@cooaladoll Ah, that's lovely. Again, I'm so sorry for your loss. There's always been something very prophetic about Sufjan's work in my life and death seems to have been a part of that, unfortunately. My friend who passed was my concert buddy, too. We'd go all over the country to see them. We actually went to Montreal, where we'd end up living together eventually, to see Radiohead for their In Rainbows tour and the aforementioned Wolf Parade concert. 32 hours on a smelly bus to stay for 24 hours and get right back on the bus. I'd hoped to take my baby to the reunion concert in utero because they meant a lot to both of us, but alas I'm here now. I'm positive you'll find the perfect way to honour him.
Renee, 34 + Devon, 29 married 08/13 TTC 09/15 *TW Loss mentioned* BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16 MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3 TTCAL 3/2016 Acupuncture 11/16 Dx December 2016: unexplained January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI = BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby! EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17 Ambrose born on his due date!
AF decided to show up uninvited this morning. I am more bummed than anything. But I think I am going to take this chance to "unplug" for a little while and enjoy some of the spring weather that we are finally starting to see. I think this next round I am going to try and just have fun with it... no more temping, no more opks, and try not to go BSC... lol. I have my FX for you all and I'm sure I will be back in a couple weeks lurking to see how everyone is doing.
*** TW *** Me 31, DH 30
Married: 07/2014, TTC since 12/2015
BFP #1: 1/1/16, MC 1/14/16 (6 weeks), D&C 2/5/16 (9 weeks) BFP #2: 5/25/16, MC 6/23/16 (8 weeks), D&C 6/24/16, 2nd D&C for retained tissue and fibroid removal 9/1/16 BFP #3: 12/24/16 EDD 09/04/2017
@dogmomwantinghuman I count the day I had my D&C as CD1
of my first cycle post MC. I was benched
that cycle, but it was still the first cycle.
But when I say how long I’ve been TTCAL I don’t count that cycle. So I’m on cycle 5 after MC, but only on 4th
cycle TTCAL.
@DinosaurJumper I got
6 Black Australorps and they’ll be ready to pick up at the end of April. Super excited! Would love to have more, but have to ease DH
into these things. Now we’ve gotta build a coop in the next month
and a half.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
@chloe97 I was lurking on PGAL when I first saw your sad news...I was hoping for the best for you, and I'm so terribly sorry for your loss.
I am on a well needed family vacation and have quickly lurked through all of the recent discussions. Seems to be lots of plans made for some of you with your doctors moving forward. I hope this brings comfort and more importantly, success!
Status: TWW, 9dpo of our 4th cycle trying post loss #2. Feeling hopeful but I can't handle BFNs emotionally so I wait until AF's scheduled showing to test. Which won't be until after the weekend.
Rave: just starting a nice family vacation in Florida. Hanging out by the pool and relaxing in the warmth. Love it.
Rant: had to literally run through Montreal airport yesterday from one end to the other (plus clear customs) to catch our flight. I don't run, and now today I'm sore. Am I BSC to worry that that episode screwed with implantation? Ha. Ugh.
GTKY: This is a tough one. Lots of fun shows over the years. I think I enjoyed U2 in Seattle and Coldplay in Vancouver the most - big stadium shows with tons of people and energy. Nothing like I could get in my small home city. But we did see Pearl Jam in our hometown about 12 years ago and it was a great show!! DH is a big Iron Maiden fan (I am not) but I went with him to a show in Toronto once, he was so happy and it was a lifelong dream of his to see them before they stop touring, and it made me happy, too.
best wishes for a positive week for everyone
H and I both 30 TTC #1 started Aug 2014 BFP Apr 3 2015 natural M/C April 20 2015 @ 6w6d BFP Nov 18 2015 natural M/C Nov 23 2015 @ 5w4d.
@shae86 whoops! We had the same thing happen last month. More my fault though because I O'd later than I thought I did. I did feel a bit better about it when AF finally came. Sorry about your not getting the job, but it does sound like what you have going may be better suited for your near future, so hopefully it was serendipity. And wow, that Lumineers show sounds like it will be totally awesome!
@brooklyngirl18 and @mandi135 it sounds like you're both so close! Hopefully you get your 0's very soon and AF is right around the corner.
@mandi135 it's amazing how those experiences stick with you. I'm so happy to at least have the memories of these good times with my friend and I hope that's how it is for you too.
