Hi ladies. Since I've gone through all my losses, with my recent BFN I decided one evening to focus only on the little things that make me happy and it went over well on TTCAL that I thought you ladies can also appreciate a moment or so to reflect on the little things outside of the IF craziness that make you feel happy. So here is the post:
I'm not sure if this has been done. I have simple pleasures in life that replenish my soul and I thought it would be great to see what really strikes other people's core.
Here are the things that touch my soul:
Hot lemon water Willow trees Dawn Warm blankets Cold damp weather Kisses on the back of my neck Soft gentle kisses on my lips Long walks The sound of rain on a tin roof The quietness of freshly fallen snow
Me: 38 DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant DH: 34 MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012 IVF w/ICSI #1 10 little polar bears FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!! Beta 1= 276 Beta 2= 662 4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel 5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel 5/3/14 ~ D&C FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014 October 13, 2014 ~ BFN Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL Animals Interacting with Snow
When my dogs snuggle with me Sleeping w/ my windows open in the fall Sleeping in fresh washed sheets Running 1st thing in the a.m. and watching the sunrise Ice cream Dinner on the beach after being there all day Naps Shopping with gift cards Thunderstorms Dancing to 80s music
Great idea!!! Mine are: New socks Mc Donalds diet coke Fresh oranges Fresh air/ open windows Quiet snowfall Burning candles Fall colors Good morning kisses on my forehead A good chick flick (The Holiday, PS I Love You, The Notebook, Safe Haven) Campfires - the smell and the company
** Losses Mentioned **
Me(32) - Low AMH (0.46) and DH(33) - All good!
May 2014 - IUI (Follistim) = BFP! Ectopic. Surgery June 2014.
August/Sept 2014 - IVF #1. BFP! Chemical Pregnancy.
November 2014 - IVF #2; ER only - PGS testing 3 Frosties.
December 2014 - FET #1 - Beta on 12/17! BFP *It's TWINS*
When my dogs snuggle with me Sleeping w/ my windows open in the fall Sleeping in fresh washed sheets Running 1st thing in the a.m. and watching the sunrise Ice cream Dinner on the beach after being there all day Naps Shopping with gift cards Thunderstorms Dancing to 80s music
Freshly washed sheets are one of my favorite things!
Me: 38 DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant DH: 34 MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012 IVF w/ICSI #1 10 little polar bears FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!! Beta 1= 276 Beta 2= 662 4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel 5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel 5/3/14 ~ D&C FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014 October 13, 2014 ~ BFN Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL Animals Interacting with Snow
Great idea!!! Mine are: New socks Mc Donalds diet coke Fresh oranges Fresh air/ open windows Quiet snowfall Burning candles Fall colors Good morning kisses on my forehead A good chick flick (The Holiday, PS I Love You, The Notebook, Safe Haven) Campfires - the smell and the company
New socks are the BEST!
Me: 38 DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant DH: 34 MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012 IVF w/ICSI #1 10 little polar bears FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!! Beta 1= 276 Beta 2= 662 4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel 5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel 5/3/14 ~ D&C FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014 October 13, 2014 ~ BFN Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL Animals Interacting with Snow
Sleeping in on the weekend First snowfall while bundled up wearing PJs Road biking on the rail trail My DH saying "I love you more" Being the first one down the freshly groomed ski slope The sound of the snow as I ski Warm spring day after a long winter Apple picking and hot apple cider Curling up with a good book Walks after dinner on a beautiful night
When my dog snuggles up to me, especially when his body is touching my bare feet at night
The way my husband starts to laugh before he finishes what he's saying
Cuddling up on the couch watching football with DH
A freshly cleaned house
Fall candles
My morning Chai tea with a whole milk topper and vanilla syrup
Those skinny cow salted pretzel chocolate ice cream bars
lip stain
hot baths
holiday decorations
*early loss mentioned*
Me: 34 dx: endo and DOR
DH: 38 dx: normal
Endometrioma removed from left ovary 4/'09
Started TTC Aug. 2012
BFP Jan. '13 - (no heartbeat at 8w appointment) spontaneously MC at 9w
Nov. '13 AMH level 0.98
April '14 IUI w/clomid BFN
May '14 IUI w/clomid BFN
June '14 AMH level 0.5
IVF #1 July '14, 4R/4M/3F 2 8 cells transferred on day 3, nothing made it to freeze, BFN
IVF #2 Nov '14 EPP stimmed for 12 days 9R/4M/4F 2 7 cells transferred on day 3, nothing to freeze, BFN IVF #3 May '15 cancelled after highest possible meds dosages for over two weeks. converted to IUI, BFN DE IVF #1 Dec '15 transferred one BB2 blast, BFP due August 2016
Just reading all these makes me happy! AFM, I love...
