My precious daughter grew her angel wings... I still remember it like it was yesterday. So much has changed in those 3 years. I look back and sometimes it feels like that was another life, a totally different me lost that little girl. Losing Grace changed me, to the very core of who I am.
I still can't help but wonder "what if?" and dream about what life would be like if she were still here. I frequently think about the fact that I should have a 2 1/2 year old little girl running around, and being a big sister to Ben. My faith helps me to know that the end of life on earth is not the end. I know I will get to be with her one day, and that she is with my mom watching over us.
Mama loves you, Gracie girl. You hug your Ajji tight until I am there to hold you myself.
Re: 3 Years Ago Today
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BFP#1 3/8/12; diagnosed w/ Anencephaly at 12w6d; D&C 5/9/12
BFP#2 7/18/12; A/S 10/26/12 It's a Girl! EDD 3/29/13
Phoebe Jordan Born 3/20/13
BFP 07/27/2012 - Beta 1 - 169 @ 11 DPO, Beta 2 - 419 @ 13 DPO, DD Born on 04/04/2013.
AL Always Welcome
DS1 2-26-07
#4 Due May 2015
IT'S A BOY
TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)
BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d
BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13
BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks
BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby
Thank you all SO much for your hugs, kind words and T&P! I didn't expect this to hit me so hard this year... I think my mom's death (not to mention her upcoming birthday next week) has me more emotional, more raw, and grief has caught me off guard. Funny how that happens...
While I could never be happy about what happened with Grace, I am so grateful for you all, for this community of women who share a similar pain, and who have shaped lives and love out of loss. Thank you all for being here for me, you amazing mamas! (((HUGS))) right back 'atcha!
BFP #2 - 7/1/12 - Met my lucky charm Alexandra on 3-16-13!!!
BFP #1 - m/c on 12.22.09 @ 8w3d
BFP #2 - d&c on 07.22.10 @11w1d
BFP #3 - DS born on 06.22.11 @41w3d!
BFP #4 - Due 04.24.13
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BFP #1 06.20.11 I EDD 03.22.12 I MMC 09.01.11 (baby measured 6w4d) I D&C 09.07.11
BFP #2 02.21.12 I EDD 10.29.12 I DS born 11.06.12
Surprise BFP #3 07.27.13 I EDD 04.02.14 I Stick baby stick!
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