@Manada and I have some very sad news. We lost both of our babies on Wednesday.
As many of you know, in utero we had been calling the babies "The
Rockies" and "Rocky 1 and Rocky 2" because our theme song
throughout IVF and pregnancy was "Eye of the Tiger."
Wednesday morning, with virtually no warning, Rocky 1's water broke. We were 21
weeks exactly.
At 9:31pm on Weds, Tavin Sara T. was stillborn. At 10:05pm Casey
Elizabeth T. was born alive and lived for about the next hour and a bit. We lay
with both beautiful, precious babies on our chests, and we spoke and sang to
both of them while we held them.
(This is
@Manada talking: Tavin and Casey are so beautiful, and they both look so much
like H. in different ways.
Tavin has a ridge on the back of her head that is a feature of H’s and
H’s philtrum, which made her expression one that I recognized right away. Casey has H’s lips, nose and ears for
sure, and probably her cheek shape as well. Both of our daughters also have H’s very distinct
knees and her long monkey-toes; those were one of the first things I looked
for.)
We were very lucky to have our birth attended by our wonderful midwife even
though we were obviously in the hospital. She caught both babies and was an
incredible source of support through a day the horrors, sorrows, and beauties
of which we have not yet really begun to process.
We both feel so lucky for the 21 weeks we got to share with our Rockies and for
getting to have both babies with us after they were born; we are grateful for
the ways we did get to know them. We are also devastated beyond words at not
getting to watch Casey and Tavin grow up together.
We do not know for sure what caused the water to break and we may never know.
On Tuesday we had an appointment with our twins specialist and everything
looked great with the babies and with M’s cervix (which many of you know was
shortened and had had put @Manada on bedrest for the last several weeks). The
doctor was very happy and we returned home to bedrest. Only 14 hours later, after M.
waking up with a feeling of bladder discomfort and a very few minutes of mild
cramping, Tavin's water broke abruptly and out of nowhere. We went from waking up without
reason for concern to paging the midwife and rushing to the hospital within 30
minutes.
At the time of birth, there was an infection discovered in the uterus and
amniotic fluid that was pretty severe and one that has not been adequately
explained through research, nor can the doctors explain to us how or why it
happened. It may have been caused
by the bleed a month ago, or that bleed may have been the first sign at that
point that something was brewing. We were so hopeful that things would be able to
hold on until our babies would be safe, but despite the cervix doing well it happened. There is no reason to believe the
way this happened is related to the fact that we had twins or the cervix issues
we had.
Tavin's middle name Sara is after my aunt Sara who passed away from breast
cancer several years ago. Casey's middle name Elizabeth is after Manada's great
grandmother and after my mom's middle name.
We spent today making arrangements for our babies and on
Wednesday we are planning to do a small outdoor ceremony with
our families.
We love them both so much.
Re: Manada and Healz413's very sad news (loss discussed)
No words are truly adequate right now. I hope that you have a beautiful ceremony on Wednesday. My heart breaks for you both. Thank you for sharing Tavin and Casey's creation and time with us. They were two very loved little girls.
Me: 30 DW (aka C): 29
Together since 2/15/11 ~ Legally married in NY on 9/29/12
***CP mentioned***
We've been working on baby #1 since July 2013 using Open ID donor sperm. 8 IUI attempts with 5 actual IUIs and one chemical pregnancy. We have one fresh IVF cycle under our belts as well as a FET. I have endometriosis and a uterine septum that was corrected via surgery in November 2013.
11/14/14 - Second HSG shows that tubes are still clear and ute is looking good.
12/6/14 - Started BCPs in prep for IVF #2
12/22/14 - Saline u/s and endometrial scratch (All was clear and OUCH!)
1/2/15 - Began stimming for IVF #2
****All Welcome!****
We are Mommas to four fur babies - 3 dogs and 1 cat.