Sitting in the garden A wet dog nose DH's soft skin A hot toddy Silence underwater Kitty cuddles Long summer days Singing loudly in the car Laughing fits Rooftop decks The smell of rain
*** Losses Mentioned ***
Me: 35 this month DH: 35
TTC since January 2013
2/13: BFP 4/13: MC @ 9 weeks - D&C - no chromosome testing 7/13: BFP 10/13: MC @ 3 1/2 months - D&C - chrom test normal
11/13: 1st RE visit for testing only - AMH .4 - FSH 11 - positive MTHFR (one copy)
2/14: BFP 4/13 (identical mono/tri quads, 2 conjoined) - MC @ 8 weeks - D&C - chrom test normal
10/14: RE 2nd opinion & IVF consult - Dx small uterine septum - AFC 3 total - recommended banking 3 ERs - DH slightly low morphology 12/14: First ER cycle - EPP w/testosterone, Lupron microflare w/Saizen. 4R/3M/2F. Both abnormal. RE strongly recommends donor eggs.
Hugs
Floating in the ocean (gosh I miss living on the coast!)
Bike rides by myself
Hot showers
Sleeping in freshly laundered sheets
Scotch
Getting a handwritten letter in the mail
Holding hands
Being out in the rain without a coat or umbrella
The smell of myrrh
Re: XP from TTCAL: GTKY: 10 simple pleasures
When my dogs snuggle with me
Sleeping w/ my windows open in the fall
Sleeping in fresh washed sheets
Running 1st thing in the a.m. and watching the sunrise
Ice cream
Dinner on the beach after being there all day
Naps
Shopping with gift cards
Thunderstorms
Dancing to 80s music
New socks
Mc Donalds diet coke
Fresh oranges
Fresh air/ open windows
Quiet snowfall
Burning candles
Fall colors
Good morning kisses on my forehead
A good chick flick (The Holiday, PS I Love You, The Notebook, Safe Haven)
Campfires - the smell and the company
DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
DH: 34
MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012
IVF w/ICSI #1
10 little polar bears
FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
Beta 1= 276
Beta 2= 662
4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
5/3/14 ~ D&C
FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL
Animals Interacting with Snow
DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
DH: 34
MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012
IVF w/ICSI #1
10 little polar bears
FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
Beta 1= 276
Beta 2= 662
4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
5/3/14 ~ D&C
FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL
Animals Interacting with Snow
First snowfall while bundled up wearing PJs
Road biking on the rail trail
My DH saying "I love you more"
Being the first one down the freshly groomed ski slope
The sound of the snow as I ski
Warm spring day after a long winter
Apple picking and hot apple cider
Curling up with a good book
Walks after dinner on a beautiful night
Love the topic!
IVF #3 May '15 cancelled after highest possible meds dosages for over two weeks. converted to IUI, BFN
DE IVF #1 Dec '15 transferred one BB2 blast, BFP due August 2016
Sitting in the garden
A wet dog nose
DH's soft skin
A hot toddy
Silence underwater
Kitty cuddles
Long summer days
Singing loudly in the car
Laughing fits
Rooftop decks
The smell of rain
*** Losses Mentioned ***
Me: 35 this month DH: 35
TTC since January 2013
2/13: BFP 4/13: MC @ 9 weeks - D&C - no chromosome testing
7/13: BFP 10/13: MC @ 3 1/2 months - D&C - chrom test normal
11/13: 1st RE visit for testing only - AMH .4 - FSH 11 - positive MTHFR (one copy)
2/14: BFP 4/13 (identical mono/tri quads, 2 conjoined) - MC @ 8 weeks - D&C - chrom test normal
10/14: RE 2nd opinion & IVF consult - Dx small uterine septum - AFC 3 total - recommended banking 3 ERs - DH slightly low morphology
12/14: First ER cycle - EPP w/testosterone, Lupron microflare w/Saizen. 4R/3M/2F. Both abnormal. RE strongly recommends donor eggs.
***EVERYONE WELCOME***
***EVERYONE WELCOME***