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August 2021 Moms
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PGAL 1/3
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This is a check in for those of us who are experiencing pregnancy after a loss (miscarriage, chemical pregnancy, stillbirth, child loss, to name a few). Hopefully we can all lend support to each other through the hormone filled ride that is pregnancy!
Just a reminder: there is a general loss trigger warning on this entire thread.
Just a reminder: there is a general loss trigger warning on this entire thread.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
4. When is your next appointment?
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here)
Re: PGAL 1/3
How far along are you? Any milestones? 6w3d. This Thursday (7 weeks) is the milestone for my loss in October.
How are you feeling (physically)? I feel like a pile of goo. The all day nausea is here, along with heartburn and burping. I’m exhausted, but I can’t sleep. And my boobs feel heavy, not really sore just heavy.
How are you feeling (emotionally)? Eh, I feel a little unhinged. Part of me is like “I just need to make it to Thursday” and then another part of me is like “Thursday is irrelevant, a loss can happen at anytime.” Then part of me is like “I have strong symptoms, that is a good sign. I have good feelings about this pregnancy compared to last time” and then another part of me is like “you can’t manifest a healthy pregnancy”. I’m just up and down and all over the place.
When is your next appointment? I finally get my first beta draw tomorrow. I’m actually starting to feel a bit of nervous excitement. I just really want to know if I am where I should be. I feel like this will also be what I need to stop POAS 🙈.
R/R: why is time passing so slowly?! That is all.
None for awhile. My MMC in November was at 10+3 and discovered at 13 weeks.
However I am still struggling with my loss from November. I should have been 20 weeks by now ...
When I told my parents the due date they said "well, that's really close to hunting season" and at first it didn't bother me but now it's driving me crazy. I'm sorry I miscarried and this baby is due at a time that is inconvenient for you?! Like Wtf parents. I'll say something to them if they bring it up again though.
@pickle-chips I feel the same symptoms. Just blah.
@grogu how insensitive. It's not like you chose to have a miscarriage. I'm sorry.
How far along are you? Any milestones? 6+1. I'll hit my earliest milestone at 8 weeks. Last miscarriage I was 7+6. I honestly won't be okay at least until I can feel the baby move.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Nauseated all day, exhausted, can't sleep. Major painful boobs.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Not great. Thanks to extra cm, I thought I was spotting last night in bed. Nope just my crazy brain.
4. When is your next appointment? Beta draw tomorrow and appt the 14th with hopefully an ultrasound.
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I was due in April with my last pregnancy. I started a side business and the lady who is hosting is due in April. Come to find out two others are expecting around the same time. Kind of bums me out, but so grateful for this little baby inside me now even if I'm not willing to share the news about them yet.
Thanks @emily1052 ❤️ Today, we are pregnant!
I've had some thankful moments too though, we were in a hit and run in October and I would have been 26 weeks. Also thankful I'm not 8mo pregnant and trying to shovel my driveway. Constantly fighting myself on these kinds of thoughts because what the actual fuck.
I wish we could just erase all these memories and go back to the pregnancy joy before any losses happened.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 9+4, I should get some comfort at my US in a couple weeks.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Exhausted. And constantly starving. I'm no good at eating so I think I need to start some food research.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? I've had moments.
4. When is your next appointment? 1/14 with GP
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I guess I kinda ranted about my brain above. My dad was visiting for 2 months and just left. He was starting to drive me crazy so its nice but I'm already sad he's gone.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 7+3... not yet, not until ultrasound and heartbeat. I’m so scared of the ultrasound, I am kind of dreading it honestly it was so traumatic last time. I remember sobbing all morning before my ultrasound because I just knew something was wrong intuitively. I can’t picture how I’ll feel the day of this time.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Mildly queasy if I haven’t eaten, bloated, headaches, vivid dreams, constantly peeing. No cravings but definite food aversions. And yet I’m always worried because I swear I have “no symptoms”
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Idk it comes and goes. Still kind of detached but then I notice us getting excited and that scares me and I cut it.
4. When is your next appointment? Friday 1/8 is my first appointment with an OBGYN, seeing my acupuncturist 1/6 and having a blood draw to check progesterone tomorrow
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I feel different this pregnancy, not so much physically but last time I felt so much doom and anxiety pretty much from the get go. Like my body knew something wasn’t ok and I was so panicked, I’m a lot calmer this time. My optimistic side thinks it’s because this time it’s going to work and my pessimistic side thinks that it’s because I’ve already experienced the worst fear so I’m less scared. Who knows, I just wanna fast forward!
@grogu I hate when something bothers you after the fact and feels too late to mention it. My mom gets to me like that a lot.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 9w1d -Past both loss milestones at this point
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Awful. The nausea is all day and just nonstop. I'm trying to embrace it and remind myself it means I'm pregnant
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? I actually haven't had much anxiety at all. I'm so sick of the rollercoaster I feel like I've just shut down. My spotting went away for a few days and now it's back. Just brown.. but dark brown and more in the morning. It makes my heart jump when I see it and then I just feel nothing. That sounds so dramatic but my BF asked how I was feeling today and I was like, honestly.. either it's going to make it or it's not. And I was like omg.. how could you say that, that is so cold. But it feels like my brain just protecting myself from caring too much.. just being over the ups and downs. It still sounds bad but the spotting had just made me really angry.
4. When is your next appointment? January 15th - no u/s (already had that at 7w - all was well in there despite the spotting) Just meeting with my dr for the first time
5. Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here) I hate wishing time away. My son is in kindergarten and my daughter is 2 and she's so fun right now and I want to enjoy it but I just want this first trimester to be over with. Then I think well once I'm out of that I'll just be worried about the next thing, then s/he is born and I'll worry about SIDS and on and on so I mean... why wish for time to go faster when there is something new around the corner.
Wow that was a really dark post lol I'm actually not in as bad of a mood as that made me sound. Just another day! But all in all, things aren't THAT bad
@cocoliso13 I feel this way about my Wednesday ultrasound too. Immense dread!! I hate that PGAL takes away the joy from these appts.
2. how are you feeling? Totally fine, which freaks me out. Was super nauseous for about two days at 6+3, puked, and since then, nothing. I didn’t have as much nausea when I had my loss so I’ve assumed the worst.