@silentP you most definitely aren't out of the game yet. FX for you. I'm having a hard time too with the things on hold. There are times when I feel like I've restricted half of everything in my life in order to not miss any little chance or opportunity to get KU, and then the other half is up in the air waiting, just in case I become KU.
@chloe97 there are no words truly. I just hope we can keep you company again through the rough time. Glad you're going to get to see the Pearl Jam anniversary show this year, that sounds great!
@fivetimesnoluck your DH definitely sounds like a keeper Very sweet of him!
@dogmomwantinghuman sorry about the rough times. I had that same question (1) recently and never did ask it. FF counted the bleeding from my MC as cycle days, so I just went with it and have always counted from the loss. But as PP said, TTC cycles I usually say one less since I was benched. Sorry being sick has messed up your temps and is making things wonky for you. Hopefully you're well again soon and things return more to normal.
@DinosaurJumper hooray for a great LP length! Sounds like you put in a ton of work to get there. Congrats on the running accomplishment!
@reneeannemm thank you so much! I'm sorry that plans didn't work out for your rainbow to be able to experience the reunion show (tho never say never, maybe he/she'll just be smaller at that time than you thought). I'm realizing that our dear friends were so much a part of us, how can some of that not be transferred through to our children? I truly feel that as much as he was a part of my life evolution growing up, and his loss is a part of my life now while TTC, I'm sure some part of my friend will be reflected in my future rainbow. Whether it strangely materializes as physical traits, or my wish for personality characteristics, I know a little piece of his soul will shine through somehow. I hope to the moon the same for you.
@stephann85 do what you need to do. I find unplugging often helps me, whether it's just for a couple of days or months at a time, the mental health break is always refreshing.
@megsbrock enjoy the rest of your vacation! I hope it's relaxing and distracting enough to keep all the BSC's at bay.
@roper2617 I have been too. I wore them instead of panty liners, but they still were a big help whenever I started leaking and didn't have another tampon. No toilet paper pads this AF! My only complaint is that they take sooo long to dry. But this month I will buy another pair and not have that issue! If you do end up trying them, I hope they work well for you @dpjennifer So cute! That should be a lot of fun! I set up my rabbits' enclosure this fall and that was some hard work, but it's cool to be able to do it. I totally get what you mean for DH. I am laying the ground work for another puppy that I want in a couple of years. Lol he's not big on change so it takes awhile. Hope you guys enjoy your chicks and get lots of yummy eggs! @BornReady Glad your procedure went well and you don't have any blockages! What an awesome nurse. I may be a bit of a nut, but I always love it when people do things like that. Going the extra mile @stephann85 I recently dropped all of the TTC practices, no app, no testing, no planning. It feels great! Like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I hope it is the same for you and we will be here when you are ready t come back
Can I just say how AWESOME this board is??!! You ladies are so sweet and wonderful and kind and so many other synonyms! I was lurking on TTGP this morning, and man the claws come out over there. It's understandable, but over here it feels so much more welcoming and inclusive
I'm new to gifs, but I have a huge arsenal of memes!
Wish I could make human babies like I make plant babies!
There's a gazillion of them!! Married to for 3yrs w/5 furbabies
This thread is making me dig out my CD collection so I can listen to all the great music being talked about at work. So far I've hit Pearl Jam and The Dixie Chicks - thanks for reminding me of how much I enjoy these albums. (Yes, I know, CDs...I refuse to get rid of my collection)
@DinosaurJumper I agree so much about this board vs the ttc board. I did an intro there but never participated because it just didn't feel right but this board is so inclusive and amazingly supportive.
@DinosaurJumper Yikes, not gonna lie here - I'm pretty scared of The Bump outside of this board right here. And I'm tough as shit. And I agree, I see so much compassion and care here.
Renee, 34 + Devon, 29 married 08/13 TTC 09/15 *TW Loss mentioned* BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16 MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3 TTCAL 3/2016 Acupuncture 11/16 Dx December 2016: unexplained January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI = BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby! EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17 Ambrose born on his due date!
@DinosaurJumper I am with you. I lurked over on the TTGP board today and it was full of crazy trolls and snarky ladies. Some of the posts made me wanted to punch some of them in their uteruses. This place is much more supportive and close-knit. I don't know of any women who are stronger and more deserving than these.
Gaah my hcg came back at 1. So either I implanted late which is possible since this is the first cycle post m/c or I'm not pregnant. Either way dh and I are okay about it. I just would like to know for sure. I'm 10Dpo and AF is due Saturday and I have no signs of her showing up. I'll poas on Monday if she still isn't here.
