Welcome to TTC After Loss. I'm so sorry for your loss but am happy you have found us. ((hugs)) This board is full of brilliant and kind women who have experienced the hardship of losing that which is most precious, and I hope you find great comfort and support here in your journey!
For those of you so new that you don't know the routine, this is a check-in for newer members of the TTCAL Board. Please feel free to use this space to ask those "newbie" questions that feel intimidating to ask on the main board and I will try my best to get you an answer.
**Please don't feel that you have to provide individual feedback to all of the posters ahead of you. Many do and it's great, but it's most definitely not required to be a part of this check-in. I'd just hate to think people might feel intimidated and not post because of this. All posts and responses are welcomed!
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Finally, if you haven't done so, please post your introduction on the main board including your story.
Weekly Update: How are you doing? Post an update including any news, thoughts, or questions - let me know how things are going for you! If you don't see your name, it's only because you didn't check in last week.
meredithcarole: Any sign of AF yet? I hope this last week wasn’t quite so hard.
MoreThanSparrows08: It looks like those CHs did get moved like you expected. Looks like you had good timing. Saw that temp dip but I’m hoping it goes back up in the morning. FX!
squeakyfrog15: How is temping going? Your chart is looking good!
jcar2: Looks like you’ve been pretty consistent with temping! Any word on where your betas are at?
meganwelch: How’s your body adjusting to not having the steroids? Has this week been any easier? Hopefully your vacation is going well!
kj808: I saw AF came. I’m sorry. ((hugs)). How are you holding up?
qanda2013: How are you feeling? Hopefully AF is long gone and you’re recovering from your stressful week last week.
aubrygarfield: How are you doing this week?
buttercup02: How’s this past week been treating you?
chicagojackie: Did AF ever show up? I see you’re still here on TTCAL so I’m guessing it was a bfn? ((hugs))
AggieBeth06: How’s everything going? You feeling any better this week? I saw you got AF this week. ((hugs))
MelissaL121: Did you ever open your BBT? Any sign of AF? Did you end up following up with your doctor?
seaotter910: Did you get your draw this week? Are levels at zero?
stephy1221: Has this week been any easier than last week?
Buttercup509: How’s it going? Is your niece feeling better?
kaynix21: Are you feeling any less stressed about things getting pushed back? When is the FSH/timed intercourse planned for this month? How was the ultrasound?
akleng: Any sign of AF yet? When’s the next appointment?
yellowcat10: Have the dreams let up yet?
polevaultRN: Have you had any luck with the OPKs yet?
LauraO11: Have you had a chance to follow up with your doctor? How are you doing?
Question of the Week: What is your favorite spring break memory?
Re: ~~~ttcal newbie check-in (tuesday, april 15)~~~
I am feeling quite a bit better this week. AF is worse than ever. I woke up this morning and had to shower immediately... So much blood. It has slowed down, but it really freaked me out. Still glad to get this one behind me. In all I feel a tinge of sad but moreso hopeful because I was so ready to move on physically. This just means in closer to that.
I have an appointment tomorrow with a person who has practiced a particular type of massage therapy and healing for a long time. I am going to her because she has been recommended as someone who has successfully helped other women with retroflexed uteri. She's certified in this type of massage and is a NP but I don't think it's covered by insurance... I don't really care though because I feel like I have to give it a shot. It's one thing to exhaust before we can make a decision on TTC again. We also need to meet with another OBGYN and possibly a RE.
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
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I'm doing okay! I'm trying to keep my brain from going crazy! I'm having similar symptoms from the last time I was you know! My temps have been up, but not as high as I would like. Normally if it's a good month they are in the 98's....but as Lon as their up right? I had a drop today, but I think my mouth was open! I guess I'll know more tomorrow!
@loveinkw13 - good luck at the RE today!
@VesperLynch - staph. glad you're feeling better.
@aggiebeth06 - i hope you have luck with the massage. it sounds like it'll at least feel nice.
