EDD/weeks+days:
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green:
Baby is the size of a(n):
Upcoming appointments:
How are you feeling?
Raves/Rants:
Questions:
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered?
Married: August 2012
TTC #1: July 2015
BFP 1: October 30, 2015; EDD: July 6, 2016- Team Pink
TTC #2: September 2019
Re: Check-in w/o January 27
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Blue!
Baby is the size of a(n): lemon
Upcoming appointments: February 13 I believe
How are you feeling? Pretty good most of the time.
Raves/Rants: insomnia is a bitch. I’m tired, but can function during the day, but at night I’m wide awake. When I take a unisom it puts me to sleep no problem, but I wake up around 3:30/4 each time. I think that since I’m going back into the office this week I’ll take it early and then if I wake up early I’ll just go to gym at work before I have to clock in.
Questions:
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered?
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding out
Baby is the size of a(n): Lime
Upcoming appointments: Thursday for my NIPT and u/s and dr
How are you feeling? Ok. Yesterday was bad as I didnt drink enough water the day before, so I was cramping pretty hardcore, which did nothing to help my PGAL brain.
Raves/Rants:
Questions:
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered?
I had PPD with ds2. He was in NICU after he was born and it was very scary. I will need to deal with my trauma of his birth before I deliver, so I will be going to therapy, but I am happy to feel like the worst is behind me. I am still foggy, but I'm leaps and bounds over where I was.
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding out!
Baby is the size of a(n): cherry/tator tot
Upcoming appointments: Thursday for NIPT, still waiting to hear from the specialist on scheduling the 3d u/s
How are you feeling? This morning was a bit rough, which is unusual since the nausea usually strikes in the afternoon/evenings. Either way I'm feeling better now and this past week was better than the one prior so I'm hoping this is a trend. Still super tired and didn't get any workout in over the weekend... and my nose is still stuffy!!!
Raves/Rants: I saw my nana over the weekend and she made homemade manicotti, sauce, and meatballs for me. She also roasted red peppers and got mini fresh mozz balls that she made sure were pasteurized. Top it off that she made an apple pie and had flavored decaf coffee and flavored seltzers for me. Everything was absolutely delicious and I felt so spoiled. She even packed me a doggie bag to take home!
Questions:
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? Umm, idk... speaking to strangers without getting completely nervous. I have a terrible fear of vomiting since childhood that I have not gotten over and I don't think I ever will. Thankfully, I haven't gotten "sick" and praying that I don't (knock on wood)...
Dating 4/2008
Married 6/2016
TTC #1 9/2019
BFP 12/13/2019!
EDD 8/27/2020 Baby Girl
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding Out
Baby is the size of a(n): Lime
Upcoming appointments: Nothing to note here.
How are you feeling?: Nausea seems to be letting up but I am still tired as ever. I'm still taking more naps than I want, and I think part of it is the active as heck bladder I've got going on. I feel like all I do is pee.
Raves/Rants: I am ready to lose my shit on DH's HR department. We were told at the beginning of December it would take 2-4 weeks for him to be transitioned out of contract and be signed on with the company he is working at full time. That means an increase in salary and a complete change in benefits... so I'm still sitting here uninsured at 11 weeks pregnant haven't been to an OB yet and I'm ready to scream. It's almost February. The last time he checked in they gave him some shitty excuse about "waiting for others who were also being signed on to turn their paperwork in so they could do it all at once." I can't imagine we're the only person in insurance limbo... it's the middle of sick season. I'm not worried, what's happening with me and baby right now is happening whether or not I'm into an OB office right now. There is really nothing they could do right now other than some lab tests and an U/S to check progression. Sure, I could be having a MMC and not know, but so could anyone else between appointments. At this far in I've really only potentially missed one appointment, but I know there are heaps of women out there who don't even realize they are pregnant yet and are as far along as I am so I know that the fact that I know and I've been taking my vitamins and taking extra care of myself already puts me "ahead" (shitty way to say it but only word I could think of). I'm just mad. I have no idea what the wait times at the offices I'm interested in booking at look like, and I just want to get to the point where I can choose a practice.
Not to mention, my daughter's insurance is also changing, so of course I am going to be looking for a ped for her so she can get a physical for school and hopefully that person would be the ped for this baby.. I'm not messing with one who takes her current insurance when I know it's changing (and her current insurance appears to not be very widely accepted).
Sorry I popped off. I've been holding that in and not talking to my husband about it, I don't want him to feel worse than I know he does.