Our RainbowBaby H arrived at 37 weeks on 12/20/16!
Baby E arrived at 37 weeks on 01/31/15!
Married my Marine 05.23.14
*TW* TWIN LOSS 7.2.15 BFP 9.7.15 CP BFP 12.31.15 MC 2.28.16 BFP 10.14.17 CP BFP 3.10.18 D&C 4.13.18
1. Hey guys! Not new but have fell off the map for the past couple months. Misscarried in December at 10weeks right on news years eve, rang in the new year super upset. Luckily my husband went out that night to get cases of beer to make me feel better but I don't think I even drank. I do have two kids that are 2yrs and 4yrs old tomorrow actually :-). I'd love to have a 3rd but I'm emotionally really scared still and we also just went to Puerto Rico so I'm benched for the 2-3 month period just because my husband got 2 mosquito bites.
2. Status: benched but really just living life at this point. My periods are still messed up, still- so who knows if I'm even ovulating so I'm not entirely avoiding because I don't think I'm even ovulating. The chances with the mosquito thing is like getting struck by lighting.. But apparently the chances of misscarrying a 10 week old fetus is also like less than 5% according to Google and that was me, so anything can happen.
3. Rants? Annoyed with my dumb period, it's been 35 days, 15 days, then 25 days. Completely stupid. I know after I stopped breastfeeding both times it's came after 25 days then went back to normal so hopefully this is it and my body is fixing itself.
4. Muse is amazing balls in concert but my favorite concert of all time was The Killers. Sorry, but they were so dam$ good in concert. The thought of how awesome it was makes me happy and I wish I could see them again! So freakin awesome.
@kycade3013 good luck with figuring out AF - irregular cycles are so annoying, ugh.
My hcg is still at 49, which is a good sign that it's dropping, but means I have to do blood work again in 2 weeks and the bleeding I'm having now is just the miscarriage finishing up. If it took my body this long to do that, I am glad I didn't try a natural m/c since I don't think my mental health could have taken a full month of waiting.
@KyCade3013 Hello! Don't think we've met before, I joined in Jan. Irregular periods are frustrating! I hope yours start getting in line again soon! Welcome back! @AshleySparkle720 Well, it sounds like you and your DH are doing good. I used to get so desperate and would never accept negative tests. I think that was worse for my mental health than anything else in this journey. Just saying it's awesome how you reacted to a possible negative. I do hope you get your sticky baby soon though!
I'm new to gifs, but I have a huge arsenal of memes!
Wish I could make human babies like I make plant babies!
There's a gazillion of them!! Married to for 3yrs w/5 furbabies
Sorry I'm just now getting a chance to comment to everyone's posts. And everyone who is able to comment like this all the time is amazing!
@al_twincities Maybe the sauna will be the change you needed.
@reneeannemm I had to look up cabane à sucre, and now I think they are the cutest little cabins. I picture them smelling amazing too.
@MooFish2364 Did you end up putting an offer in? 1st or 10th house, its always a mix of exciting and scary.
@Spartanrd4 I felt the same way about moving forward. Hopefully your done as well.
@caticatp Sorry AF was so horrible, its not fun to start but some months are just horrendous.
@roper2617 I love that your MIL had an Easter egg hunt for you guys. DH showed me a "Beer Hunt" that I think I want to do for him next year. Instead of eggs and candy, craft beers are hidden for the adults to find.
@fivetimesnoluck Sorry that your feeling in a funk, but that was so sweet of your DH for bringing the flowers.
@bornready Thats awesome that they were able to start testing so fast.
@snobunniemel Uhhhh some people just suck. Sorry you had to deal with her.
@dpjennifer Yay for baby chicks! They are so cute, those are the kind of pictures that are always good to see.
@MWoodside A late welcome, and I'm so sorry for your losses.
@mtvkv5 So sorry for your loss, but glad your here. Everyone here helped me so much, I hope you find the same.
@cooaladoll For what its worth, I only had the faintest of faint BFP on 13 DPO, BFN until then. FX for you
@shae86 Sorry about the job, but your current job sounds like a great fit with your plans.
@brooklyngirl18 FX that AF comes soon for you and you can at least feel like you are moving forward. I was the same way, it's so frustrating to just be in limbo.
@mandi135 Glad to see your numbers coming down, FX 0 comes soon
@silentP FX the 'slim chance' month works again for you (I hope that comes off right, I have read and re-read it)
2. Status: CD3, I think. I thought AF started Monday, but it was so brief and then gone. The cramping has been horrible though, so I feel like its just a matter of time. Monday my HCG was down to 4.2, so maybe I haven't even started this cycle yet.
