I'm not sure how I could handle having a boy after losing Devon. We are talking about having one more in 3-4 years, and at that point, I'll be OK with either. But honestly, I'm not quite sure how I would handle it if this baby was/turns out to be a boy. My PgAL brain would go into hyperdrive; I'd probably need to be sedated.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Devon's angelversary is really weighing on me. A whole year without my sweet boy. How the hell does time fly by so fast?

I'm finally feeling like this pregnancy is real, but as soon as I get super excited, I shut it down. I wish I could just really, REALLY enjoy this.

angelsnight

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?  8 weeks 2 days, raspberry

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? I see my OB again for the first time in less than two weeks.  I'll be 10 weeks so we'll likely be discussing/scheduling my cerclage.

QOTW: Are you team green or did/will you find out the sex of your Rainbow? Are/were you hoping for one sex or the other? Has your loss influenced how you now answer this question?  We will find out.  When we first lost Kayla I wanted another girl so badly (before we found out she was a girl we would have been thrilled with either).  But as I get further from my loss, I've warmed up to the idea of a boy and somedays really want one.  But I have to admit, when we saw that Boo's HB was 176 the other day, I couldn't help but get happy, thinking of the old wives tale that a high heartrate could mean girl.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  Feeling better.  I've been so sick this last week, throwing up and diarhhea.  I ended up in the ER the other day for a UTI and dehydration, but I am finally feeling a lot better today.

Noethola

Hugs to you all this month! Sounds like August is going to be extra hard on the all three of you. 

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week? Week 12, so Plum.

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? Nothing until the end of the month. Though I think I am going to meet my midwife for lunch sometime soon. 

QOTW: Are you team green or did/will you find out the sex of your Rainbow? Are/were you hoping for one sex or the other? Has your loss influenced how you now answer this question? We will find out. We did with our daughter and dont regret it one bit. Especially after we lost her, I was so glad to have that extra bonding with her as my daughter. (I really thought she was a boy, so for us it was good to get to know her as a girl.) Dont really care what sex. 

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? We put in an offer on a house last week, and this week we got accepted!!! We are super excited, though we know it will be a lot of work (its a fixer-upper) and we lovingly refer to it as our 30 year project. I did have a breakdown day though, where I just had to get through the emotions of knowing all my memories of time with Elsie are here and we will be leaving that particular emotional attachment here. But we are looking forward to incorporating her into our new home. 

fluttergirlmoonchild79

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?

25w1d; cauliflower

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?

Nope.  Would be nice to have an appointment with my actual OB, between a family emergency and 2 vacations I haven't actually seen him since 12w

QOTW: Are you team green or did/will you find out the sex of your Rainbow? Are/were you hoping for one sex or the other? Has your loss influenced how you now answer this question?

We found out.  Part of me wanted a boy because I felt jipped out of raising my boy and part of me wanted a girl just because it was different and in my mind different gender meant different outcome.  I was slightly disappointed to find out we were having a girl at first to be honest but ultimately we just want to raise this one, boy, girl or otherwise.  I know a lot of people say "we just want healthy" but I think loss parents are the only ones who really mean it.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

Too much to write right now.  DH has been super great with calming my crazy which increases as the weeks pass.

cawettig

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?
8 weeks 4 days a raspberry

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?
None right now

QOTW: Are you team green or did/will you find out the sex of your Rainbow? Are/were you hoping for one sex or the other? Has your loss influenced how you now answer this question?

I really just want a healthy baby to bring home. I have everything for a girl already so I think it would be easier financially but dh is hoping for a boy this time around. We will be finding out when the time comes. HB at our US this week was 156, old wives tales say boy right now. I really just want the hb to keep ticking away .

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
Just hoping to get through vacation this week. I want to enjoy it with out crying. Today is the marker for month four since Arianna left.

I hope we all can make it through all of our anniversaries this month.

hhudson92

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?

13w4d. Officially in the 2nd tri!

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?

My next Ob appt is Tuesday.

QOTW: Are you team green or did/will you find out the sex of your Rainbow? Are/were you hoping for one sex or the other? Has your loss influenced how you now answer this question?

We will find out just so we can prepare. We just want a healthy baby, boy or girl is totally fine with us!

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

I went to the ER on Wednesday morning due to some heavy bleeding. I woke up that morning gushing. They found the heartbeat at the ER and my cervix was closed but I never saw an OB there. Yesterday I went for a follow up from the ER at my Ob and they did an ultrasound. Found out I have a low lying placenta, or placenta previa. That is what caused the bleeding. Baby is doing great though and I am praying so hard it stays that way!

cnlmdl

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week? 
23 weeks tomorrow. I don't know what fruit that is, but we were a papaya in week 22

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? 
Big milestone...tomorrow, at 23 weeks, I am the MOST pregnant I have ever been. 

QOTW: Are you team green or did/will you find out the sex of your Rainbow? Are/were you hoping for one sex or the other? Has your loss influenced how you now answer this question? We are expecting a baby girl. Healthy is of course most important, but due to losing a girl, I was hoping for a boy in the hopes it would make it easier. Now I know that we are meant to have a baby girl here on Earth with us, and I'm pleased for her arrival when she is done baking.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

I'm more pregnant than ever.