I've never posted here but I read everyday. I'm a ftm, and to say this pregnancy has been rough is an understatement. At 18wks we found out that our baby girl has downs syndrome. It was a shock but we have gotten to a good place and now are just excited to meet her. Last week we were told her percentile dropped in half in just 4 weeks (35th to 18th), we go next Tuesday to see how she is but we might have to get her out (we are 34wks today). I keep a strong face on but inside I'm going crazy. Then yesterday my father had a heart attack. He is unresponsive, on a respirator and we don't know yet if he has any brain damage or if he will make it through. Again I'm trying to keep a strong face. My poor mom is a reck and I just want to be strong. All I can think is I can't bury my father before I have this little girl. She has to know her grandfather! My husband is a saint, I don't know what I'd do without him. I think I'm at my breaking point. I bent down earlier today to pull my sock off and I threw my back out. I literally can't stand straight, laying down locks it up, and Tylenol barely touches it. How much can one person take!?! Sorry this is so long, I didn't have anywhere else to vent...
*Update*
First, I need to thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. Today has been one of the worst days of my life but reading your posts has brought some smiles and relief.
This morning my dad starting seazing. They did many tests and it was determined that he was brain dead. We made the difficult choice to remove him from the ventilator and not let him suffer. He passed away at 5:55pm. He would have celebrated his 69th birthday on Christmas day.
I'm still in disbelief. I know he's gone, but it doesn't seem real. I can't believe that my daughter will never know her grandpop. That's when I lose it most, thinking about having this baby and him not there.
I will update again after our ultrasound Tuesday if there are any changes with Olivia (baby girls name).
Re: Trying to stay calm... My world is crashing around me. *Update*
TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)
BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d
BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13
BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks
BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby
BFP#1 EDD 04.20.2010, SUNSHINE baby boy born 03.31.2010
BFP#2 EDD 12.07.2014, natural mc 04.09.2014 at 5w3d
BFP#3 EDD 01.14.15, RAINBOW baby girl born 01.16.2015
jan'15 january siggy challenge: baby fails
Dec '12 & Jan '15
BFP 1/5/2016 EDD 9/17/2016