April 2022 Moms
Boobopgirl
member
*TW Loss*
Boobopgirl
member
Hey all, I've been off the board for a bit because...life, but 2 weeks ago we went for a visit and couldn't find baby on the Doppler. We were sent for an ultrasound and found that baby had passed away at right around 13 weeks. And had our D&E last week.
We decided to name the baby Phoenix as we liked the imagery of resurrection/ soaring high. I'm still making a blanket as it's the first thing I've done after naming each of our children and it just seems right. We also chose a necklace of a Phoenix for myself and my girls to remember that our baby is risen and safe in the arms of Jesus and will probably choose some type of token for my 4 yo son to wear or carry as well. There have been heartbreaking and beautiful moments with each of our children throughout.
In and of myself, I am not coping well. I have recurrent major depressive episodes and was already in a trough when all this happened. Now I feel guilty for not being able to fully enjoy my baby during what I didn't know would be my last weeks with them.😭
We decided to name the baby Phoenix as we liked the imagery of resurrection/ soaring high. I'm still making a blanket as it's the first thing I've done after naming each of our children and it just seems right. We also chose a necklace of a Phoenix for myself and my girls to remember that our baby is risen and safe in the arms of Jesus and will probably choose some type of token for my 4 yo son to wear or carry as well. There have been heartbreaking and beautiful moments with each of our children throughout.
In and of myself, I am not coping well. I have recurrent major depressive episodes and was already in a trough when all this happened. Now I feel guilty for not being able to fully enjoy my baby during what I didn't know would be my last weeks with them.😭
Re: *TW Loss*
Resource suggestions:
Yet We Thrive Podcast
Grace Like Scarlet book (the author also has a website with an online support platform)
Thank you for the resources. I really appreciate it.
@bluecampanula
Thank you for the prayers. We need them.
BFP1 04/24/2015 EDD Dec 2015 MMC 10W5d;
BFP 2 09/25/2015 EDD June 2016 MMC 9wks;
BFP 3 03/22/2016 EDD Dec 6th 2016
Married May 2019
Baby #1 due April 19, 2022