This thread is for those who are pregnant after a previous loss(es). TW for entire thread due to discussion of MC, TFMR, CP, etc.
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Weeks/EDD?
Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)?
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?
Any appointment updates?
Any big milestones?
Rants/Raves/Questions?
Re: PGAL (Pregnant After a Loss) Check-In: 9/29-10/5
Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)? I lost my last pregnancy just shy of 12 weeks when I started spotting. Baby girl was gone around 10.5 weeks, so every week is especially meaningful this time around.
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Feeling pretty good - trying to take it one day at a time and not freak out every time I feel mild cramping. I still look in my underwear every time I go to the bathroom. Is that a thing!?
Any appointment updates? Next Tuesday is my first US!! Hopeful baby is healthy and growing 💕
Any big milestones? Making it to 8 weeks is big for me. One week at a time.
Rants/Raves/Questions? I’m envious of other people who go through pregnancy blissfully unaware of things that can go wrong. I hope I’m not alone in those feelings… but the resentment is real at times 😔
Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)? Cp last year.
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?
Emotionally I'm doing better now that I've hit 8 weeks. Both our immediate families know but I'm waiting to tell anyone else until after 12 weeks.
Physically I'm super tired, I keep having to come up with excuses in the afternoon at work to cover my yawning. (Luckily I have a toddler I can blame.)
Yesterday I scared my little one when I got sick, I actually threw up for the first time with this pregnancy and hearing his little voice behind me saying mama broke my heart.
Any appointment updates?
My first appointment is next Thursday and honestly I wish I could've gotten in sooner.
Any big milestones?
Reaching 8 weeks I guess.
Rants/Raves/Questions?
I literally cannot eat anything I enjoyed before getting pregnant. Who gets nauseous from corn chips? I guess I'm lucky I can still stand bagels.
@acamomma18 - I do the same thing everytime I'm in the restroom too, do not feel weird for doing it!
Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)? MMC last November, 2 CP or early loss at 5.5 weeks over the summer.
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?
Emotionally- just trying to get through each day one at a time. I go between being excited and thinking of how I will share the news with everyone to being depressed and sad if this pregnancy doesn’t work out again. I found out via the first ultrasound at my first pregnancy that the baby had already died, so of course I’m terrified of that happening again. Physically I feel much more pregnant than I did the first time and am a bit nauseous but mostly just tired.
Any appointment updates? I requested an early ultrasound at 7 weeks and got to see the baby’s heartbeat!! I was so excited I started crying. I have my next app in 3 days so am super anxious for it to see if everything is still ok
Any big milestones? Hopefully coming next week.
Rants/Raves/Questions? Nausea is much worse this time around. And I’m tired of being so nauseous- waiting for it to end soon!
Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)? lost one baby at 9ish weeks - missed miscarriage, so I had no idea until I went in for my first ultrasound and there was no heartbeat. Two D&Cs after that (first left RPOC that had me hemorrhaging in the ER and a second emergency D&C)
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? physically, not bad. I'm still starving all the time and have some weird cramping. I'm in a good place though. Emotionally I feel weirdly settled? Like I know that there's nothing I can do but wait, and feeling sick doesn't give me any comfort, because I had morning sickness the day we found out about the baby we lost.
Any appointment updates? Betas looked good 2 weeks ago and I had two dye stealers last week which felt great. First ultrasound and prenatal appt is 10/21.
Any big milestones? Not yet
Rants/Raves/Questions? @acamomma18 totally understand what you mean - both about checking underwear and feeling resentful about people who don't understand this. I felt completely paralyzed with anxiety during my entire rainbow pregnancy (he's a beautiful little 13 month old boy!) and I'm not ready for another 34 weeks of that anxiety.