4 week D&E anniversary

Re: 4 week D&E anniversary

• igh0318

  January 2009

    I'm so sorry. 

  I'm not sure if you saw my response last night to my FET post.  Has that spotting finally stopped?

  

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• AuburnBride06

  January 2009

  I'm sorry. The anniversaries are so hard. With this last loss, I didn't even look up my EDD. Well, I didn't really have time to since I got to be happy for two whole days.  Isn't it heartbreaking to remember every single date? My D&C from my first loss was on May 23.  Almost 3 weeks after we lost our first. Stupid falling and rising betas. With the first EDD that just passed 12-27, I wasn't as sad because I got the BFP.  But after losing this one too, I really, really am sad for my lost twins (my second loss).  We saw their heartbeats on Aug. 27 and I started bleeding on Aug. 29.  Their due date will be coming in April.  My heart hurts so bad to know that we should be getting close to having them here.  I don't know how long it will be before we can do treatments again. I have to have another SHG. 

  I'm sorry for all the pain. It just hurts so bad.I don't know how to not remember or how not to think about the "what should be's". 

  {{HUGS}} and my thoughts are with you.
   

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• mel72

  January 2009

  I am so, so sorry.  I completely understand your pain.  I felt like everything around me was moving forward and I was stuck.  It took me a long time before I felt a little better.  As pp mentioned, the time markers are very hard too.  I hope you feel a little better soon, I know it's not easy at all.  Wishing you the best : )

  Our miracle IVF baby - D 6/09 & J - Surprise! born 9/10!!!

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• it'sbabytime

  January 2009

  I'm so sorry. I have been there and it completely sucks.

  I tortured myself every week in thinking..."this week I wouldve been 16 weeks, this week I wouldve been 6 months, etc".

  Whats worse is sneaking over to the SAIF board to see those that got their BFP with me and see their little tickers getting closer and closer to 40 weeks.

  Even though I had unsubscribed to baby emails, I kept getting them for weeks and it was pissing me off. Especially those that said "you're 16 weeks this week! see what your baby looks like now"

  I'm sure there isnt anything I can say that will make it better (many tried for me and it just didnt help), you will grieve and heal in your own time. Just know there are many that have gone through similar and were blessed with their little miracles.

   

  IUI#1 - 05/20/08 = BFP! M/C - 14 weeks baby girl
  IUI#2 - 01/07/09 = BFP!!! Twins!! Pre-term labor 20 weeks lost twin girls
  IUI#3 - 1/31/10 = BFP!!!! M/C - 8wks again
  IVF #1 - 7/2010 = c/p
  FET - 9/2010 = another c/p
  IUI#4 - 2/14/11 = BFP!
  

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• lnle

  January 2009

  thanks ladies. this is all so hard. I do well for a few days, and then I have reminders like this. ((hugs)) to all of you for all the losses you've endured. I just can't imagine more than one loss. I guess we have no choice but to carry on, right?!?

  (igh, I didn't see your reply last night so I will go look at it right now! but yes, the bleeding stopped last week, finally!)

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• igh0318

  January 2009

  Yep, somehow we do carry on.  Well, I'm glad it finally stopped.   Hopefully AF is just around the corner.  

  

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