I'm on for the first time today and saw my call outs. Thank you so much...all of you. A quick update of the remainder of my week. Thursday we stuck around home mostly. Then my parents called around 7:30pm and asked if we'd be home. They went down to the beach and dragged that piece of driftwood that I carved Liam's name into! (DH and I were going to get it today.) I can't believe they did that for me. Well yes I can, but I was still so incredibly grateful. It's in our backyard now. Today DH and I took DS (and Liam) to a nearby state park spillway where you can feed hundreds and thousands of fish. DS loved it soooo much and DH and I hadn't been there since we were little kids! It was a beautiful day weather and company wise. It was just the four of us for the very last time. I got a picture with my camera on timer of us sitting on a bench in front of a bunch of red tulips. I will treasure it forever. Then we came home and played and did yardwork outside. DS sat on my lap and cuddled with me as we swung in our gazebo swing. He was so quiet. Almost like he "knew" it was just me and him and Liam. We were so quiet that birds actually came and ate from there feeders which are only about 6-8 feet away from the gazebo. I will never forget that either. Then before we went inside, I drove DS around the house on the riding mower. He loves it so much and I love that we did all of these things together. He's too young to know what's going on but I'll never forget this week with my boys.
Tomorrow at 8:00am is my procedure. I'm so sad and scared. I'm pretty sure I'd like to see him when all is said and done. I'll decide for sure tomorrow. Then what do I do after that on the way home without my Liam? I have to leave him there. They told me that remains are cremated and then sent to Illinois for burial. I pray with all my heart he knows how much I love him because I do...more than I can ever describe to anyone.
I'll update when I can. I may feel like it right away or it may take me a day or a week.. I have no idea, but I want each and every one of you to know how much I appreciate your love and support. As horrible as all of this has been, I'm telling you...your love has helped so much. Thank you ladies from the bottom of my heart.
***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.
We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***
Re: XP:Thank you ladies
Marriage: 10/02/2010
BFP#1 : 03.2012........MMC + D&C : 05.2012
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TTC since August 2011
BFP#1 3/16/12 EDD 11/21/12 Delivered 6/1/12 at 15 weeks 2 days
"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together... Keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever." ~ Winnie the Pooh
BFP#2 4/14/13 EDD 12/24/13 Please be our rainbow after the storm!
Beta#1 @ 15dpo 274, P4 16.9 Beta#2 @ 18dpo 940!! Doubling time of 40 hours!! u/s @ 6w2d showed a beautiful HB of 120! u/s @ 10w1d HB 174!! Grow, LO Grow!! Found out 7/22 we are TEAM BLUE!!
Zaiden Harper was born 12/22/13 at 1:46 am. 9lbs 8oz and 22in
~*~AL Always Welcome~*~
BFP#1 05/08/12 - EDD 01/03/13 - MC 05/23/12 8w6d
PCOS diagnosis 02/13 - Started Metformin 03/13
BFP#2 04/07/13 - EDD 12/17/13
You have such sweet, thoughtful parents, that they got the driftwood for you.
I'm glad you were able to do things, and make pleasant memories for your last few days with both boys.
You are such a strong, amazing woman, and I just want to give you the biggest hug in the world right now.
I hope your procedure tomorrow goes smoothly, and your recovery time is short. I'll be thinking of you. *monster hugs*
m/c: 9/06/12
LTB: 10/23/13
BFP #2 12/26/11 ~ EDD 9/6/12 ~ MMC discovered on 1/27/12 @ 8w1d (measured 6w2d)
BFP #3 8/10/12 ~ EDD 4/23/13 ~ MMC discovered on 9/13/12 @ 8w2d (measured 6w6d)
You will be in my continued prayers for peace and that you're able to feel all our love tomorrow.
Huge, huge hugs.
BFP #3 -mm/c @ 7wks, discovered at 9wks, D&C 9/28
BFP #4 5/29 EDD 2/9 - please be our rainbow
m/c 2002 7w2d
bfp 9.6.12 | edd 5.17.13 | m/c 9.19.12 5w5d
bfp 10.18.12 | edd 6/28/13
beta#1 10.18.12 - 96 / progestrone 32 || beta#2 10.22.12 - 711 || beta#3 10.25.12 - 2608 DD born 6/27/13
bfp 7.16.14 | edd 3/27/15
beta#1 7.18.14 - 149 || beta#2 7.21.14 - ??