3. Rave: Last night I came home to a bunch of things DH had surprise ordered for my car. (DH and I are into custom/classic cars. He bought me a 1954 Cadillac Bel Air because I wanted something with a back seat for a car seat, that I could take on my own to some of the shows.) I'm so exited for car show season to start this year.
4. GTKY: We tend to like Rockabilly/ Classic Rock/ Country, one of the best that we went to was ZZ-Top at the Hard Rock in Tulsa. For being an event venue, it feels really small and great viewing.
Married since 9/2014 TTC since 7/2015 BFP 12/24/2015 Miscarriage 3/4/2015 at 14 weeks Baby Girl BFP 9/10/2016 EDD 5/23/17
@MooFish2364 Good luck with it! I'm an office manager for a real estate brokerage and it as been crazy lately. Either with what sellers think their homes are worth or how fast something that is priced correctly is sells.
Married since 9/2014 TTC since 7/2015 BFP 12/24/2015 Miscarriage 3/4/2015 at 14 weeks Baby Girl BFP 9/10/2016 EDD 5/23/17
Sorry I'm just now getting a chance to comment to everyone's posts. And everyone who is able to comment like this all the time is amazing!
@al_twincities Maybe the sauna will be the change you needed.
@reneeannemm I had to look up cabane à sucre, and now I think they are the cutest little cabins. I picture them smelling amazing too.
@MooFish2364 Did you end up putting an offer in? 1st or 10th house, its always a mix of exciting and scary.
@Spartanrd4 I felt the same way about moving forward. Hopefully your done as well.
@caticatp Sorry AF was so horrible, its not fun to start but some months are just horrendous.
@roper2617 I love that your MIL had an Easter egg hunt for you guys. DH showed me a "Beer Hunt" that I think I want to do for him next year. Instead of eggs and candy, craft beers are hidden for the adults to find.
@fivetimesnoluck Sorry that your feeling in a funk, but that was so sweet of your DH for bringing the flowers.
@bornready Thats awesome that they were able to start testing so fast.
@snobunniemel Uhhhh some people just suck. Sorry you had to deal with her.
@dpjennifer Yay for baby chicks! They are so cute, those are the kind of pictures that are always good to see.
@MWoodside A late welcome, and I'm so sorry for your losses.
@mtvkv5 So sorry for your loss, but glad your here. Everyone here helped me so much, I hope you find the same.
@cooaladoll For what its worth, I only had the faintest of faint BFP on 13 DPO, BFN until then. FX for you
@shae86 Sorry about the job, but your current job sounds like a great fit with your plans.
@brooklyngirl18 FX that AF comes soon for you and you can at least feel like you are moving forward. I was the same way, it's so frustrating to just be in limbo.
@mandi135 Glad to see your numbers coming down, FX 0 comes soon
@silentP FX the 'slim chance' month works again for you (I hope that comes off right, I have read and re-read it)
@reneeannemm thank you so much! I'm sorry that plans didn't work out for your rainbow to be able to experience the reunion show (tho never say never, maybe he/she'll just be smaller at that time than you thought). I'm realizing that our dear friends were so much a part of us, how can some of that not be transferred through to our children? I truly feel that as much as he was a part of my life evolution growing up, and his loss is a part of my life now while TTC, I'm sure some part of my friend will be reflected in my future rainbow. Whether it strangely materializes as physical traits, or my wish for personality characteristics, I know a little piece of his soul will shine through somehow. I hope to the moon the same for you.
Thank you. I needed this. I agree; he is in every cell in my body now and there's no way he won't be a part of our rainbow.
Renee, 34 + Devon, 29 married 08/13 TTC 09/15 *TW Loss mentioned* BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16 MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3 TTCAL 3/2016 Acupuncture 11/16 Dx December 2016: unexplained January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI = BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby! EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17 Ambrose born on his due date!
1. New here; I posted just a couple of times in the Miscarriage board. Brief intro: I am 29; DH is 31. We started TTC in December 2015 and were lucky to get a BFP on January 8. Baby always measured behind but after hearing the heartbeat on Feb 8, I ended up having a natural MC around Feb 17. I've been having my hcg levels checked regularly and as of Monday, they were negative.
2. Status: WTO, CD 2. I'm doing pretty well at this point. We are looking forward to trying this month. Scared, but hopeful at the same time. My first period post miscarriage arrived yesterday. I was expecting it to be painful, but so far, it's been very mild compared to my usual periods.
