Feel like I’m losing to long term PPD

Re: Feel like I’m losing to long term PPD

• j-redd222 member

  January 16

  I’m so sorry this is happening to you. I also dealt with ppd and have had suicidal thoughts. It’s such a hopeless place to be but it is not forever and you can get help. I was really honest with my doctor on follow ups and she gave me a few resources to use. She asked if I wanted medication and I declined because I used to take medication for depression prior to my pregnancies and I didn’t like it at all. Instead, I did some virtual sessions with a therapist, told my husband how I was feeling and took my doctors advice of spending at least 30 minutes a day doing something for myself (taking a walk, working out, taking a nap, sitting in a car by myself drinking coffee, etc.). On top of that, I confided in my church family and asked for help. This was something very out of character for me. I don’t like asking for help and feel like a burden to people when I do. I couldn’t believe how many people showed up for me from that. Texts, encouraging cards and small Christmas gifts, offers to watch the kids, meals made, and the list goes on. It really made me realize that I mean something not just to my family but to my friends and to random people I’ve barely spoken to but who have also been through this. You’re not alone and your family would not be relieved if you were gone. I have three children under 3 and I know the chaos and pressure that having kids close in age can put on you. Your babies love you and they need you and your husband showing up for you and you calling him the best lets me know he loves you too. You have so much to live for. If you have any support group by you I encourage you to reach out to them and to a therapist. Take some time for yourself if you can and give yourself grace. No one tells us how to parent and how difficult it can be. We’re all going to make mistakes and get overwhelmed and feel completely out of place but your children are yours because you are meant to be there mother. You are exactly what they need even when you don’t think you’re at your best. Prayer and reading the Bible really help me to get through my ppd so I would personally recommend that as well. I’ll be praying for you and I hope this helps encourage you to keep going mama! 

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