Memorial services for Elizabeth *warning, LO mentioned*

Bruton8288

Today was one of the hardest thing was arrange for Elizabeth memorial. It will be this Saturday. We were asked if we wanted to see her coffin, we couldn't do it. All we know it will be baby pink on the outside & white inside. Just sitting there with the funeral director was so hard. I kept saying that it should be the other way around, they should be burying us when were old of age not us to them. She had a life to live & dreams to follow. I have lost count on how many times I have broken down in tears in public today. I usually hate crying in public since I don't want people to feel sorry for me. We picked up her little resting dress she will be wearing, it was at a local children's boutique in town, just walking in & seeing all those smiling expecting mothers with their daughters shopping made me feel numb. I felt a mixture of anger yet sadness. We just picked up Elizabeth's dress & bought a similar dress for her big sister Victoria to wear for the funeral because I always told DH I will dress up the girls alike. We ask for friends & family to wear something pink because we what this to be a celebration of Elizabeth existence, I want everyone to call her by her name. I don't want people to say "I am sorry for the loss of your baby", please say " I am sorry for the loss of Elizabeth". Hearing her name feels comfort to my soul because she is being remembered by name. 

My MIL has taken care of my LO today again to give my husband & I time together to grieve, even though we will grieve for a very long time. We have cried together.hug, asked why & just want answers. We will take it a day at a time, we are definitely ready to see our LO, she needs her mommy & daddy, Victoria is only 19 months old. Every time we think about what's to come Saturday it just brings us down to our knees again. My heart says I am not ready to say goodbye but in my soul I feel like she's already happy in heaven with her grandpa & great great grandma. I have turned to faith for healing & I had dreams of her, she love purple just like her big sister. 

I am still in disbelief I gave birth to her yesterday, it feels like a dream, it hasn't yet register other than she's an angel now. I try to play all the events in my head to remember it did happen. My eyes are so dry when I think I can't cry I always find tears to shed. Just holding her blanket brings so much comfort & having my husband always by my side I know I am not walking this journey alone. Day 1 has come & gone, we will continue our healing journey as a family.

Bruton8288

This ticker is frustrating me, I have tried everything you ladies instructed. 

princezjk

So many (((hugs))) in dealing with your loss.  I wish I had some better words of comfort to share.  Just know there are people sending you lots of T&P this weekend.

As for your siggy, maybe @BumpJackie can help you get rid of your ticker..

Dixon813

I am so, so sorry.  i will be praying for you and your family tomorrow.

Noethola

I am so very sorry. This weekend will be hard, but it will also bring a level of closure. Your sweet Elizabeth will see you one day. There is not a lot of understanding that comes with losing a baby, but for me it has at least helped to comfort in just trusting that I will hold her one day. It is good to ask people to use her name and give them permission to do so. This is a time when people are so unsure of how to support you. Telling them how is most helpful to everyone. T&Ps this weekend!

Only suggestion I have for your ticker, perhaps if you changed your sig by putting a different ticker or image in it might work?

shandorfml2

So sorry sweetheart. I still sleep with Ana's blanket and it's been 5 months. In time it will get easier. Sending lots of prayers and thoughts to you and your family.

PerkyErky

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I am so sorry that you have to do any of this for your daughter, Elizabeth. As you said, they are supposed to be burying us. I remember being numb at the funeral home when we were discussing burial arrangements and picking a marker. It seemed surreal. I hated going to pick a baby blanket to wrap her burial box in. I should have been excitedly choosing a blanket to wrap and snuggle her in, a blanket to bury her with. Sending you lots of hugs and support over the coming days an weeks.

As for your siggy, I had to click on the little person icon up in the right corner, then click on the red <> symbol and delete anything in there and save. I hope you are able to get it removed. It is one painful reminder.

jbranden12

Bruton8288 said:

I want everyone to call her by her name. I don't want people to say "I am sorry for the loss of your baby", please say " I am sorry for the loss of Elizabeth". Hearing her name feels comfort to my soul because she is being remembered by name. 

I am so sorry. And I wanted to say don't be afraid to tell people this. It unfortunately often falls on the grieving to educate about grief, but once I told friends and family this and they knew it was something I wanted, they did it. 

Heatherhah

I am so sorry! We also had everyone wear pink as well for our daughters memorial .We wanted to have that be a forever reminder of her . I can't promise that the memorial will be easy as I sat at my daughter's memorial and weeped so loud that all could here me. I am not sure how I got through that at that time.  It still brings me to tears thinking about it. It will hurt and you will feel like you are dying inside but I will tell you this you will be okay because I was as were all the ladies here. Somehow you find strength to do the things you need to do it sucks but you just do it. I will be thinking of you please know that we are all here for you !!!! Huge hugs to you!!

Heather

Krichards34

What you are going through and will continue to go through is so hard. I remember the first few days, and how completely horrible they were. It's hell on earth. But, it DOES get easier. It gets a little easier day by day...just keep breathing and taking it one step at a time. Prayers and love. I'm so sorry for your loss.

cawettig

I am so sorry for Elizabeth. I say Arianna's name all the time because I feel cheated out of saying her name. Let yourself cry anywhere. I wish we all could hug you right now and help you through the service. We are here for you whenever you need us.