3. Rant/rave: as I noted, my doctor wanted to test my levels and watch them fall to zero. Originally they dropped pretty quickly (520 to 49 in a week) but then slowed down. I went last week after a two week break and my doctors office called and said they needed me to go in once more because to be negative, I needed to be less than 2.39 and my results were 2.45. Ergo. So, .06 and another $25 copayment later, we are finally at negative. I know I could've just declined but part of me wished/hoped I was already pregnant again and they'd tell me that, as I had ovulated since the MC and we didn't bench ourselves. Nonetheless, we are hopeful for another pregnancy soon.
4. I've been to literally two concerts my entire life: Nelly and JaRule when I was in high school (not my choice) and Trans-Siberian Orchestra in December. TSO was a very cool experience.
1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): I'm not new but I don't really post here that often. I'm mostly over on TTGP. So I'll do a brief refresher on me really quick.
DH and I have been TTC since January 2015. Well, "trying" since DH wanted to try a "laid back" approach without all the temping and such. I started temping, charting, OPKs, etc. in August 2015. First BFP in October 2015. MC November '15 at 6w4d. Second BFP March '16 which turned out to be a chemical. MC at 5w2d.
2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.) WTO
3. Rants/raves: My DH doesn't see the chemical pregnancy as a loss. I spent awhile immediately after trying to pretend it wasn't a loss. I even kept going back and looking at the squinter lines to try to convince myself they weren't really there. Ya know because without a positive test it isn't a chemical it's just a period. But no amount of pulling them back out to look at them again has been able to convince me that they were BFNs. And really, it all just feels like a loss to me. So I'm done fighting it. I'm just going to stop lying to myself and admit it was a chemical. Hopefully then I can deal with my grief and move on.
Rave: DH and I just found out that we're getting a pretty nice tax return this year.
4. GTKY: What was the best concert you've ever seen? I've never actually been to a concert.
Me: 28 Husband: 31 TTC#1: January 2015- September 2016 Infertility, Recurrent Pregnancy Loss Rainbow baby born June 6, 2017 ❤️
@Chloe97 I
have looked into testing with my insurance. They weren’t really helpful. They
said they needed billing codes before they could tell me if they are covered.
My doctor wouldn’t give me the codes. There are no REs in my city; the nearest
one is an hour away. I am 29 years old. I’ve never had a HSG. Thanks for the
help.
laeberge3 Sorry you are
hear, but welcome! I hope you find the support you need.
@NamelessAria
I’m sorry your DH isn’t on the same page as you. I hope you treat yourselves
with your tax return.
I called my
GYN and have a consultation on April 18th. That is right before my FW so I
doubt if anything will happen until May but it's a start. Last year at my
annual she said she does the preliminary testing and then refers to a RE if
needed. The require $250 deposit since most insurances don't cover it. I was
ready to start testing in December but got lucky with my BFP in November.
Here's to hoping I can have the same luck and cancel this appointment.
@NamelessAria It's good that you stopped fighting it. A chemical pregnancy is still a loss! My DH reacted the same way. Not that he didn't care, just it was so short-lived (An evening and then AF the next morning) I think DHs sometimes just aren't as tuned into it as us. We are experiencing it and contemplating the possibilities very early in the TWW. DHs' don't really know what's going on and react until that test turns positive. I'm sorry for your losses
PS I thoroughly enjoy your GIF siggy XD
edited to add the PS rather than post again.
I'm new to gifs, but I have a huge arsenal of memes!
Wish I could make human babies like I make plant babies!
There's a gazillion of them!! Married to for 3yrs w/5 furbabies
Took a pregnancy test this morning and it's still positive 4 weeks post D&C....I really thought it would be negative by now I will have the doctor on Monday check a level just to see where I am at. Not a good start to a happy Friday!
@Spartanrd4 me too! Feel like my body is being a jerk and it's a cruel joke. My hcg on 3/17 was 246 and it is supposed to half in half every 48 hours just like it doubles. Guess my uterus can't do math and realized that should be 0 by now.
Re: TTCAL Check-In Week of 3/28
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
Me 31, DH 30
BFP #2: 5/25/16, MC 6/23/16 (8 weeks), D&C 6/24/16, 2nd D&C for retained tissue and fibroid removal 9/1/16
BFP #3: 12/24/16 EDD 09/04/2017
Married 10/12
DS 11/14
Ectopic 2/16
PCOS/Ovulation Dysfunction 11/16
IUI x 3- BFN
Laparoscopy 3/17 Endo and tubal damage
IVF- 4/17- 40 eggs retrieved, 10 blasts, 7 pgs tested embryos
FET- 6/17- BFP!