Questions:
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered?: I'm a survivor of childhood emotional abuse and neglect. I didn't ever realize that I was a survivor until I was almost 30 years old because my mother and grandparents loved and cared for me. I didn't realize that a parent and a step parent were capable of the damage they managed to do to me until I finally hit rock bottom after a really bad argument/fight with my biological father and his wife drove me to start drinking and sent me into constant panic. I finally got into therapy, and my therapist pointed out some traits that I share with a lot of other survivors, and told me that just because it was only half of my family, that didn't mean that my trauma was not valid. I feared cutting off contact with my biological father for years, despite wanting to, because I was so afraid of the fall out it would cause in the family. I got over that and I am so much happier. I got sober, I got healthy, I was finally able to look at my physical health and make the choice to take care of myself and I dropped a TON of weight. I'm a more fearless parent. I'm not afraid of my child being rejected like I was.
I still get anxious because there will be funerals in the future where I will see him... but I have a plan. My family has my back, and I am so PROUD of myself for finally putting myself and my family first.
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: green
Baby is the size of a(n): tater tot
Upcoming appointments: Feb. 12
How are you feeling? Bleh....
Raves/Rants:
Rant! I was sick over the weekend, like terribly sick, could not keep anything down for about 6-7 hours. Now I am on the mend but my nausea is sticking around longer than it used to. I don't think this has to do with the stomache bug that I dealt with over the weekend so I'm wondering if my nausea is getting worse...
Rave: my son turns 1 on Friday. I had already dropped down to one pumping session per day when we came back from the holiday break and this week and I am completely cutting it out! I have enough frozen milk stashed to give him bottles for a few more weeks and I will continue to nurse him morning and night as long as he wants but it is liberating to not lug my pump to work and wash all the parts at night!
Questions: none
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered?
This is a deep question! I overcame an eating disorder after college. It was a long road. I was on anxiety medication for awhile and have been off it for a few years now. I sometimes am still not perfectly happy with how my body looks and still feel guilty when I don't eat well but I've found a healthy relationship with food and my body and have been doing well for a long time now! My body gave birth to my son and has fed him for a year and now it's preparing to do it all over again! It's quite AMAZING!
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Green
Upcoming appointments: Not until mid-Feb.
How are you feeling? Fine. Still tired a lot. And also stuffy. I have pregnancy rhinitis, and it's the pits. Basically feels like I've had a permanent cold for the last two months. I had it with my first, too. I think the morning sickness is pretty much gone. Occasionally, I still feel it when I'm super hungry or sudden changes - standing up and moving around or going outside. And I still have to be careful brushing my teeth.
Raves/Rants: See above, haha! I need to house clean and do laundry today.
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? Hmm, I can't really think of anything. I don't know.
***TW***
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1 LC, girl 5 years old
TTC #2 Summer 2017
BFP 1/5/2018, MC (D & E) 2/23/2018
TTCAL May 2018
BFP 9/20/2018, MC (D & E) 11/16/2018
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: finding out
Baby is the size of a(n): plum
Upcoming appointments: Feb. 24
How are you feeling? Relieved. I had my ultrasound this morning and it turns out there actually is a baby in there! This is the first day in 9 weeks that I haven't been anxious about that. Otherwise I feel pretty much the same.
Raves/Rants:
Rant: My skin has been HORRIBLE the last week or so. I'm breaking out like crazy and don't feel comfortable using any of the products I was using pre-pregnancy, but I'm getting tired of looking like a teenager.
Rave: We finally told our parents this weekend and they are extremely excited. Well, my mom is at least. My MIL didn't realize what she was looking at (a picture of me and DH and I had a bow on my belly) but seemed happy once we told her. It's the first grandchild on both sides.
Questions: none
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? Oh goodness. Probably talking to people I don't know. I am very introverted and shy, and really struggled when I started working and had to call parents and other therapists/coordinators on the phone. I still dread having to make phone calls that may not be overly positive, but at least I'm not writing a script for myself anymore.
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Green
Baby is the size of a(n): cherry
Upcoming appointments: Wednesday!
How are you feeling?
A bit better! Hoping to start working out again.
Raves/Rants: I'm excited to be getting close to second trimester! Once there, I want to get the ball rolling with telling work and seeing what maternity leave I'll qualify. I'm also looking forward to telling my mom on Valentine's day
Questions:
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered
Hmmm. Going against the grain in meetings to fight for what's right.
DD born June 2016
Second due August 2020 (team green!)
@wildrainbow Drink that water! Glad you have an u/s so soon to help put your mind at rest.
@ziggymama06 Would your nana be interested in feeding other random pregnant women who think her cooking sounds absolutely incredible??
@RedBaramid You are handling insurance limbo with SUCH grace. I hope his HR department gets their act together soon!! (Why is HR seriously the worst? Always.)
