I think I've fooled myself into thinking I'm doing better than I am with all of this. I seem to realize that most when I almost cry at the sight of the cutest 14month old at the airport, or when I find out that one of my friends is PG with her THIRD and due around the same time I was to have my FIRST. Yep - this pretty much blows.
Re: Bitter Betty...party of one!
I know exactly how you feel. I can't have kids at all, and I really want one. I'm looking into adoption and thats really expensive. All of my friends and family are having kids right now and it makes me really sad and I get super angry a lot. But I am trying to look at the bright side and be happy for everyone and I take advantage of my friends new borns and take them and spoil them as often as I can.
its not a party for one thats for sure.
Hang in there, there are lots of us that can't have them, we all understand what you are going through. I know I'm going to need some support down the road. I'm sure this doesn't make it anyless painful or bitter but I hope it helped some.
I'm so sorry shwayd. I understand the feeling.
((hugs))