Due Feb 15, 2017
Sorry to everyone having a rough cycle. Seems like it's been an emotional and rough one for many!
@chloe97 Sorry to see you back here.
@dogmomwantinghuman I count the day I had my D&C as CD1 of my first cycle post MC. I was benched that cycle, but it was still the first cycle. But when I say how long I’ve been TTCAL I don’t count that cycle. So I’m on cycle 5 after MC, but only on 4th cycle TTCAL.
@DinosaurJumper I got 6 Black Australorps and they’ll be ready to pick up at the end of April. Super excited! Would love to have more, but have to ease DH into these things. Now we’ve gotta build a coop in the next month and a half.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
I am on a well needed family vacation and have quickly lurked through all of the recent discussions. Seems to be lots of plans made for some of you with your doctors moving forward. I hope this brings comfort and more importantly, success!
Status: TWW, 9dpo of our 4th cycle trying post loss #2. Feeling hopeful but I can't handle BFNs emotionally so I wait until AF's scheduled showing to test. Which won't be until after the weekend.
Rave: just starting a nice family vacation in Florida. Hanging out by the pool and relaxing in the warmth. Love it.
Rant: had to literally run through Montreal airport yesterday from one end to the other (plus clear customs) to catch our flight. I don't run, and now today I'm sore. Am I BSC to worry that that episode screwed with implantation? Ha. Ugh.
GTKY: This is a tough one. Lots of fun shows over the years. I think I enjoyed U2 in Seattle and Coldplay in Vancouver the most - big stadium shows with tons of people and energy. Nothing like I could get in my small home city. But we did see Pearl Jam in our hometown about 12 years ago and it was a great show!!
DH is a big Iron Maiden fan (I am not) but I went with him to a show in Toronto once, he was so happy and it was a lifelong dream of his to see them before they stop touring, and it made me happy, too.
best wishes for a positive week for everyone
TTC #1 started Aug 2014
BFP Apr 3 2015
natural M/C April 20 2015 @ 6w6d
BFP Nov 18 2015
natural M/C Nov 23 2015 @ 5w4d.
@brooklyngirl18 and @mandi135 it sounds like you're both so close! Hopefully you get your 0's very soon and AF is right around the corner.
@mandi135 it's amazing how those experiences stick with you. I'm so happy to at least have the memories of these good times with my friend and I hope that's how it is for you too.
@silentP you most definitely aren't out of the game yet. FX for you. I'm having a hard time too with the things on hold. There are times when I feel like I've restricted half of everything in my life in order to not miss any little chance or opportunity to get KU, and then the other half is up in the air waiting, just in case I become KU.
@chloe97 there are no words truly. I just hope we can keep you company again through the rough time. Glad you're going to get to see the Pearl Jam anniversary show this year, that sounds great!
@fivetimesnoluck your DH definitely sounds like a keeper
@dogmomwantinghuman sorry about the rough times. I had that same question (1) recently and never did ask it. FF counted the bleeding from my MC as cycle days, so I just went with it and have always counted from the loss. But as PP said, TTC cycles I usually say one less since I was benched. Sorry being sick has messed up your temps and is making things wonky for you. Hopefully you're well again soon and things return more to normal.
@DinosaurJumper hooray for a great LP length! Sounds like you put in a ton of work to get there. Congrats on the running accomplishment!
@reneeannemm thank you so much! I'm sorry that plans didn't work out for your rainbow to be able to experience the reunion show (tho never say never, maybe he/she'll just be smaller at that time than you thought). I'm realizing that our dear friends were so much a part of us, how can some of that not be transferred through to our children? I truly feel that as much as he was a part of my life evolution growing up, and his loss is a part of my life now while TTC, I'm sure some part of my friend will be reflected in my future rainbow. Whether it strangely materializes as physical traits, or my wish for personality characteristics, I know a little piece of his soul will shine through somehow. I hope to the moon the same for you.
@stephann85 do what you need to do. I find unplugging often helps me, whether it's just for a couple of days or months at a time, the mental health break is always refreshing.
@megsbrock enjoy the rest of your vacation! I hope it's relaxing and distracting enough to keep all the BSC's at bay.
