I wanted to introduce myself to this board. My name is Christie and my daughter, Hope Olivia, was born on July 26th at 18.5 weeks. I started having contractions on 7/24, by the time I got to the ER I was fully dilated and Hope's sac was bulging. On 7/26 at 12:54am I gave birth to Hope, she passed away on my chest with DH by my side. We got to tell her how much she was loved. She held onto my finger as she gasped and moved. I am forever changed by her. She will always be my first born and beloved daughter.
We are having her body cremated, then will take her back to DH's hometown to bury her in the family plot. This has been the hardest thing ever. The suddenness of it is overwhelming. I have had 3 early miscarriages before Hope, but they were all before 6 weeks, so I never got attached. I really thought Hope was going to be my take home baby. Even though the first 8 weeks of my pregnancy with her were scary due to an SCH and heavy bleeding, we got through it, and the last 10 weeks were pure bliss.
I miss her so much. But she gave me the most precious gift by making me her mommy.
I hope that I can join this board and make some friends who can bring comfort and I can bring comfort as well.
Christie
TTC#1 since June 2011. 3 early losses before 6 weeks. Hope Olivia born and went to heaven July 26, 2013.
Re: Intro - Loss of Hope Olivia
BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.
BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.
BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.
BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section
I am so so sorry for the loss of your sweet Daughter Hope Olivia! You are among friends we all know how you feel. Please come here for support as often as you like. Huge hugs!!!
Heather
8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)
-5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)
11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13
8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF
IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties
12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!! One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15
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I'm so, so sorry for the loss of your sweet Hope Olivia [i adore her name; it's beautiful]. It's always hard to see new faces around here, but I hope we can be a source of comfort and strength for you. Lean on us as much or as little as you need. Sending so many hugs your way.
TTC#1 since June 2011. 3 early losses before 6 weeks. Hope Olivia born and went to heaven July 26, 2013.
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christie212 - I am so sorry, that ticker is not current I haven't been able to access this board for almost a month now. I had heard people had issues with their tickers, so I checked mine before I posted and it had the code for my memorial one. Clearly that is not my memorial one.
Daniel was born early to an IC. It's only been just over two months. He was born and passed on 5/25
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BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
Diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. Started Metformin July 2013
Please be our rainbow!!
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I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter, Hope Olivia. Your story sounds similar to mine, we lost Alice at 20w4d and it was determined it was due to an incompetent cervix.
I am pregnant now, 8 weeks and they will be monitoring my cervix very closely once I hit 14 weeks and I will most likely get a cerclage. My dr also said it doesn't always happen a second time, especially since I had no risk factors.
Again I am very very sorry for your loss. Welcome.