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Update on us...long and maybe tmi in parts

Another long Update: Ashton continues to thrive. They removed his sugar water iv yesterday, so the only thing he still has at this point is his feeding tube. He is doing well maintaining his own temp, so they were planning on moving him out of the isolete into an open cot tonight. He is taking his feeds very well whether formula or breast milk. My supply is almost enough that he doesn't need formula at all. Hopefully he'll be 100% breast milk in a few days. Also found out today that his length (at 3d old- so likely at birth) was 19.25 inches and 5lbs 10oz at 32w3d. Carter was 9lbs and 20 inches at 40w4d. Ashton is definitely longer in the legs arms and fingers.

Me: Physically, the nightmare continues. I finally was able to call my OB today and they fit me in because I am in ridiculous amounts of pain and it should be getting better, not worse by now. Turns out all the straining to have a BM that caused my contrax to start has caused an (sorry if TMI) anal fissure, which has made having a BM since Ashton's birth off the charts painful. I also have pain when I urinate, which may be caused by irritation from the catheter, but it may also be a uti and last but not least, while my incision is healing up nicely, there appear to be pockets of fluid just to the sides of and above the incision site. Doc says that although I have no outward signs of infection, he thinks one is brewing. He warned that my incision may partially open up so the infection can drain and I may require wound care. He is sending me for bloodwork and a urine analysis tomorrow am. I am to go back for followup on Friday. He put me on high dose antibiotics to combat the expected belly infection and that same drug will help with any bladder infection. He said the fissure could take a very long time to heal, but they can't really deal with that until I can have regular soft movements, so I am to continue taking colace 2x a day and a laxative 2.x per day. Recovery could be slow in the butt department. All of this is taking a toll emotionally, but I am trying to battle through, just like Ashton has done. If he can deal so well with the hand he was dealt, then mom will just suck it up and carry on. My boys need me strong and healthy and dammit, I am going to get there sooner, rather than later.

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Re: Update on us...long and maybe tmi in parts

  • First off, I'm glad Ashton's doing great!

    But as for you, oh no in all departments!! That sounds absolutely horrible!! I hope that they're able to get the infections under control so that they can concentrate on helping the fissure because that sounds incredibly painful.

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  • I'm glad that Ashton is doing well, but also sorry to hear that you are having a difficult time. I hope the drugs clear things up for you. Stay strong!
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  • Yay for Ashton's progress!

    But, Boo on your butt! I am so sorry that you are dealing with these painful and frustrating complications. (((HUGS))) Lot's of Get Well Soon vibes headed your way! 

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    Finally got the damn IUD out. Waiting to stop bleeding.
    SIS shows rippled funky shaped ute, but given clearance to begin sFET calendar.
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  • So glad that Ashton is doing well, but sending you lots of get better vibes!
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  • Yay Ashton!!! I'm so sorry you are having such a rough recovery, though! :[ I hope at least some of these issues clear quickly for you. I'll be keeping you in my prayers.

  • Wow you must be in a lot of pain! I'm so sorry to hear. Did the doc ok a lidocaine spray? I heard that can help.

    So happy to hear Ashton is doing so well. You will get there soon too, mama. Thinking of you both.
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  • So glad Ashton is thriving! It's fantastic!

    I also had a healed on its own just after my 6 week postpartum visit. The alternative to letting it heal on its own was to have a cortisone shot in the booty...I hope you find relief soon.

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  • I'm so glad to hear Ashton is improving. As for you, I am so so sorry you are dealing with this. I had urinary issues as well but it cannot compare to what you are going through. I am sending you positive healing vibes that you will recover quickly.
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  • Glad Ashton is doing so well!

    But I am sorry you are having such a tough time! Sending you lots of positive vibes for a speedy recovery!
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  • Super happy that Ashton is doing so well!  So sorry to hear about all your troubles! Hope the antibiotics clear up both infections, and that your "butt situation" resolves itself quickly!!!  

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  • happy to hear Ashton is doing well... sounds like you're in a lot of pain though :( I hope that changes soon!!
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  • I am glad that Ashton is doing great. That is wonderful news. He was definitely a long boy. : )  I am sorry you are having all these issues and troubles. I hope they figure them out quickly so you can be back to yourself. Lots of ((hugs)) going out to you.

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  • Oh my goodness, you poor thing.  FWIW, my butt hurt just reading that.  I am so glad to hear that Ashton is doing so well at least.  Hopefully you'll be back to normal in no time, and Ashton will be home in no time.  I am seriously shocked at how big he was!

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  • Well, you definitely win the award again this week for whose got it the worst!  I'm so happy that Ashton is continuing to kick proverbial asss, but man, what a nightmare you've got going on with your own recovery.  Major prayers that things settle down for you ASAP and everything from here on out is sunshine and puppy dogs.  We are all rooting for you!
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  • Woowhoo!  Go little Ashton!  What an amazing little boy!  

    I'm so sorry you're having so many complications.  Ugh!   It sounds like they are being proactive and doing their best to try to get you up and feeling better asap.  I'm sure even though you're feeling like hell you're already being super strong for your boys.  ((hugs))



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  • Oh honey, I'm so sorry your recovery has turned into such a pain in the a$$.  (Did I get just a little smile from you?)  No, in all seriousness, I'm sending all the good recovery thoughts I have to you and little Ashton, althought he seems to be quite the awesome little fighter.  Not that it makes it any easier, but I know you're a strong woman who can get through all of this and will come out of the tunnel to beautiful sunshine and a rainbow.  *hugs*
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  • I'm so glad to hear Ashton is growing stronger each day! I hope that you heal up quickly. It's so hard to deal with physical pain when the emotions are all ready busy with a new baby. My T&Ps are with you!

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  • It's so good to hear that Ashton is getting stronger by the day - now if only your body would catch up a bit!  Hopefully some of our T&P's will help?  Hopefully!


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  • So happy little Ashton is thriving!

    As for you...that does NOT sound like fun.  Anal fissure?  Just the words sound painful, and the thought of an infection even more painful.  Glad your doc is on top of it, and sending good thoughts to your immune system to kick it into high gear!!

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  • I'm so glad Ashton is doing so well, but good Lord, I'm sorry things are so painful for you!  That is a lot of bad stuff going on.  I hope with the meds you start to feel better quickly.
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  • Oh my word, talk about drawing the short straw! Yikes! I am so sorry your recovery is so awful. I think you deserve a few totally boring years (and lots of baby snuggles!) with all you have been through.

    Ashton sounds like a rockstar (just like his mom)! It seems like he is on the fast track home.

    Big ((hugs)). I hope things settle down soon and you get to feeling better. 

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  • Love that Ashton is doing great, I hope they get you all fixed ASAP though.
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  • Wow, you poor thing.  :(  I'm so glad Ashton is doing well, but man...owie on your part.  I've taken care of a few patients with anal fissures (sometimes common after chemo induced colitis).  Can you doctor prescribe you some topical lidocaine for it, right before you go poop?  That might give you some local relief. 

    Thinking of you guys!  

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  • I'm so happy Ashton's making progress. I hope your bum feels better soon!!!!
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  • Glad to hear that Ashton continues to do better!  Hopefully your body can remember what normal is & quickly!!!!
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