PGAL Check In W/O 01/30

wanderlustsoul · January 2023

This thread is for those who are pregnant after a previous loss(es). Thread will have discussion of MC, TFMR, CP, etc.

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Weeks/EDD?

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?

Any appointment updates?

Any big milestones?

Rants/Raves/Questions?

froggerblue · January 2023

Weeks/EDD? 6w5d

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Exhausted and stressed.

Any appointment updates? Not yet. Maybe at the end of next week.

Any big milestones? Not really.

Rants/Raves/Questions? Not this time.

wanderlustsoul · January 2023

Weeks/EDD? 6w3d / Sept 22

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?

Soooo nauseous and exhausted. Omg.

Any appointment updates? I had an appt today!! I saw the baby with a heartbeat. ❤️❤️❤️ it was beautiful to see and such a relief. Next appt is Wednesday with my gynecologist (today was with the midwife). I think he will give me an official due date but based on today’s scan, it’ll remain nearly the same.

Any big milestones? Already passed. ❤️

Rants/Raves/Questions? My kids have been so sick for so long and it’s so hard to be needed all the time while feeling like crap. Hopefully they’re better so I can worry less about them and then survive the next few weeks.

runningyogimama · January 2023

Weeks/EDD? 7w4d - 9/14

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?
EXHAUSTED - nausea is still just on and off (but awful when it hits). Boobs are huge and painful, but I’m nervous to get out my maternity bras (though I did dig those and my maternity leggings out from the back corner of my closet where I literally threw them all when we found out we were losing our daughter…). But my boobs will thank me if I do…. Still mostly just disconnected, not even super stressed/anxious. My daughter’s due date is in one week, and it feels like the last 5-6 months in their entirety have been a bad dream, and everything still feels surreal. It’s all very weird and hard to describe.

Any appointment updates?
Next appt is 2/20 for NIPT - I wish I could fast forward time to those results.

Any big milestones?
Nope

Rants/Raves/Questions?

litzi-2 · January 2023

Weeks/EDD? 8+1

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? crappy physically and emotionally just angry today. i ranted in the US thread, but I was supposed to have my US today and I showed up and they told me they had no tech today and to reschedule. Like, they didn't even call me to cancel. I'm so angry I just want to change clinics. I was hoping for some good news, but in the back of my mind I was like if its bad news then at least I can be done feeling like crap soon. ugh.

Any appointment updates? have to reschedule my US this week, which means I need to leave work mid day and come back, which is not easy in my job. also anxious for NIPT, but two weeks until then.

Any big milestones? no

Rants/Raves/Questions? i'll hold back any additional rants, i've been so negative lately its just not like me and i don't like myself like this.

babysavvy · January 2023

Weeks/EDD? 8w2d

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Hopeful. Still “cautiously optimistic.”

Any appointment updates? First ultrasound was today. Measuring on target. We heard a strong heartbeat of 165.

Any big milestones? A heartbeat! This was my first time hearing one. With my last pregnancy they told me there was one, but I didn’t get to hear it.

Rants/Raves/Questions? I was prescribed anti nausea meds. Looking forward to those. It’s been a rough few weeks.

anniemarie887 · January 2023

Weeks/EDD? by LMP 7w2d

How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? so nauseous, major heartburn (like so painful) - all the pregnancy symptoms that suck but also leave me hopeful that all is well. emotionally, i'll be nervous for the next 2 scans. hopefully after that calmer.

Any appointment updates? go back for another u/s with my RE on 2/9, need to go to a blood draw to check thyroid levels again

Any big milestones? the u/s on 2/9 will be 8w4d, my MMC was found at 9w2d and growth had stopped at 8w

Rants/Raves/Questions? natm

anniemarie887 · February 2023

coming back for tags
@wanderlustoul i'm so glad you say a HB! such a great moment!
@runningyogimama sending you a big hug for the upcoming week, and i can relate to wanting to fast forward time a little
@litzi-2 when are you getting back in for an u/s?
@babysavvy congrats on hearing the heartbeat! the best feeling.

starlight8323 · February 2023

Hello everyone, I’m Pamela! I posted my formal introduction on the designated thread, but I wanted to say hi here as well! I apologize in advance for this long post and for not following the intended format of the questions. There’s just so much else I want to say for this first PGAL check-in. But I’ll try to stick to the questions next time! *Please feel free to skip me if you don’t want to read it all!

I’ve had so much anxiety every day knowing I needed to introduce myself before the group gets fully formed. I kept telling myself I would do it after the beta, then after the next beta, then I was going to wait until after I heard the heartbeat at my upcoming first ultrasound (which will be this coming Monday at 6w5d)… but then I realized no matter what milestones I hit, I will still be terrified. So I’m trying not to let that fear completely paralyze me and keep me from participating in this amazing group! I’ve already read through every comment on every thread in this group so far, and there are so many fun and interesting people here! I can’t wait to get to know you all!

I also know from experience that it would be better to go ahead and join now, so I could have your support if the ultrasound doesn’t go well on Monday. I was a part of the August 2020 BMB for a short time when I got pregnant on my first round of IVF in November 2019, until I had a missed miscarriage at 10 weeks. Looking back now, being able to post my miscarriage story in that group and reading the prayers and hugs from group members that I had already formed a bond with was an invaluable part of my grieving process.

Here’s the “quick” version of my baby journey so far:

- Single, 39 years old, using sperm from anonymous donors.

- I’ve completed four rounds of IVF with ICSI and PGT testing.

- The first round ended in a missed miscarriage at 10 weeks, as mentioned above.

- My second round returned no viable embryos.

- The third round resulted in one embryo which didn’t implant.

- And my fourth round resulted in one embryo, which is the girl I’m carrying right now.

My 5-day frozen embryo transfer took place on January 9th. The hCG beta numbers have been good: 119 at 4w, 425 at 4w2d, and 9,061 at 5w2d, in case anyone here likes to compare their numbers, like I do!

So I’m introducing myself here with every bit of extremely cautious optimism I can muster, hoping for my take-home baby! The logical side of me knows that it is possible, but it just doesn’t seem plausible at all to me, that I could carry a baby to term.

I’m not struggling with feeling connected to my baby at all! I always feel so connected to my embryos as soon as I find out they exist. I speak to them in my head from the beginning. But I’ve gotten to a point where I think of them more as souls that I’ll never actually get to meet in person until I pass away and meet them in the afterlife. I try to enjoy my time with them while they’re here as much as possible (going to events, taking pictures with them in my tummy), because I expect them to only be here with me for a short time.

I’m typically an optimist, but 20 years of waiting and 4 years of heartbreak can have great effects on you. But I haven’t given up. I’m closer to having a baby now than I have been in over 3 years. I’m praying for healthy take-home babies for everyone in this group! 💜✨

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