until yesterday. While at the supermarket DH and i ran into a coworker of his.. his wife is pregnant and due close to when i was due.. She looked at me a little puzzled, but said.. I heard you are expecting too! At first, I said no, but she and her husband looked confused, so I said.. well we lost it... I was okay.. until I got home... and the tears started fresh, as though it just happened. I guess I just have to accept that this will always hurt in some way or another, whether it be in the form of a sad memory that brings tears to my eyes, or anger when I see my pregnant neighbor smoking a cigarette, or really anything that reminds me that I am no longer having my baby.