Feeling the need to cry on some shoulders

dblhappiness

I feel good one minute then if I let my mind wander, I end up in a pool of tears. This weekend was so good with the boys seeing them excited over certain presents. But then the sadness set in. I saw my dad for a brief hour on Sunday and I can tell he is having a hard time. He looks like he's aged so much. And, I just can't shake that sad feeling of how lonely he must be. I knew the holidays were going to be rough as I've been in denial over quite a bit of it. I guess I just hope I can gather some strength to not cry at every single thing, but so far it hasn't happened. I cry at hearing the boys say new words related to Christmas, I cry at seeing our decorated tree, I cry at knowing that we'll be having the white Christmas that my mom so loved and missed, and I cry just knowing that I can't have her here with me to share even the tiniest bit of it. Sheesh, I had to pull over for the time ever and have a good cry when O Holy Night came on the radio. I just need to get this out because it hurts...it hurts so damn much.

mcunningham

=( thinking good thoughts for you. i'm sure this must be such a hard time of year to be without a loved one.

Dragonfly_Bride

My shoulder is here for you!

I'm so sorry!?

SweetieP

Hugs my friend. 

we-love-to-try

 

I'm so sorry. ((hugs))

tri_bride05

I'm so sorry that this is such a difficult holiday season for you. Cry on our shoulders any time. Lots of hugs to you. 

edsbaby

I can't imagine how badly you must be hurting right now.  I say let it all out, let the tears out or whatever emotion comes out.  My mom always said that what got her through her mom passing away was Nick and she doesn't know how she could've done it without him.  Just enjoy your family and live each day knowing your mom loves you and is still with you.  She is now your guardian angel.  What about a new ornament (angel?) for the tree in remembrance of her?

NorCalSuperwife

(((HUG)))

I'm so sorry you're hurting.

marsnemmo

((((HUGS))))

danandkelly

I'm so so sorry.  Big hugs to you.

NotJustAnAuntie

BIG (((HUGS))) Erica!

KellyMarierockstarwife

Hugs Erica

 It's ok to cry at every single thing. Allow yourself that. Next Christmas, you might cry less. *hugs hugs hugs*
 

ljlkm

I'm so sorry.  I know there's nothing we can say that could make you feel better, but do whatever you need to to make it as bearable as possible.  =(

I<3MYHUSBAND

your right. It does hurt so damn much. I know no words I offer will make it better, but I do offer my support 100% and lots and lots of hugs.

Celyn

** hugs ** I'm sorry you're hurting

Meg_Meg

Hugs!

Meg_Meg

Lots of hugs.

susan_m

Sorry that you are having a tough time.  Just let it all out.  That will make you feel better than to hold it all in. (((HUGS)))

tri-reader

Big Hugs to you!!

Mrs.Ganja

Hugs to you. Sometimes having a good cry is the best way. It will get better someday, I promise.

green*eyes

I'm so sorry and can only imagine I'd feel the same need to cry at those things.  ((((hugs)))) to you.

kjunspice

It's okay to feel sad, this is a lot to deal with and the holidays are stressful and emotional even when you haven't gone through something as horrible as you have so recently. Don't expect too much from yourself, it will get easier as the time passes.  Hang in there and I'll be thinking good thoughts for you and your family. 

SeasonalCook

I'm so sorry...big hugs!

dirtbikemom

I totally understand! ?I was sobbing/crying last night when listening to my book even thought I've listened to the same book like 3 times without crying. ?I too get emotional and sad somedays and it is random stuff that sets me off. HUG!!

Kellina71

((((HUGS)))) Erica.

Mrs_Shmoopie

I was going to say pretty much the same as Kelly in that you have every right to cry as much as you need to and that the holidays will get easier eventually.  I wish I could make it easier right now but know that they will get easier.  I really do wish I could take your hurt away, Erica.  {{{HUGS}}}

2bearichards

Aw Erica, big big hugs.

 

It is totally normal to feel what you are feeling and it is ok to cry over everything, it is a part of mourning.  Just know you will get through this, eventhough it will be hard, and your mom is there watching over you.

My.ABC.Life

Hugs to you my friend.

chedder143

{{{HUGS}}} Erica.  I am so sorry you are going through this. I wish I could be more there for you.  I just want to reach out and give you the biggest hug ever.

Jamers125

More hugs to you.

Meritage

:-(  Sending you much love and many hugs.  I can't even imagine what you are going through, but you always have my support.

emeraldwednesda

Hugs!

penguinwifey

I'm so sorry you're going through so much.  Huge HUGS to you.

fricksgirl

I so sorry Erica.  I've been thinking about you and I can't even imagine.  I'm so sorry.  Big, huge, hugs and love and support coming out from me to you. 

H

quesarah

I'm sending tons of hugs your way!

linnychanel

I'm so sorry. Big hugs

That's~Mrs.Stephanie

Thinking about you E, I know exactly how hard it is and will be this year.  I am praying for our families to both get through this holiday season and the times that are ahead of us.  Sending you BIG ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))

Our moms are both watching out over us as angels as we are struggling with the holidays without them.

Lexi & Orion's Mommy

Sending lots of love and hope for peace, this Christmas

joboogie_rn

I'm totally late, but I wanted to send big *hugs* anyway!

MamaDep

cry away, my friend. you always have my shoulder.