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Agh!!! My crazy body....

jilligan14jilligan14 member
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I'm so done with this cycle!! It's at the point where most women will be getting ready to have AF and I don't think I've even ovulated! Blah!! The Wondfo OPK keeps looking soooo close. Seriously, that second line is staying solid and dark, just not as dark as the control line. The ClearBlue Advanced OPK keeps giving me the dang flashy smiley face ("high" fertility, or nonstop estrogen surge) but I have yet to see a solid smiley face ("peak" fertility, or LH surge). The EWCM is a happening thing now, as well as some cramps, twinges, etc. And I'm a bit moody and on edge, which tends to happen around O day. To make matters more confusing, my temp went up a little bit this am. Did I already O and the OPKs just missed it? The ClearBlue always gives me a blank after O so I just don't know what to think. And look at all those "H's" at the bottom of my chart (yes, those are all the flashy smiley boxes and yes, I used an entire box this cycle - talk about a waste of $$$$)!!!! I'm thinking I should just commit to starting the progesterone tonight and be DONE but every day I think I'm SOOOOO close to Oing and so I keep putting it off.

AGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!



ME: 36 (PCOS), DH: excellent SA
NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
m/c @ 7w (4/22/14), m/c @ 6w (11/19/14)
11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
EDD: 8/10/16 
8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
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    happyktmomhappyktmom member
    How frustrating!  I think I'm done with OPK's.  They just aren't reliable when you have PCOS because our abundance of follicles are always putting off LH.  I tried to play the game of seeing just how dark the line gets and I just can't rely on it.
    I'm so sorry you have to go through this - I totally know how you feel! 

    Good luck!
    **child mentioned**
    Me(38)PCOS/Hypothyroid   DH(43)Low T/ED
    MMC at 10 weeks 03/2011 DD born 01/2012   TTC #2 since 04/2014
    BFP 8/26/2016


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    Carazona5Carazona5 member
    How frustrating! :(
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    TomerineTomerine member
    I'm sorry- must be very frustrating to see that flashing smiley morning after morning. I'm certain I'd be holding off on the progesterone, too, in hopefulness.  I'm rooting for you!
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    thistle8677thistle8677 member
    @jilligan14 I am so sorry. I can't even imagine how freaking exhausted you must be right now. Crap.
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    carrieandrcarrieandr member
    I'm sorry, too. This process is maddening enough when cycles are normal.
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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    emsmama15emsmama15 member
    I'm sorry Jill! That's so frustrating...
    *** Child & current pregnancy mentioned ***
    Me - 41 (PCOS), Hubby - 43 (healthy)
    7/2013 - Sweet baby girl born (Clomid + TI)
    3/2014 - TTC #2, return to RE 7/2014
    12/2015: IVF #1 transferred two great looking embryos - BFP!
    First ultrasound: TWO beautiful little heartbeats!!
    Harmony: negative; level 2: babies look great and are boy/girl! :) 
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    HisPromisIsTrueHisPromisIsTrue member
    @carrieandroy found this great information sheet on CBE OPK. I found it extremely helpful when I was in a similar situation. It is possible that you ovulated but your LH levels weren't high enough for the kit to pick it up. I read on this board that there was at least one woman who conceived with flashing smileys only. Be encouraged :)

    **Child and Loss Mentioned**

    ~~~God's Promises are Good and True! ~~~

     Baby boy born 6/3/13 after 13 cycles :)
    Angel Baby Loss November 2018.
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    thistle8677thistle8677 member
    @jilligan14 how are you doing today?
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    carrieandrcarrieandr member
    @HisPromisIsTrue, I think you meant to tag @jilligan14 on your post instead of me.
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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    carrieandrcarrieandr member
    Ohhhh...nevermind -- I just realized you were telling Jill that I found that for you.  Got it.  :)
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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    jilligan14jilligan14 member
    @thistle8677 - thanks for checking in! Once I finally resigned to the fact that I wasn't going to ovulate and started taking the progesterone, I felt much better. There's something good about just moving forward and stopping all that crazy waiting. Plus I do have appointment with the RE on Tuesday so fingers crossed I get some new insight into my wacky cycles. Although with PCOS most doctors want to just throw a bunch of drugs your way, so we'll see (I'm starting to think drugs might be the only way when it comes to my stubborn ovaries).

    @HisPromisIsTrue - thanks for the info. I guess I could be in that small percentage of women who never get a +OPK but still ovulate. Although in the past, the OPKs always went to blank after O but right now I'm STILL getting flashy faces (even after taking the progesterone for a couple days). But anything is possible really so I guess a small part of me will keep some hope alive...

    Thanks everyone for listening to me rant. I hope my ovaries will cooperate this next cycle...
    ME: 36 (PCOS), DH: excellent SA
    NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
    m/c @ 7w (4/22/14), m/c @ 6w (11/19/14)
    11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
    Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
    12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
    1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
    EDD: 8/10/16 
    8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
    5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
    Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
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    dolphin012dolphin012 member
    @jilligan14 sounds so frustrating. Hoping your appt goes well and you start to get some answers next week.
    Me (42) w/ partner for 16+ years
    TTC #1: 11/2012 - 9/2013; 6/2014 - present
    Follistim + TI (3x): All BFNs
    Follistim + IUI (1x): BFN 
    IVF #1: 17 retrieved,15 fertilized, Day 3: 15, Day 5/6: 3 biopsied
    Result; 1 frozen blast (inconclusive PGS results)
    IVF #2; ER: 6/22 16 retrieved, 6/25: 5 transferred (CP), 2 frozen
    FET 9/17: BFN
    Current FET -- Transferred 2 day-3 embryos - BFN

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