September 2021 Moms
emeraldcity1214
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PGAL 2/21
emeraldcity1214
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This is a check in for those of us who are experiencing pregnancy after a loss (miscarriage, chemical pregnancy, stillbirth, child loss, to name a few). Hopefully we can all lend support to each other through the hormone filled craziness that is pregnancy!
Just a reminder: there is a general loss trigger warning on this entire thread.
Just a reminder: there is a general loss trigger warning on this entire thread.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
4. When is your next appointment?
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
Re: PGAL 2/21
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 10+3; 14 weeks is my next milestone
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? I get random bouts of nausea. Like last night I ate some dip DH made for me that was so yummy but it made me nauseous. I think it was a combination of being tired and hungry and when I finally ate it bothered my stomach. I ate more later and I was fine.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? My anxiety is low right now. I listen to the HB on the doppler anytime I feel it creeping in. Last night I found it right away. I was able to get right on it and it was clear and strong.
4. When is your next appointment? I have a follow up US and blood draw coming up but my next appointment is in 4 weeks.
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I just love my OB so much. She spent so much time just talking to me and letting me talk about my anxiety and fears. I told her how embarrassing it was when I worked myself up into full hysterics and she assured me it is normal when you have had losses like I have. I really hope I luck up and have her for my delivery. She was so calm and relaxed when she delivered my last baby. One thing I found interesting is that she never once mentioned COVID to me. She never brought up the vaccine either. 🤷🏻♀️
@emeraldcity1214 that's great that you love your OB so much! I can't wait to meet my midwife. She was recommended to me by a nurse at my primary care office. Hopefully she and I vibe!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 11 weeks tomorrow. I guess being in the double-digits is a milestone since my previous losses were at 5 weeks and a CP.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? I felt ok for most of the day yesterday, but got really sick right after dinner (which was at my ILs' house, so that was rough). DH had to pull over so I could throw up on the ride home. That's the fist time I've thrown up, so I guess I should count myself lucky. I've been nauseous most afternoons/evening and food aversion is the worst. I don't want to eat ANYTHING. Except maybe peanut butter and jelly crackers or mashed potatoes. Basically carbs are my BFF right now.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Getting so sick yesterday threw me for a loop. I guess I assumed I would be feeling better by now, not worse. So now I'm worried something is off.
4. When is your next appointment? My intake appointment is March 3, then my first appointment with the midwife is March 16.
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) Every time I complain about feeling sick or fatigued, I immediately feel bad for complaining. I think it's infertility/PGAL brain, like "YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL TO BE PREGNANT, SUCK IT UP!"
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 12w2d had my big milestone last Wednesday seeing both babies moving around on the ultrasound.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Mainly exhausted. Had a hard time sleeping this weekend so I pulled out my pregnancy pillow. Hoping this will help with getting comfortable. I didn't start using it until 20 weeks last time.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Anxiety is much better after the ultrasound.
4. When is your next appointment? 3/22
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I found the dresser I wanted for the nursery from Ikea. We were right next to the store this weekend, but didn't really have time to go and didn't have the right vehicle to bring it back. I guess we will have to make another trip (it's about 1.5 hours away) this summer....oh darn
@e@emeraldcity1214 I'm glad you love your OB. I loved my old OB, but he had since retired. I like my current OB. She's very direct and to the point. I know she's not everyone's cup of tea. Maybe it's the infertility background I don't want things sugar coated.
@emeraldduchess don't feel bad for complaining about not feeling good. Weeks 5-8 I was absolutely miserable. I felt so bad for feeling the way I did about it after trying for almost 4 years, but we still have the right to complain just as much as someone who gets pregnant with little effort. There are parts of pregnancy that just suck.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 11+5 I guess my next ultrasound is a milestone. When I had my 12 week ultrasound two pregnancies ago, that where they found several issues and started all the testing and talking to specialists until we decided to not continue with the pregnancy at 15 weeks.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? I'm super tired and have random bouts of nausea. The nausea seems to come on more at night around dinner. It's hard for me to tell if I'm hungry or nauseous.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Okay I guess? I'm almost 12 weeks and don't have my next ultrasound until the 5th and wish it was sooner. My midwife said I can call to make an appointment any time I want to come in to hear the heartbeat but I just feel stupid doing that and not waiting until next Friday.