Me - 30, My wife - 31 , Together for 10 yrs - Married August 2012
5 medicated IUIs w/ RE (March - July 2013) = BFN
Fresh IVF Cycle in September 2013 resulted in 18 mature eggs, 16 fertilized, 12 made it to day 5. Transfer of 2 Grade A blastocysts on 9/15/13, and 10 embryos in the freezer! *****BFP on 9/25/13 - betas: @10dp5dt = 232; @12dp5dt = 465; @15dp5dt = 1,581 *********William George born June 4, 2014*********Baby Oliver born 11/27/13
TTC stats with donor sperm...
IUI #1 with trigger, 1/4/13 - BFN
IUI #2 with trigger, 2/1/13 BFN
IUI #3 with tigger, 2/28/12 BFP EDD 11/21/13
Queer coupled and having a BABY with the love of my life! Love my life and wouldn't have it any other way!
First IUI 1/22/2013 BFN: 2/7/2013, Second IUI 2/21/2013 BFN: 3/9/2013, Third IUI 4/23/2013 BFN: 5/8/2013, Fourth IUI 5/24/2013 BFN: 6/7/2013, Fifth IUI 6/24/2013 BFN: 7/8/2013
C began IUI's
7/23/2013 C's first IUI BFN, 8/21/2013 C's second IUI BFN , Took a break in September and October, 11/05/2013 C's 3rd IUI (TWW...we meet again...) BFN, Took off the month to switch to an RE. 01/01/2014 C's 4th IUI...BFP!!!!!!!! Beta #1- 17, Beta #2- 34, Beta #3-140.... 6W Ultra-Sound Reveals nothing in Gestation Sack... Natural M/C at 7W, 2/3/2014
03/21/2014 IUI #10...BFP!!! Beta #1- 48, Beta #2- 416, Beta #3- 1018. GROW BABY GROW!!!
1st Ultrasound 4/22/2014 Baby Squints is PERFECT! Measuring at 6w2d with a heartbeat of 129. EDD: 12/12/14.
Ultrasound at 18 weeks on 7/14/2014. Baby is healthy and growing just as she should!
Check out my blog at: http://journeytoparenthoodandmakingmilk.blogspot.com/
9 IUIs = 9 BFNs
IVF October 2012: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized, 5 frozen
ET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E
FET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Missed m/c discovered at 9w5d; D&E
Karyotyping: normal ~ RPL Testing: normal ~ Hysteroscopy: normal
FET #2: 1 blast transferred 10/25; BFP 10/31!
EDD 7/13/14 ~ Induced at 37w4d due to pre-eclampsia ~ Born on 6/28/14
*Everyone welcome*
I'm so glad you got to hold your babies and love on them. @Manada your description of how they looked like H was so sweet. Those little Rockies had two incredible parents for their short time and they couldn't have been luckier. It's not fair that this happened, and I'm so sad for you both.
I love their names by the way . Thank you for taking the time to allow us all to be a part of Tavin & Casey's lives!
Me (43) and J (45) - same sex couple. And we don't feel 40+!
June'12 - First RE Visit
Sept. '12 - Tubes removed
Dec. '12 - Donor Egg/Donor Sperm IVF Cycle - 4 good embies!
Dec. '12 - Fresh transfer, BFP! EDD 8/29/13
Mar. '13 - Missed m/c at 16w1d, baby boy stopped growing at 15w4d
Loss due to umbilical cord clot...baby was perfect.
Jul '13 - FET#1 - c/p
Sept. '13 - FET#2 - BFN
Dec.' 2, 2013 - FET#3 with our last chance embie - BFP!!!
Dec' 26, 2013 - hb!!
EDD 8/20/14 with a baby girl!
Little S was born on 8/21/14 - 8lb, 14 oz and 20 inches long.
We live in Seattle and used SRM for our donor egg IVF cycle
I am so sorry for your loss. The loss of a child is so hard let alone two. Keep them in your memory everyday. I know for me sharing my story on here was very healing and once I was ready sharing my story outside of the bump and letting people know that I had a child and R and I were mothers also helped heal my heart.