@MoreThanSparrows08 - your poor mother! i hate going to the dentist. i can't imagine needing all of them removed. *FX* for you this cycle...it looks hopeful!
@squeakyfrog15 - i know what you mean about liking your temps to be above a certain level. i'm the same...i like to see them over 98 as well. you're right though, as long as they're up, that's all that matters. GL!
AFM - hi all, this is my first check-in. we're not actually TTC again yet as our loss just happened last week. i'm having a hard time thinking about preventing though. i suppose we'll see what happens when we actually get there. right now i'm focusing on trying to get outside every day (even though it's gotten cold again this week, boo) and drinking red raspberry leaf tea and all that for mental and physical health. planning gardens (we just bought this house last summer...there's literally nothing in the ground besides grass and a great big linden tree), working on some home repair/improvement projects as the house handywoman. just getting back to normal after having our hopes dashed.
edit to add: i had called my doctor yesterday to clarify some things because the only info i had was a vague note tacked on to my last test results online last friday, and he said they usually advise waiting a cycle for dating and to recover from the shock of the loss, but that ultimately it's up to us, and that i'm clear for intimacy once the bleeding stops. like i said, we're not going to try for real this cycle, but i don't think preventing is in the cards because it breaks my heart just to think about it. the bleeding actually stopped on sunday but i'm giving it a few days more just to make sure. we're probably going to NTNP this cycle.
BFP#1 EDD 04.20.2010, SUNSHINE baby boy born 03.31.2010
BFP#2 EDD 12.07.2014, natural mc 04.09.2014 at 5w3d
BFP#3 EDD 01.14.15, RAINBOW baby girl born 01.16.2015
jan'15 january siggy challenge: baby fails
TTC since 2/1/2013
BFP 2/13/2014
MMC caught 3/10/2014
MC naturally 3/17/2014
My favorite spring break was in college, my mom and I went to Florida for the week and visited my grandparents and then went to Disney World for a few days. At the time I didn't think much of it but now years later I think it was my fav.
PgAL welcome
Married 6/11/2011
Me & Hubby: 34
TTC journey started 12/2012
BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks
BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)
Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.
Also have hypothyroidism
Started TTC again 12/2013
IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN
IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN
Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498
DD 15.07.2012
BFP #2 01.18.2014, MMC 04.10.2014 15w5d
BFP #3 07.18.2014, MC 07.31.2014 5w6d
DX: RPL due to submucosal uterine fibroid. Hysteroscopy 12/16. All clear!
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spring break was never a "thing" for me, but i did go to london with my mom and sister and a couple of my aunts when i was a freshman in college. it was a sort of late graduation gift i guess. we had a blast doing all the touristy stuff, and the only downside was that i'd just started dating LH a little over a month before and we were pretty disgustingly codependent back then, so i missed him a lot. lol
BFP#1 EDD 04.20.2010, SUNSHINE baby boy born 03.31.2010
BFP#2 EDD 12.07.2014, natural mc 04.09.2014 at 5w3d
BFP#3 EDD 01.14.15, RAINBOW baby girl born 01.16.2015
jan'15 january siggy challenge: baby fails
@aubrygarfield - i'm so glad someone is feeling positive! i have my moments but they don't last terribly long, lol. temping has a little bit if a learning curve but i'm sure you'll get it in no time.
@Km380 - i'm sorry to hear you're having a rough time. hopefully things start to look up when AF goes away.
@LauraO11 - that sounds awful. i hope your OB surprises you and you don't have to wait much longer.