4. When is your next appointment? Ultrasound and NIPT on March 5th
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) We've decided to find out the sex (we were team green with my son) and I'm a little nervous about being disappointed. Obviously I want a healthy baby first and foremost but after losing my baby girl at 15 weeks, I just think I'll feel sad if I have another boy. And I hate even admitting that.
@emeraldcity1214 I'm glad your OB is so understanding. I had a similar conversation with my midwife and started crying at my last appointment. She was so nice and assuring me it was okay and I may cry at a lot of appointments. It's hard when you've gone trough multiple losses.
@emeraldduchess I agree with the other ladies about not feeling bad complaining. You can be grateful for your pregnancy and it can be hard all at the same time.
Shockingly, this time I was more relaxed about it. Like, I'm already going through potty training a boy. Do I want to have to deal with teaching a girl how to wipe or period talks or other girl stuff? I think both genders had their downsides for me.
I can't WAIT to find out what you're having!
@emeraldcity1214 I couldn't believe my OB brought up COVID vaccines the very first time we met (when I hadn't even asked about them), but I figure he's probably being bombarded with questions by pregnant women on their safety.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? Nearly 12 weeks
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Most are starting to fade, thank goodness. I think I might have SPD or something coming on because if I sit too long, I have weird pressure when I stand.
I realized I've been taking too much progesterone though (my doctor didn't tell me to stop the pills when I got the shots) so I'm hoping it might improve once I cut down my dose.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? It depends on the day. I had some spotting last week, but my doctor got me right in to check on things.
4. When is your next appointment? March 3
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) A friend is giving us one of their kids' nursery furniture, so I'm itching to start reorganizing stuff. But I'm also anxious to make too many changes too early and then end up having to get rid of stuff (my husband had nursery furniture moved out before I came home after we had our stillborn daughter).
@marymh80 this is what I love about this thread, knowing that I can share the feelings and not be judged for them. I definitely wouldn't mind being a boy mom it's the thought of what would have been. Although DH is convinced it's a girl because I've been so puky like I was last time around.
He's pro-waiting, since there's so little research on it in pregnant women. And I had COVID in January so I'm not exactly rushed for a vaccine since I know there are people who need it more than me.
@feelingjovani I was pretty sure pretty early that this was a girl. My skin was TERRIBLE and I was exhausted and sick in a different way than I was last time.
@emeraldcity1214 I am so happy to hear that you have such a great OB. I’ve heard some nightmarish stories through peoples losses (and have one of my own) that it’s so geat to hear about the good experiences too. To your last point, my doctor friend said that until the vaccine is more readily available to everyone who wants it, doctors won’t broach the subject unless you bring it up to them.
@emeraldduchess YAY FOR THE MILESTONE!!! And you are NOT ALONE in feeling guilty for complaining about symptoms. The anxiety that comes with PGAL puts so much pressure on us that we feel we have to be grateful for every moment that we are pregnant. But the reality is… pregnancy is rough. No matter what. And we should really take that guilt off of ourselves!
@feelingjovani You shouldn’t feel silly or stupid going in to hear the heartbeat if it will help you at all. I think it’s pretty freaking cool that your midwife is willing to do that for you.
@marymh80 That’s a great friend! Give yourself some grace to be excited in whatever way that manifests itself – like decorating/reorganizing.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? The end of first tri is within sight, thank God! I am counting that as a milestone lol.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Still throwing up most nights after dinner – doesn’t matter what I eat. Polar opposite daily sickness timeline from DDs pregnancy which is interesting.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Similar to @centralmnmom I am still riding that post-ultrasound high of knowing that baby is OK and thriving. I wish I could live my whole pregnancy on this high.
4. When is your next appointment? Cardiology tomorrow (high risk with a congenital high condition) and I scheduled an US boutique appointment for next Thursday to take DH and DD to, so I am very much looking forward to that.
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) A part of my job is working with young adults in crisis and this week was one full of mental health struggles and suicidal ideation. I am very proud of how my team and I handled each one of those situations, but honestly… I am taxed. Emotionally spent. I get dose dos of the COVID vaccine on Thursday and took off Friday as a sick day just to recoop from all of the craziness.
I thought of another milestone. I get to stop progesterone suppositories today!