*TW for entire post*
We have had to say goodbye to or sweet girl.
We went through so much with her and for her. Getting a diagnosis of Down Syndrome and congenital heart defects was incredibly difficult and overwhelming. It felt like everything around us was on fire. But we continued on. We learned about DS and the heart, and were ready to give her the world! We were ready to fight for what she needed to have the best life possible. We had plans as a family that included her! Our 5 year old was SO excited to be a big sister.
On Monday, I felt her do a giant flip, and her movements were different after that. Early Wednesday, I woke up to use the bathroom and no longer felt her moving. I tried all the tricks to get her to move. We were at the OB first thing in the morning, hoping that she was just cozy and kicking a spot I couldn't feel. Unfortunately we saw her heart had stopped. There was also very little amniotic fluid, so it is likely her kidneys had failed.
After a long day and very long night, at 22+6, our little girl was born still on November 18 at 5:30 am. We named her Addalynn Ann. Our little Addi Ann. She was tiny, but beautiful. We are lucky to have had time to hold her and memorize every beautiful detail. We knew it was likely we would outlive her, but never thought it would be so soon.
Our hearts are broken. And it broke our hearts even more to see our 5 year old so broken. Addalynn will always be part of our family, just not in the way we imagined.
Re: *TW Saying Goodbye
I'm so sorry you lost your precious baby. I'm sending you so much love.
so sorry mama! Sending you thoughts and strength through this sad time!
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LO arrived 11/9/2018! We have a baby!
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Me: 33 | DH: 41
Married: March 2016
TTC #1/IUD out January 2017
PCOS dx January 2018
Medicated cycle 2.5mg Letrozole CD3-7 February 2018
BFP 3/10/2018!
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I would like to share a link to a non-profit that is close to my heart - they send care packages with self-care items to families who have experienced a miscarriage or stillbirth. A good friend of mine created this non-profit in memory of her daughter, Mangolia, who was stillborn. Ideally, I would order one for you on your behalf, but since we are still anonymous here, I encourage you to consider requesting a care package for yourself - https://www.careofnola.org/care-packages
If it would be helpful for you, I welcome you to continue to use this thread in the future to connect with and receive support from this group.