@jcar2 - i hope your betas are done coming down this week and there are no more needle pokes after this. i hear you on the pregnant people thing. my BFF keeps wanting to talk to me about her morning sickness, even after i tell her nicely that i'm not the best person to be telling these things to right now. she had a teeny bit of spotting the other day and said to me today that she was so afraid that she was going to lose the baby and she isn't sure she'd want to do "all this" again (referring to feeling sick). i wanted to slap her. (((hugs))) she backpedaled on that one when i pointed out that it's only temporary and she gets a baby at the end, but then kept going on to complain about how she can't get anything done and yadda yadda. so i'm just ignoring her now. (i can do that...she lives a couple hours away so this was over facebook chat. i wish you could ignore your coworker. )
BFP#1 EDD 04.20.2010, SUNSHINE baby boy born 03.31.2010
BFP#2 EDD 12.07.2014, natural mc 04.09.2014 at 5w3d
BFP#3 EDD 01.14.15, RAINBOW baby girl born 01.16.2015
jan'15 january siggy challenge: baby fails
BFP#1 EDD 04.20.2010, SUNSHINE baby boy born 03.31.2010
BFP#2 EDD 12.07.2014, natural mc 04.09.2014 at 5w3d
BFP#3 EDD 01.14.15, RAINBOW baby girl born 01.16.2015
jan'15 january siggy challenge: baby fails
edit: thanks for your help and patience!
BFP#1 EDD 04.20.2010, SUNSHINE baby boy born 03.31.2010
BFP#2 EDD 12.07.2014, natural mc 04.09.2014 at 5w3d
BFP#3 EDD 01.14.15, RAINBOW baby girl born 01.16.2015
jan'15 january siggy challenge: baby fails
@meladoriestar Thanks again for picking up this check in! I hope work wasn't too tough on you today.
@loveinkw13 Welcome! Sorry for your loss. I hope your appointment went well.
@VesperLynch Hope you fully recover from that staph infection soon!
@AggieBeth06 I'm sorry AF is kickin' your butt. I hope you have a great appointment tomorrow!
@morethansparrows08 I hope this is your cycle, too! So sorry to hear about your mom. I'm praying for her!
@squeakyfrog15 ((Hugs)) for you.
@longcat07 welcome! I'm sorry for your loss. It seems like you have lots of stuff around the house to keep you and your mind busy. That's great. Just take it one day at a time. ((Hugs))
@qanda2013 I'm sorry you're having a rough time lately ((Hugs)). I hope the call with your OB goes well.
@aubrygarfield I'm glad you are feeling hopeful and positive! Enjoy that sunny weather.
@Km380 Welcome! I hope the week gets better for you, too. ((Hugs))
@LauraO11 I'm sorry you aren't feeling well. I hope things start getting better for you soon. ((Hugs))
@jcar2 I really hope your betas hit negative soon! The wait sucks! And I know whatcha mean about the pregnant coworker. I had my m/c and then a week later one of my close coworkers announced her pregnancy and it's been difficult for me lately. ((Hugs))
Still haven't had a +OPK. Today is CD20. Oh well. Just doing EOD to cover our bases until the next AF (or a BFP) arrives!
QOTW: I went to Rosarito with a few of my college track and field teammates several years ago and had a blast! A little too much to drink though :P
ETA: words
BFP #1 8.6.2011 EDD 4.7.2012 DS1 born 3.30.2012
BFP #3 4.30.2014 EDD 1.10.2015 DS2 born 12.31.2014
@VesperLynch - hope the staph on infection hits the road! It sounds like quite a journey for you!
@MoreThanSparrows08 - FX for you this cycle, friend! It sounds like (if you prescribe to the drink till it's pink camp) you ought to go for a wine cooler in honor of fun times this week. Prayers for your mom and for your role supporting her.
@squeakyfrog15 - fx for your temps!
@longcat07 - gl on the intimacy and all of your house projects! What kind of gardens are you planning?
@qanda2013 - sweet dear! I'm so sorry yesterday was rough and DH said something boneheaded. (((Hugs))) I also totally get your comment about medical bills. I was blindsided with one today... And since we moved at the end of the year some bills just made their way to me from a procedure with my back from last fall. Add my pre-loss stay into the mix.... And ouch. I'm not sure what hurt worse though... The total I need to pay or seeing "missed abortion" on the paperwork. Sickening. Why couldn't they use "unwanted loss removal" or something different? I hope you have a better week! Maybe you could treat yourself with something?
@aubrygarfield - gl with temping!