You will be in my thoughts these upcoming weeks and months. Once again I am so sorry for your loss.
Me: 30 DP: 30
TTC#1
IUI#1 9/26/13 BFN
IUI#2 10/26/13 BFP beta #1 99 #2 456
2/20/2014 Brynlee Madeline is taken too soon at 19weeks she was perfect
IUI#3 6/10/14 BFP beta #1 276 beta #2 722 20w A/S shows we are having a girl
IUI #1 - November 2013 - BFN
ICI #1 (home) - May 2014 - BFP!! Beta #1 - 5/30 - 164; Beta #2 - 6/6 - 4794!!!
Natural Cycle IUI #1 : BFN, December 2013
CageyMack
37, married to my favorite person in the world, DW! One darling surfer-girl (12) and one darling, sweet boy born 3/16/13.
5/2013 Started TTC #3, DW's turn: 5/2013: Diagnostics (shg) and surgery (polyp rem.) for best chances. July-Oct: IUI # 1-4, medicated, monitored, triggered. All BFN. IVF in Jan May. Sheesh. Whoop! IVF#1 cycle started 4/2/14. 5/1: 19 eggs retrieved, 8 matured, ICSI'd. 4 fertilized. Only 2 to transfer/freeze stage. 5/6: Two embryos transferred. 5/15: Beta #1 9dp5dt is 134! BFP! 5/19: Beta #2 13dp5dt is 672! B'erFP! 5/21: Beta #3 15dp5dt is 1853. Yay!
"Things separate from their stories have no meaning. They are only shapes. Of a certain size and color. A certain weight. When their meaning has become lost to us they no longer have even a name. The story on the other hand can never be lost from its place in the world for it is that place.” ― Cormac McCarthy, The Crossing
Married since 6/14/13
EDD 7/1/14 ...MMC 11/22/13...D&C 11/25/13
2nd IUI (clomid+ovidrel) 1/15/14...BFN
7th & 8th IUI (follistim & ovidrel) 6/24 & 6/25....BFN
I'm 35, DW is 33
Together since Dec 2007
Married since 18 June 2011
TTC #1
1st IUI - trigger, 9 July 14 at midnight, IUI - 11 July 14 at noon - BFP!!
10 Dec 14 - Lost our Baby Girl to Hydrops & Cycstic Hygroma due to Turner Syndrome
TTC #2
2nd IUI - hoping to try for our Rainbow in the Spring
We are doing a ceremony on Weds for Tavin and Casey. If anyone would like to light a candle for them that day, we'd appreciate it.
We're queer. I'm 33, have severe stage 4 endo, and had both fallopian tubes removed. My love ("Manada" on the boards, 32) was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve. We did Partner IVF (my eggs, her uterus). We lost our twins Tavin and Casey at 21 weeks gestation.
Our IUIs
with @Manada: IUI# 1-7 (December 2012- September 2013) all BFN. Tried natural, femara, clomid, puregon/follistim, clomid and menopur combo, both the ovidrel and HCG triggers.
Our IVFs:
IVF #1 my eggs November/December 2013: Cancelled IVF due to poor response
IVF #2 my eggs/Manada's uterus January/February 2014
BCPs and lupron overlap Stimmed: 1/22-2/2: Bravelle and Menopur (dosage ranged from B300 and M150 to B375 and M150 to B300 and M225)
2/4 retrieved 10 eggs. Endo was much worse than expected. Only 3 eggs fertilized; February 7 transferred two day 3 embryos, froze one. All great condition.
BFP eve of 6dp3dt; Beta 1 (11dp3dt): 110; Beta 2 (13dp3dt): 175; Beta 3 (15dp3dt): 348; Beta 4 (19dp3dt): 2222; Beta 5 (21dp3dt): 4255
1st ultrasound (3/6 6w 1d): TWINS!!!! Twin A measuring 6w1d with a heartbeat of 118bpm. Twin B measuring 6w0d with a heartbeat of 113bpm.
