Saturday is my due date for Alice. I miss her so much and my heart aches for what could have been. I miss my daughter so much. These last few days have been tough and the tears come at the slightest push.
Married 11/23/11, TTC starting 10/12, BFP#1 11/30/12, Adoption of stepson finalized 03/19/13,Loss of our daughter at 20w4d due to incompetent cervix 03/27/13, BFP#2 06/28/13, DS2 born 3/1/14.
My one-year loss milestone is next week, and the waterworks have been going full blast for the last week. It's almost like I'm back to last year again.
Like pp said, do you have anything special planned? I'm so sorry, hon. Sending lots of hugs your way as you come up on such a big day.
I'm so sorry, ((hugs)). EDD's are so hard. DH and I did a balloon release for Ava on her EDD and it was very comforting to plan and do something special for her. As my therapist always says, there's no way around the grief and sadness, you just have to go through it. I will be praying for you and thinking of you and your DH on Saturday.
I am so very sorry that you are going through this rough time. EDDs and other anniversaries are so hard. I agree, do something special to honor her memory. I hope that you are able to get some joy out of the day.
"Elsie Irene was born sleeping at 35w 6d on December 8, 2012. Mommy and Daddy miss you sweet girl."
EDDs are tough. Sending you lots of (((hugs))). I agree with PPs that doing something special helps. DH and I released some balloons at the cemetery and lit a candle for Izzie.
I'm so sorry, the days leading up to my EDD were very hard too, I cried more that week than in the month or two prior. I didn't think I would, but I have felt a lot better since the EDD passed. I thought I would feel worse since after my EDD was when our baby should have been home with us and I should be on mat leave right now. But I guess because that was never part of our reality (whereas being pregnant and looking forward to our due dates was) it doesn't hurt as bad like I thought it would, if that makes any sense. Take good care of yourself and maybe do something in her honor to make yourself feel closer to her...we wrote messages on balloons and released them at the cemetery.
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!
Re: EDD
My one-year loss milestone is next week, and the waterworks have been going full blast for the last week. It's almost like I'm back to last year again.
Like pp said, do you have anything special planned? I'm so sorry, hon. Sending lots of hugs your way as you come up on such a big day.
BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.
BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.
BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.
BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section
The picture in of Alice and your wedding rings is beautiful - absolutely beautiful.
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I'm so sorry, the days leading up to my EDD were very hard too, I cried more that week than in the month or two prior. I didn't think I would, but I have felt a lot better since the EDD passed. I thought I would feel worse since after my EDD was when our baby should have been home with us and I should be on mat leave right now. But I guess because that was never part of our reality (whereas being pregnant and looking forward to our due dates was) it doesn't hurt as bad like I thought it would, if that makes any sense. Take good care of yourself and maybe do something in her honor to make yourself feel closer to her...we wrote messages on balloons and released them at the cemetery.
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!
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