@Km380 - welcome! I LOVE Disney and I bet the time with your family was precious.
@LauraO11 - glad you were able to make an appointment and FX that you don't have to be benched for long!
@jcar2 -I hope your betas hit the mark so you can stop the human pincushion effect. Also I totally get the feeling of struggling with pregnancies around you, even if you're happy for the person. It's such a mixed bag!
@polevaultRN - GL on the OPKs but it sounds like you're making a good decision with EOD. I've been meaning to tell you that your SN makes me smile. My cousin is a junior in HS and training on pole vault. She would love to go collegiate but might not quite make it. She loves it though!
I totally forgot the QOTW! My favorite spring break was the SB before I met DH. I went with my brother and (now) SIL with all their friends down to the Texas coast. We drank our asses off and it's a good thing we all ended up alive. We got stranded in a bay inlet during low tide, were rescued by a air boat, nearly capsized on another boat the next day and SIL/I have matching scars on our butts from falling onto an oyster reef when trying to wee off the side of the boat. It wasn't one of my prouder moments, but we caught a ton of fish and had a awesome time.
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
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TTC#1 7/2009, BFP 8/2010, EDD 3/29/11, DD born 3/30/11
TTC#2 10/2013, BFP 3/10/14, EDD 11/22/14, m/c 4/10/14
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Hi!!
The NP I'm seeing tomorrow uses alternative medicine such as Mayan massage (certified in Arvigo Techniques in Mayan Abdominal Therapy). I side-eyed this a lot... But I have asked both my PCP and OB and they offer no support for my condition. They basically say I have to live with the symptoms or have a hysterectomy (no way). I have checked on this practitioner and she has practiced ATMAT for over 30 years locally and has experience with my condition.
I started considering going to her more seriously when I talked to my physical therapist about my issues (was going to one for my back - she specializes in rehab for women). She wasn't acutely aware but thought that the theories aren't bogus on the surface. Basically the practitioner does a deep massage therapy on the abdomen (externally) to reposition the uterus. Then we work on certain pelvic floor type exercises to maintain the position.
I also was referred to the person after I had discussed my issues with a trainer who specializes in "restorative exercise" - they focus on changing your alignment of your body to a more natural state.
This all sounds very hippy/eastern medicine and TBH I'm skeptical but I feel like I have to try it. If it's not invasive, I don't know that I have much to lose. Of course I'll be asking lots of questions and researching on my own throughout the way.
I don't side eye it as much as before because I figure if this NP was a charlatan, she would likely have been shut down in 30 years. Maybe I'm wrong.
ETA: she's not a NP, she's an RN, DN and has been certified in the visceral massage that my PT was familiar with.
Sorry for the novel...
I have an appointment with another OB who has high risk experience. I would like to talk with an RE and an MFM but I'm not sure how the referral process works. My current OB said she wouldn't refer me because it's "only be one loss" and that my HELLP syndrome was a fluke. Not too comforting or helpful IMO.
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
All Welcome
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Not sure if you saw my update - she's not a NP... But is a RN and DN. She is also certified in the visceral manipulations that my PT was familiar with (and has been shown scientifically to work). ATMAT is similar to that technique.
I believe my insurance requires referrals, but I will ask. I know some local specialists require them.
Guess only time will tell on all of this.
PG#1 - 3rd cycle BFP. Team Green. HELLP syndrome @ 34 weeks.
Later diagnosed with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, possible link to HELLP.
PG#2 M/C 3/14 - Surprise BFP 2/13. Beta's doubled every 52 hours from 3w5d-5w5d
Viable pregnancy scan at 5w5d; 2nd u/s showed 2 days of growth in 7 but a HB of 120
3rd u/s on 3/10/14 had no HB and baby had only grown 7 days over 14
D&C 3/17/14 - complications - DX Retroflexed uterus, multiple tears to cervix
All Welcome
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BFP #2: m/c at 7w, February, 2014
BFP #3: It's a BOY! Please be our rainbow! Due February, 2015
*everyone always welcome*