Hi

mamacrunch

So I don't know how to intro here really. My name is anmagyari, I have a 19 month old and am 14 weeks pregnant with number 2. I have suffered from depression since I was really young, like I remember being put on my first anti-depressant in the 5th grade.

I go through periods of happy times, but the majority of my life I have been off. I was really depressed with my pregnancy with my son, but chose not to do anything about it, because of my pregnancy history I was fearful.

This pregnancy I just can't handle it. I find myself getting really angry over little meaningless things. I am growing impatient with my son. I feel ashamed. 

No matter what I do for my husband nothing seams to be good enough. I am tired of all the responsibility. The house, the kid, the pregnancy, the bills, I am barely keeping afloat.

I have been wanting to talk to my OBGYN about it for a while now, but I never can seam to spit it out. Today I reached out and called my doctor. I didn't get to talk with the doctor, but I talked to the nurse, they referred me to a clinic they send all their patients that are in need of a little extra help.

It makes me sad that they don't deal with this themselves, but oh well. The nurse told me a woman for the center would be calling me immediately, and gave me their 24 hour number to call if I needed anything. She assured me they wanted this addressed today.

Well it's been 3 hours and I haven't heard anything from this center and when I called that number no one answered. Just my luck huh?

So I wanted to intro, because I can't handle going through this again alone. 

sfeebs13

Be patient, mama. They will call you back. 

I'm glad you realize this now before the potential for things to get worse. 

I understand how you feel. I had my on and off days during my pregnancy but refused to take meds. I stopped taking them soon after finding out I was PG. FI doesn't quite understand depression or anxiety so that makes it a bit harder to deal with.

There will be light at the end of the tunnel. I promise.

Blakesmom12

I'm so sorry. I hope you hear from them soon.