BFP #2 8/22/12 | EDD 5/5/13 | DS1 born 5/9/13
BFP #3 4/25/15 | EDD 1/7/16 | MMC 7/2/15 @ 13w1d | D&E 7/8/15
BFP #4 12/9/15 | EDD 8/22/16 | DS2 born 5/18/16 at 26w2d
Just keep swimming.
Positive for HLA-B27, I'm a mutant
Testing - Me ok, gluten issue? DH - borderline count, low motility
4/28/11 IUI#1 = BFP!(5/25), EDD 2/2/12 - m/c 5w3d
7/3, 7/31, 9/25 - IUI#2-4=BFN
IVF#1 - 1 blast = BFP!! (12/30), EDD 9/9/12, confirmed c/p 4w2d
FET#1 3/2/12 - 2 blasts =BFP!! EDD 11/18/12, us#1 = twins! Confirmed m/c 5w6d
4/20-surprise BFP and another c/p 4w2d
FET#2 7/16/12 - 2 blasts = BFN
FET#3 8/20/12 - 1 blast - BFP!! Beta #1-2=177, 354
1st u/s 5w6d, one beautiful little HB , 2nd u/s 146bpm
baby girl born 5/10/13
TTC#2 since 12/17/2014, Cycle 8
Repeat Testing...FSH=12, AMH=3.8, AFC=28.
IUI#5 5/10/15- c/p?
IVF#2 8/19/15 - cancelled due to cysts
IVF#2 take two 10/2015 - 5 blasts frozen
FET#4 12/11/2015 - BFN - 4 blasts remaining
FET#5 2/18/16 - BFP!!! Beta1-3, 126, 250, 745!!
Tons of love and ((hugs)) to my IF sister NMscubagirl
The day the Bump died - Jasper is wise
January 13, 2012- m/c 1
September 12, 2012- m/c 2
MTHFR (2 copies C677T, +ANA)
Gluten free, dairy free, acupuncture
1/13/13- BFP #3-
1/14- 32 Progesterone 20
1/16- 100 Progesterone 23
1/22- 2054!! Progesterone 18.7 (On supplements since 1/16)
PLEASE be our sticky rainbow baby.. You have no idea how much you are loved already!!
You gotta keep your head up. You can let your hair down. Only rainbows after rain, the sun will always come again!
Don't worry about updating us, take care of youself and when you are ready, we'll be here for you.
Huge HUGS!!!
BFP #2 04/25/12 EDD 01/04/13(?) confirmed ectopic 05/16/12 6 wks 5 days 2 doses of MTX-Lost left tube on 05/25/12 Back to TTC, earlier than originally expected.
BFP #3 01/05/13 EDD 09/17/13 u/s 1/24/13-great appt, measuring 2 days ahead, NT scan 3/11/13-great scan measuring 4 days ahead, A/S 4/29/13-another great scan can't wait to meet my baby BOY!!!!!
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BFP #1 5.26.08 DD born 1.4.09
BFP #2 3.11.12 m/c 3.26.12
BFP #3 10.7.12 m/c 10.27.12
BFP #4 2.24.13 ectopic MTX 3.13.13 Right tube removed 3.29.13
BFP #5 5.27.13 DS born 1.22.14
BFP #6 4.14.16
July TTCAL Siggy Challenge - Favorite Children's Book
Surprise BFP 5/15/12, EDD 1/29/13, mm/c @ 8wks, discovered at 11wks, D&C 7/11/12
AF finally arrived on Christmas after 167 days of waiting.
TTA until January 2014
PGAL/PAL always welcome
M/C 7/8/12
Perfect baby boy born 7/8/13
BFP 8/20/14 EDD 4/27/15 It's a GIRL!!
BFP: 2/4/13 EDD: 10/11/13
Patiently waiting for Buggirl to join me!!
Beta #1 11dpo:89 Progesterone:38.9 Beta #2 18dpo:1940
HB seen at 6w HB 8w 5d 176bpm! Its a BOY!
grow rainbow grow!!!!
All Always Welcome!!
BFP #1 4/29/12 m/c 5/18/12 at 6w2d
BFP #2 8/28/12 EDD 5/10/13 MC 9/22/12 at 6w4d
BFP #3 12/31/12 EDD 9/12/13
Me Dx: DOR DH: all tests normal
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You've been in my prayers a lot lately, but you and Liam will be on my mind all day.
I'm so glad that you got to make some beautiful memories with your boys. Liam know you love him and you are doing this for him. Sending lots of hugs and strength your way.
*Gone but never forgotten* {c/p 11/16/12 @ 4w4d}{MMC 11/20/12 @ 8w5d}