@dpjennifer So cute! That should be a lot of fun! I set up my rabbits' enclosure this fall and that was some hard work, but it's cool to be able to do it. I totally get what you mean for DH. I am laying the ground work for another puppy that I want in a couple of years. Lol he's not big on change so it takes awhile. Hope you guys enjoy your chicks and get lots of yummy eggs!
@BornReady Glad your procedure went well and you don't have any blockages! What an awesome nurse. I may be a bit of a nut, but I always love it when people do things like that. Going the extra mile
@stephann85 I recently dropped all of the TTC practices, no app, no testing, no planning. It feels great! Like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I hope it is the same for you and we will be here when you are ready t come back
Can I just say how AWESOME this board is??!! You ladies are so sweet and wonderful and kind and so many other synonyms! I was lurking on TTGP this morning, and man the claws come out over there. It's understandable, but over here it feels so much more welcoming and inclusive
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@DinosaurJumper I agree so much about this board vs the ttc board. I did an intro there but never participated because it just didn't feel right but this board is so inclusive and amazingly supportive.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
I'm benched/ on a mental health break.
Rant- I think I'm sick. I feel like poo.
Rave- I'm just glad Easter is over. I can only handle the in-laws in small doses.
GTKY - I've seen Aerosmith and Tom Petty
I'm sorry I can't individually reply to everyone. I'm mobile and I need a new phone. This phone is crap. Haha.
I echo @SnobunnieMel : hate that I'm on a loss board but, this group is way better than TTGP.
*TW*
TWIN LOSS 7.2.15
BFP 9.7.15 CP
BFP 12.31.15 MC 2.28.16
BFP 10.14.17 CP
BFP 3.10.18 D&C 4.13.18
*** warning kid mention in intro***
1. Hey guys! Not new but have fell off the map for the past couple months. Misscarried in December at 10weeks right on news years eve, rang in the new year super upset. Luckily my husband went out that night to get cases of beer to make me feel better but I don't think I even drank. I do have two kids that are 2yrs and 4yrs old tomorrow actually :-). I'd love to have a 3rd but I'm emotionally really scared still and we also just went to Puerto Rico so I'm benched for the 2-3 month period just because my husband got 2 mosquito bites.
2. Status: benched but really just living life at this point. My periods are still messed up, still- so who knows if I'm even ovulating so I'm not entirely avoiding because I don't think I'm even ovulating. The chances with the mosquito thing is like getting struck by lighting.. But apparently the chances of misscarrying a 10 week old fetus is also like less than 5% according to Google and that was me, so anything can happen.
3. Rants? Annoyed with my dumb period, it's been 35 days, 15 days, then 25 days. Completely stupid. I know after I stopped breastfeeding both times it's came after 25 days then went back to normal so hopefully this is it and my body is fixing itself.
4. Muse is amazing balls in concert but my favorite concert of all time was The Killers. Sorry, but they were so dam$ good in concert. The thought of how awesome it was makes me happy and I wish I could see them again! So freakin awesome.
@kycade3013 good luck with figuring out AF - irregular cycles are so annoying, ugh.
My hcg is still at 49, which is a good sign that it's dropping, but means I have to do blood work again in 2 weeks and the bleeding I'm having now is just the miscarriage finishing up. If it took my body this long to do that, I am glad I didn't try a natural m/c since I don't think my mental health could have taken a full month of waiting.
@AshleySparkle720 Well, it sounds like you and your DH are doing good. I used to get so desperate and would never accept negative tests. I think that was worse for my mental health than anything else in this journey. Just saying it's awesome how you reacted to a possible negative. I do hope you get your sticky baby soon though!
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TTC since 7/2015
BFP 12/24/2015 Miscarriage 3/4/2015 at 14 weeks
Baby Girl BFP 9/10/2016 EDD 5/23/17
3. Rave: Last night I came home to a bunch of things DH had surprise ordered for my car. (DH and I are into custom/classic cars. He bought me a 1954 Cadillac Bel Air because I wanted something with a back seat for a car seat, that I could take on my own to some of the shows.) I'm so exited for car show season to start this year.
4. GTKY: We tend to like Rockabilly/ Classic Rock/ Country, one of the best that we went to was ZZ-Top at the Hard Rock in Tulsa. For being an event venue, it feels really small and great viewing.
