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Yesterday was the worst day...

KristyLynn26KristyLynn26 member
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I started bleeding, had a negative HPT and knew IVF #4 was a failure just like every other cycle the last year and half. Then as if that wasn't enough for one day we had to put our dog Groucho to sleep last night. I'm seriously hanging on by a thread and I think I'm done. On a side note if I hear one more "when you stop trying it will happen" I'm going to snap. Sorry to be a Debbie downer. 2IFs support has meant the world to me. I'm not sure if I'll be back or not, but for now I'm taking a break from everything and going to focuss on my family. Love to all and best of luck!
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First Time: DD born 3/2011 after trying for two years, LAP, and two IUIs w/ Femera + Ovidrel
This Time: 4/12 Femera IUI #1 BFN, 5/12 Femera + TI BFN, 6/12 Femera + IUI #2 BFN, 7/12 Femera + IUI #3 BFN, 8/12 Follistim IUI #4 BFN
IVF #1: ER 11/5/12 : 17 eggs retrieved/6 fertilized, ET 11/10/12 : 5dt of 2 embies/0 frosties BFN
IVF #2: ER 1/28/13 : 12 eggs retrieved/9 fertilized, ET 2/2/13 : 5dt of 2 embies/0 frosties BFN
IVF #3: ER 4/15/13 : 13 eggs retrieved/7 fertilized, ET 4/18/13 : 3dt of 3 embies/0 frosties BFN
Laparoscopy 5/24/13 : Stage 2 Endo, Scaring, and Both tubes Blocked but successfully Opened
IVF #4 (Clinical Trial): ER 7/22/13 : 15 eggs/8 fertilized, ET 7/25/13 : 3dt of 3 embies/0 frosties BFN
IVF #5: ER 11/4/13 : 13 eggs/12 fertilized, ET 11/9/13 : 5dt of 2 embies/0 frosties BFP!!! Beta 11/20/13 = 447 1 Beautiful Baby! EDD: July 28, 2014
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  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    I am soo soo sorry. I am so sorry for your loss.  Lots of hugs to you. 



      


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  • barefootandbootsbarefootandboots member
    I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how hard both thoae things must be. Dogs are part of the family so that is so sad. I will be thinking of you.
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    CP: December 2012
    Miscarriage: February 2013
    Blighted Ovum: July 2013
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  • KC1212KC1212 member
    I am so sorry!

    I will not give you the stop trying advice! I hate that! Along with get drunk, relax, or go on vacation %-(

    So with that said : Keep trying and give yourself the liberty to obsess to your heart's content!!
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    Me: 27 DH: 33
    Married 6 years
    Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI

    TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
    May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
    September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
    October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
    Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
    November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
    No longer benched per New RE/OB!
    Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic :( 
    Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
    March 2, 2014 First AF


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  • MJC1116MJC1116 member
    I am so sorry you had such a craptastic day. First, to lose a pet is a huge, emotionally-stressful time. Our pets are family and it hurts when we have to say goodbye. I'm already dreading that day. And then to have a failed cycle to top it off? You have every right to be upset. 

    I hate that advice, "Just relax -- it'll happen." "It'll happen when it's supposed to happy." (No s*) I think we should come up with some sort of quick, one-liner response to spit out at the next person who has the audacity to say something as stupid as that. Gosh, we could have a whole post on horrible TTC advice.

    In any case, I agree with KC. Permit yourself to let your emotions out. It'll feel so  much better once you do, and then you'll have the fortitude to proceed in whatever way feels right for you. 

    Hugs!! 
    DH & I: 29
    TTC #1 4/2009 -  DD 2/5/10
    TTC #2 since October 2011
    2IF issues
    7/2013 - IUI #1: 50 units Follistim +  Ovidrel  = BFN
    8/2013 - IUI #2: 50 units Follistim +  Ovidrel  = BFP! Beta #1 (12 dpiui) 8/21: 45  Beta #2 (16 dpiui) 8/26: 301 Beta #3 (21 dpiui) 8/30: 1,929. 1st Ultrasound 9/4 - One perfect sac. 2nd Ultrasound 9/13 - Heartbeat at 124 bpm! Anniversary  

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  • 74dragonfly74dragonfly member
    Oh no! I'm so sorry kristy! I am very sorry the IVF cycle was a bust. :( and I am very sorry about the loss of your dog. That is so much to deal with all at once.

    I'm sending you a huge internet hug and lots of prayers. 

     




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  • AprilDrew04AprilDrew04 member
    Sending my thoughts and prayers. That was a bad day, let yourself fall apart for a bit, you'll feel better. Hope you are feeling up to moving forward soon.

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    DD conceived after 3 years of ttc.
    MFI - DH had varicocele repair and took Clomid to get DD b. 02/2010

    TTC #2 since 6/2010
    10/2012 DH diagnosed with Epilepsy
    A few failed IUIs summer 2012 and 2013. 
    DH taking clomid and waiting to see if he needs another vericocele repair. 
    Hoping for a 2015 baby or babies. 
    Wishing, hoping, waiting.


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  • Momarazzi007Momarazzi007 member
    I am so sorry. Big hugs and I know nothing seems like it will be right again right now. Know you are strong too have done the IVFs, they aren't easy. Please stay strong and I am sorry about Groucho too. =((
    January 2007- Stop BCP! Let's DO this!
    June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS. image

    November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
    January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS!     February 2011- lost twin. BS. image

    SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
    November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
    April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
    FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
    BABY BOY VINCENT!
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