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Mental Health Diagnosis (if you have been) or What brings you to this thread today?:
Status (WTO/TWW/Benched/TTA):
Where are you in your mental health journey? (in treatment, looking for support, on meds, in counseling, having a rough day, etc.)
How are you feeling?
Re: Mental Health Check-in June 2021
Mental Health Diagnosis (if you have been) or What brings you to this thread today?: anxiety, depression, my mom rudely text messaging the whole family yesterday that my cousin is KU just destroying my day
Status (WTO/TWW/Benched/TTA): TWW
Where are you in your mental health journey? (in treatment, looking for support, on meds, in counseling, having a rough day, etc.) On meds and in counseling. Yesterday was rough too. It was immediately better when DH got home from work. Now I gotta get through today home alone.
How are you feeling? I struggled all afternoon yesterday. I just didn't want to work. Today is.... better? Idk, I have this habit of purposely making myself cry to make myself feel better. I have VERY strong emotions. It's my personality to feel very deeply so sometimes I gotta have that hardcore crying, bawling my eyes out with tears to put myself back in a good state. You know that TikTok of the cat pawing at the air after the dog died a few hours prior and someone animates it? Yeah I found the full song and bawled like a baby before and in the shower this morning. Probably going to listen to it constantly today because that's how I do lol
Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3 | all BFN
IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys
FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name"
RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET
FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer
2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle
Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks
TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20
Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21
Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation
Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal
Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations
BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22
DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023
Consultation with RI | 6.6.23
Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal
Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56
Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine
Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds
Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox
Repeat labs in 8 weeks
Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues
TTC ended due to filing divorce
**New relationship starting May 2024**
Surprise BFP!! | 9.7.25 | EDD 5.11.26
Mental Health Diagnosis (if you have been) or What brings you to this thread today?: OCD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Bipolar I Disorder with Psychosis
Status (WTO/TWW/Benched/TTA): TWW
Where are you in your mental health journey? (in treatment, looking for support, on meds, in counseling, having a rough day, etc.) I had my last shock therapy treatment (not looking to start a debate on ECT or anything) on March 12th. On meds and in counseling.
How are you feeling? I'm glad I stopped the ECT. I've been doing pretty well since then, only a few minor episodes, so I'm hopeful that I'm heading into a euthymic period. My current psychiatrist left the office I go to, no clue where she went. Just got a phone call the other day that they had to reschedule me with a new psychiatrist, so that makes me kind of nervous.
Mental Health Diagnosis (if you have been) or What brings you to this thread today?:
Anxiety, Depression, CPTSD
Status (WTO/TWW/Benched/TTA):
Just uhhh... HIO because we don’t know
Where are you in your mental health journey? (in treatment, looking for support, on meds, in counseling, having a rough day, etc.)
Im doing pretty good right now I have data but generally in a good place. I’ve been doing therapy once a week for 4 years now. I’m kinda a pro 😂 I’m off meds right now seeing how I do with that
How are you feeling?
therapy, talking about how I’m actually feeling with people here and my husband, exercise, taking time for myself.
@daisy0322 once a week? I can't imagine going that often.
Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3 | all BFN
IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys
FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name"
RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET
FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer
2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle
Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks
TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20
Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21
Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation
Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal
Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations
BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22
DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023
Consultation with RI | 6.6.23
Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal
Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56
Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine
Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds
Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox
Repeat labs in 8 weeks
Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues
TTC ended due to filing divorce
**New relationship starting May 2024**
Surprise BFP!! | 9.7.25 | EDD 5.11.26
Mental Health Diagnosis (if you have been) or What brings you to this thread today?: Anxiety, history of bulimia and disordered eating
Status (WTO/TWW/Benched/TTA): WTO
Where are you in your mental health journey? (in treatment, looking for support, on meds, in counseling, having a rough day, etc.) meds, need to find a new therapist with food issue specialty
How are you feeling? Ok. I’m feeling some latent eating issues pop up because I’m switching to a Mediterranean/anti-inflammatory diet to support fertility. I’m not bingeing or purging or anything, just feel myself getting into some negative mental messages around my food choices. I was doing talk therapy for years but really lapsed with it during Covid. I feel like my therapy sessions lost their oomph and I need to make a change. I need a therapist that probes a bit because I have a tendency to paint a very rosy picture and I don’t think my previous/current therapist does a great job pulling out those pieces. I know it’s on me, too, but I think I need to seek out a different personality to support me.
@rachelredhead I hope you find a better therapist for your needs!
Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3 | all BFN
IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys
FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name"
RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET
FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer
2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle
Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks
TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20
Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21
Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation
Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal
Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations
BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22
DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023
Consultation with RI | 6.6.23
Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal
Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56
Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine
Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds
Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox
Repeat labs in 8 weeks
Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues
TTC ended due to filing divorce
**New relationship starting May 2024**
Surprise BFP!! | 9.7.25 | EDD 5.11.26