TTC since 7/2015
BFP 12/24/2015 Miscarriage 3/4/2015 at 14 weeks
Baby Girl BFP 9/10/2016 EDD 5/23/17
TTC since 7/2015
BFP 12/24/2015 Miscarriage 3/4/2015 at 14 weeks
Baby Girl BFP 9/10/2016 EDD 5/23/17
*TW*
TWIN LOSS 7.2.15
BFP 9.7.15 CP
BFP 12.31.15 MC 2.28.16
BFP 10.14.17 CP
BFP 3.10.18 D&C 4.13.18
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
2. Status: WTO, CD 2. I'm doing pretty well at this point. We are looking forward to trying this month. Scared, but hopeful at the same time. My first period post miscarriage arrived yesterday. I was expecting it to be painful, but so far, it's been very mild compared to my usual periods.
3. Rant/rave: as I noted, my doctor wanted to test my levels and watch them fall to zero. Originally they dropped pretty quickly (520 to 49 in a week) but then slowed down. I went last week after a two week break and my doctors office called and said they needed me to go in once more because to be negative, I needed to be less than 2.39 and my results were 2.45. Ergo. So, .06 and another $25 copayment later, we are finally at negative. I know I could've just declined but part of me wished/hoped I was already pregnant again and they'd tell me that, as I had ovulated since the MC and we didn't bench ourselves. Nonetheless, we are hopeful for another pregnancy soon.
4. I've been to literally two concerts my entire life: Nelly and JaRule when I was in high school (not my choice) and Trans-Siberian Orchestra in December. TSO was a very cool experience.
BFP: 10.3.16 | CP: 10.11.16
BFP: 12.14.16 | CP: 12.14.16
BFP: 1.23.17 | EDD 10.6.17 -- DS born 10.7.17
BFP: 9.9.18 | EDD 5.23.19 -- DD born 5.24.19
BFP: 9.1.21 | MC 10.1.21
I'm not new but I don't really post here that often. I'm mostly over on TTGP. So I'll do a brief refresher on me really quick.
DH and I have been TTC since January 2015. Well, "trying" since DH wanted to try a "laid back" approach without all the temping and such. I started temping, charting, OPKs, etc. in August 2015. First BFP in October 2015. MC November '15 at 6w4d. Second BFP March '16 which turned out to be a chemical. MC at 5w2d.
2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.) WTO
3. Rants/raves: My DH doesn't see the chemical pregnancy as a loss. I spent awhile immediately after trying to pretend it wasn't a loss. I even kept going back and looking at the squinter lines to try to convince myself they weren't really there. Ya know because without a positive test it isn't a chemical it's just a period. But no amount of pulling them back out to look at them again has been able to convince me that they were BFNs. And really, it all just feels like a loss to me. So I'm done fighting it. I'm just going to stop lying to myself and admit it was a chemical. Hopefully then I can deal with my grief and move on.
Rave: DH and I just found out that we're getting a pretty nice tax return this year.
4. GTKY: What was the best concert you've ever seen? I've never actually been to a concert.
TTC#1: January 2015- September 2016
Infertility, Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
Rainbow baby born June 6, 2017 ❤️
Baby #2 due June 12, 2018
Sorry it's taken me so long to respond. It's year end at work and it's been crazy!
@BornReady yay for your insurance!
@Chloe97 I have looked into testing with my insurance. They weren’t really helpful. They said they needed billing codes before they could tell me if they are covered. My doctor wouldn’t give me the codes. There are no REs in my city; the nearest one is an hour away. I am 29 years old. I’ve never had a HSG. Thanks for the help.
laeberge3 Sorry you are hear, but welcome! I hope you find the support you need.
@NamelessAria I’m sorry your DH isn’t on the same page as you. I hope you treat yourselves with your tax return.
I called my GYN and have a consultation on April 18th. That is right before my FW so I doubt if anything will happen until May but it's a start. Last year at my annual she said she does the preliminary testing and then refers to a RE if needed. The require $250 deposit since most insurances don't cover it. I was ready to start testing in December but got lucky with my BFP in November. Here's to hoping I can have the same luck and cancel this appointment.
~Formerly @dogmomwantinghuman ~
TTC #1 since January 2015
BFP #1: 11/30/15| MC 12/16/15BFP # 2: 6/2/16 | EDD 2/16/17
PS I thoroughly enjoy your GIF siggy XD
edited to add the PS rather than post again.
Married to
*TW*
TWIN LOSS 7.2.15
BFP 9.7.15 CP
BFP 12.31.15 MC 2.28.16
BFP 10.14.17 CP
BFP 3.10.18 D&C 4.13.18
DD born 7.27.2014
BFP 09.2015 - m/c 10.21.2015