Picked up DD from daycare and had DS with me as always. As we were walking out, I ran into her classmates parents and stopped to chat, they were seeing DS for the first time. I said to DD, "wait here with mommy", she kept walking slowly. I said "DD come here" and then she ran into the parking lot laughing. I put DS's car seat down and ran after her and picked her up. She was fine. there were no cars driving through. there could've been. where we were it was possible that a car may not have seen her coming either as we were kind of next to my car.
i got us all in the car and yelled at her to never ever run away from mommy and never run into the street. a million things went through my head. then i cried. i was angry at her and scared and i shouldve held her hand or not stopped to say hi. i just keep running it through my head over and over.
and now i'm afraid to take her to school tomorrow. everyday i get her out of the car first and she stands on the curb in front of the car holding her bag while i get DS. i always say stand right there and don't move. She never moves a muscle. now i dont trust her. i guess i could get DS first but some days it's still cold in the morning or like today, raining. so i want him out as little as possible and dont want to have to put him on the ground and then have to turn my back to him to get DD, especially if it is an empty spot next to me.
just tell me to calm the F down and we are all ok LOL.