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PGAL Check-In 9/16
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This thread is for those who are pregnant after a previous loss(es). TW for entire thread due to discussion of MC, TFMR, CP, etc.
Weeks/EDD?
Previous loss(es) (share as much or as little as you like)?
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?
Any appointment updates?
Any big milestones?
Any big milestones?
Rants/Raves/Questions?
Re: PGAL Check-In 9/16
Any big milestones? Nope
Physically still like dirt. I am just sooooo sick and the exhaustion has ramped up too which is making the nausea and vomiting even worse. I learned the other night that if you're not careful toilet water WILL splash back up into your mouth while you are vomiting 🤢 Emotionally I'm starting to feel calmer. I'm still feeling pretty detached but I don't mind the idea of other people knowing anymore. At this point I figure if something went wrong I would probably want people to know about it. Still have no idea when I should tell the girls...
Any big milestones? Past all the big first hurdles and only a few days away from my first and latest loss milestone...I hemorrhaged on September 21st 2017 after going on a school trip and to gymnastics with DD1. I was 14 weeks, DD1 was 3 years old, and I almost died in front of her. It was terrifying and traumatic and took months to recover from physically. This little guy was conceived on exactly the same cycle as that loss...my first, the one I was farthest along for, and my most traumatic...so 4 years later it feels like I've come full circle. And if things keep going well this little guy will be here on almost exactly what my EDD would have been with my first loss. Just feels like there's some sort of message from the universe in the timing of this pregnancy ❤
@Panaceia ewwww toilet water lol. And that loss story is absolutely terrible, how traumatic for you and DD. Ready for you to get over that hump!
Any big milestones? past all my losses so that's great. the only other time i've been this pregnant i brought home a baby. It only makes me feel marginally better lol.
@Panaceia you already know how I feel about timing and signs from the universe, I love that so much it makes this pregnancy so special. I’ve looked into all these psychics talk about the souls of miscarriages - how some are guardian angels and some come back when they’re ready - and maybe this is that soul ready to come back ❤️
Any big milestones? Having a visible bump? Not a real milestone, but feels big too me
@morgantu I'm sorry you're feeling so anxious too. I will say with my anterior placentas the OB and GP couod always find the heartbeat on the doppler by 14 weeks. So I think you should probably be able to hear it at your next appointment ❤
@gembud They better show you baby tomorrow!!! I would ask them right at the start before they do anything if they couod maybe start by taking a quick peak at baby just to make sure everything is OK. Everyone loves to see a baby right? How could they possibly refuse????
@Panaceia i will look out for TP next time I’m sick 🤢 never thought I needed to worry about that. And i agree with @gembud, In no way is this little boy growing inside you a mere coincidence. The universe and higher powers at be are working to give you the redemption you have been waiting for. FX the next week passes and you find yourself on the other side of a big milestone.
@morgantu your cheesy cauliflower soup sounded amaaaaazing. Can’t wait for all the fall soups to hit restaurants. Love Paneras autumn squash soup so much. Also agree with you that if you know not being able to find the heartbeat will stress you to no end then I wouldn’t try.
@gembud hoping you get a great view of babe tomorrow!
Any big milestones? Not this week
@Panaceia That is such a traumatic experience - the coincidence of baby being conceived that same cycle has to be for a reason. Passing that 14 week milestone must feel so relieving!
Still haven’t told anyone. I told myself I would after the results of our NIPT, but now don’t want to. Am thinking maybe after Anatomy scan in 4 weeks, but so uncertain. I keep feeling like something bad is going to happen, because, well, I don’t get pregnant, and when I do, the pregnancies don’t last. This just feels surreal.
NIPT came back negative for all indicators - I paid for the advance screen, so it tested for any micro deletions as well as the regular panel. I thought it would be reassuring, but now I’m just stressing over the anatomy scan.
Any big milestones?
I’ve been referred from my infertility specialist to my OB! OB will be working with my neurologist to monitor my medication levels and come up with a plan for delivery, weaning meds down again after delivery etc. I’m terrified I’ll have a seizure during delivery or later in pregnancy due to increased blood volume/how this impacts medication levels, but hope that having my doctors work together will help prevent this!
I still don’t feel pregnant. I can find baby’s heartbeat with a Doppler, my lower abdomen is starting to stick out, it feels like I’m laying on an inflated balloon if I sleep on my stomach - but it just doesn’t feel real. Can anyone relate?
Also, I feel the same way about DD2 and my first 2 losses. If either of them had continued to term we wouldn't have DD2...and she is just the best thing ever. I was expecting at least 2 losses again, so this time I just thought of the losses as one step closer to the baby I'm meant to have. I hope this is him ❤
14 weeks 3 days, due date is 3/15
Physically I’m ok except my gag reflex has really kicked up a notch. I’ve been gagging every time I clear my throat or any time I eat. I was really hoping to be done with all of this by now, but it’s really hanging on.
Any big milestones?
14 weeks, out of the first trimester. Woo!
Nothing at the moment. Got it all out in the how “I’m feeling emotionally” section.
@morgantu How did family take the news!? I too keep saying “If I have the baby”. The doctor pointed out yesterday that not once had I referred to the baby as the baby, our baby, etc. I keep referring to the baby as “it”, and need to stop! I feel like it’s a way of remaining detached.
Also, I'm probably not going to announce at all. We never told anyone about DD1...just sort of let people figure it out and speculate behind our backs once my belly started growing. We didn't tell anyone about #2 either. Just waited until people started asking. This time with COVID and me on medical leave pretty much nobody will know I'm pregnant. My parents and my sister know and I'll have to tell my brother at some point only because we work together and at some point he'll realize I'm not at work...but I'm going to wait to see if we actually end up with a baby before telling anyone else. I will have to tell my girls...I just don't know when I'll have the courage to do it. I'm so afraid I'll tell them and then something will go wrong.