***July 18, 2014 we lost our beautiful babies at 21 weeks gestation. They were born too early. Tavin Sara T. and Casey Elizabeth T. are beautiful and precious and we will love them and miss them forever.***
FET #1 December 2014
Married to my amazing wife 6/12/10
TTC since 6/11
Unmedicated IUI #1 - 6/28/11 - BFN
Unmedicated IUI #2 - 7/25/11 - BFN
Robotic Myomectomy (Fibroid Surgery) - 11/15/11
Unmedicated IUI #3 - 4/24/12 - BFN
Progesterone Supported Leuteal Phase IUI #4 - 6/21/12 - BFP!!
Baby Boy G Born 3/24/13
On to #2, are we crazy?
IUI #1 - 11/28/14 - BFP! Beta #1 (11DPO) 34, Beta #2 (13DPO) 101, Beta #3 (20DPO) 3043
Ultrasound at 6w4d shows a single, fluttering heartbeat. Say hello to Sticky Ricki!
Oh, no... I am so, so sorry for your loss I am crying for you both. I realize we're virtual strangers with just an internet connection, but I've been with you in spirit for your journey and I've been rooting so hard for you. I wish there was something I could say or do to ease your pain. It's just senseless and horrible. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. Please let us know if there's anything we can do.
Be well and take care of each other.
I am so sorry for you both. My heart is breaking and I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through.
You both are in my thoughts and prayers. we will all be with you in spirit.
Married to M and proud mothers to Olivia and Elise (8/19/2014) and to our fur-babies: Capone (pitbull), Jax and Atticus (cats)
Me:31 DP:34
Together since Sept 2005 Engaged on 3/22/14!
Mommies to two dogs, our fur babies!
ICI #1 2/11/14 - BFN
ICI #2 3/14/14 - BFN
HSG 5/5/14 tubes are clear
IUI #1 6/12/14 - BFP! Betas 172 13dpo & 522 15dpo
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Me= 37 and DH = 41
Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)
IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN
IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.
IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132. Lil is here!
TTC#2: Trigger + TI = BFN; Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN.
IVF #4: BCP + MDLF + Lovenox = 7R, 1F = Transferred 1 6-cell embryo on day 3 = BFN
IVF #5: MDLF + Lovenox = 4R, 1F = Transferred 1 10-cell compacting embryo on day 3 = BFN
IVF #6: (New RE): Long Antagonist November 2014 (transferred two 8 cell grade 1 embryos and froze one blast) = BFN
FET#1: BFN
ME-34 DW-28
Together since 1-2012
Married 9-24-2013
Started TTC with RE January 2014.
Open donor sperm
IUI #1 (1-31-14) Clomid + HCG Trigger=BFN
IUI #2 (2-27-14) Gonal F + HCG trigger=BFN Benched for 2 weeks due to cysts. Placed on BCP
IUI #3 (4-7-14) Gonal F + HCG trigger=BFN Benched for 3 weeks due to 6 cysts. Placed on BCP
IVF#1 Lupron 10iu, Menopur 150iu, Gonal F 400iu, HCG trigger
ER#1 (6-3-14) 9 Eggs, 8 Fertilized,
ET#1 (6-8-14) 2 Day 5 Blastocysts transferred
6-20-14 BFP 12dp5dt Beta 114.9
15dp5dt Beta 365
Low progesterone start PIO/Crinone
6-23-14 Ultrasound shows no sac. Beta dropped. Chemical.
IVF#2 Menopur 150iu, Gonal F450iu, Ganirelix, Lupron trigger
ER#2 8-13-14 7 Eggs, 3 Fertilized and frozen
FET scheduled for 10-11-14
FET Canceled due to thin lining
IVF #2 Fresh Cycle Scheduled for December 2014
A & K, married 7/1/13.
After 10 months of ttc via medicated IUIs and two early losses, we finally got our boys- Perfect premie twins born 5/27/14.