Torn...

Jen12573

DH and I are torn on what we want to do. We have two blasts that are being donated by a couple at my local doctor's office, and we have to decide by tomorrow if we want to use them. We talked last night - and DH is worried about the physical and emotional toll it takes on me, and the emotional toll on him because after 6.5 years it doesn't get any easier, ever! The last cycle, we were so hopeful, and while yes I did get 'a little bit pregnant' it didn't stick and it was a really rough week that followed. Last time they were embryos, but I don't really think they were the best grade, and we traveled for the cycle, this time we are doing everything locally, and looking at blasts, 4BB and 5AB. (Those are good, right?)

This is the first time we've ever been completely torn 50/50 on a decision. I want to do it, but then I don't. DH feels the same way. This will be our last chance, if it works great. If it doesn't work, we are done, done, done. We said last night that we'd sleep on it, we did. And I'm still torn but leaning towards giving it one last try.

I'm not sure what I'm looking for here, but I just needed to share the emotional see-saw that I'm on right now. Thanks for letting me share.

stinkerbell6879

((HUGS)) These decisions are never easy and they do take and emotional toll on all of us. So do what you feel is right and if it doesn't feel right yet, then another cycle will happen when your ready to move ahead. Good Luck!

liz4paws

I think decision making throughout this process can sometimes be the hardest parts. Big hugs! Everyone is different in how they decide, but one thing I've learned is that for me it's easier to know I tried and failed than to wonder if I missed out on an opportunity. I wish you loads of luck in your decision. Keep us posted. *hugs*

LittleLady77

((hugs)).  This whole process is so difficult.

Km672

I'm so sorry. These decisions are hard. It's hard to protect yourself and be hopeful.

If it were me, I'd go for it. I know it's easy for me to say and I'm not in the same position as you, but I wound always wonder What if?

If it doesn't work, would you regret trying one more time?

GetwickMom

I have to agree with Km... I think you'll regret the things that you didn't more than the things you did. I'm sure it's going to be super hard, so make sure that you have a strong support network in place. ((Hugs))

BeckyP005

All of what moonaggie said. Good luck to you and I'm sure this is not an easy decision. If it was me and we were ok on the $ aspect of it then I would have to try. Regretting it would probably consume me for the rest of my life. Hugs.

Jen12573

Thanks so much ladies. I'm sorry, I didn't get to respond sooner because internet was out. I have a feeling we'll make our final decision tonight, and the more I think about it, the more I want to give it one last try. We agreed that if we got the call before the end of this year (December), we would try it one last time, so this is that one last time.

May I also add that - the day we got the call from the doctor was the day before the 15th anniversary of our first date? That's got to count for something, right?

I'll keep you posted, and again, thank you!

happywifemomofone

Know that we are all here to be your cheerleaders as you move forward with these two great looking embryos!!  GL and let us know when you will be able to transfer.

 

brooklynesque

Nothing ventured, nothing gained, as they say.  Unless your gut is telling you otherwise, I say go for it.

Lacyj67

Whatever you decide to do we will be here for ya to listen and give support!! Good luck in whatever you do!!!