@riatortillaxo Yayyyyy congratulations on putting the pump away foreva' ! (Or, you know, until August at least.) Pumping all the way to one is a huge accomplishment. Any big plans for celebrating the birthday?
@coldlife Does the rhinitis typically hang around all pregnancy (did it last time?) or is that something that will fade as we move further into second tri?
@wednesdaygirl1019 First grandchild is a big deal. What a cute way to announce.
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Green
Upcoming appointments: February 10
How are you feeling? Much better. I feel mostly like myself, just a little more tired and a little more hungry than usual. I didn't really have cravings last pregnancy but I've decided to make them up this time if I need to. Currently, I'm on a bagel kick.
Raves/Rants: We haven't told family yet, and today my MIL texted DH to ask if we had any exciting news to share. I'm so much more upset by the question than I thought I would be. Sad for DH that a joyful announcement will now be sort of awkward and defensive, frustrated that our joint privacy around TTC and early pregnancy wasn't respected. And also trying to figure out how we might have accidentally tipped them off.
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? Not conquered (yet) but I have a lot of anxiety around public speaking. It doesn't come up too often, but a few times a year and (by definition) usually one of the most visible parts of my job to the organization as a whole. Working on it!
It does fluctuate during the day and day to day. Some days are super runny, others aren't. I'm hoping it goes away soon!
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding out soon hopefully! (Still thinking pink)
Baby is the size of a(n): An apricot
Upcoming appointments: Thursday with my regular OB
How are you feeling? Pretty good. My appetite is still so weird and I don’t really like anything. I feel some energy slowly creeping back in so my house looks less condemned this week.
Raves/Rants: January has felt like 13 months in one. Time is dragggggging. Probably because I want my NIPT results and to be in the second tri already.
Questions: None
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? I really have no idea 🤔 Have to think on this.
@blackgirlmagic Ohhh yes. Just leaving my kids in general gives me so much anxiety. My husband has to tell me to stop texting him and enjoy what I’m doing because I get so bad.
@wildrainbow How are you feeling today? Hopefully no more cramping.
@ziggymama06 oh, man, your nana sounds amazing! What a great to be spoiled.
@redbaramid I’m so sorry your husband’s company is dragging their feet. I hope they get it together soon so you aren’t in limbo anymore.
@riatortillaxo Congrats on the end of the pumping road! What a great accomplishment!
@coldlife Ugh, that sounds miserable. Hopefully it’ll resolve with warmer weather (or sooner!)
@wednesdaygirl1019 Yay for a good ultrasound!
@samsonator Do you have a special way you’ll be telling your mom? She’s gonna have such a sweet Valentine’s Day!
@emiliadkay I’ve had a bagel every day for the last few weeks. It’s the only thing that sounds decent to me. I’m sorry about your MIL’s text. That’s pretty disrespectful and intrusive.
EDD/weeks+days: 13w
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Green
Baby is the size of a(n): Lemon
Upcoming appointments: Feb 21
How are you feeling? I’ve been feeling pretty good throughout this entire pregnancy. I find myself going to bed around 9:30 every night. Up around 12am for a pee, and back to bed to wake at 6:30. The bad- My scalp has been itchy and my hands extra dry. I’ve been struggling with headaches and the odd migraine but I’ve had that most of my adult life.
Raves/Rants: Hmm... My bras aren’t fitting anymore and I hate getting dressed that doesn’t consist of comfies. I just can’t find anything I feel I look and feel good in. My body is definitely changing - I’m 100% ok with that, I just want an actual baby belly rather than looking bloated or that I’ve just gained some weight.
Questions: Nothing I can think of at this moment
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered?
Anxiety is something I know all to well. TBH, I was terrified finding out I was pregnant at 7 weeks. The history my husband and I have had, it didn’t seem like having a baby would be a great idea before working on our marriage. When we found out, I could instantly see the hope and willingness in my husband to not only change but to Actually work on us. We would get through anything no matter what, he would be there. I had a constant worry that my husband would mess up. Then at my dating ultrasound appointment, when I seen the baby at 9w3d and heard it’s heartbeat - nothing else mattered but baby. My heart filled with so much love, I knew we would be ok. My anxiety let off, i was hopeful, I’m not scared. I’m not anxious. Although I am cautious and take no BS. I stand my ground and let my feelings be known without fearing consequences for expressing my feelings. I’m not afraid of the future because I know, no matter what, I’ve got this. This is absolutely a life changing experience I’ve been blessed with, I couldn’t be more thankful for my precious gift. I really feel like I’m getting closer to being the best version of myself.
11w1d
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green:
Pink!! We both thought it was a boy! I’m thrilled!
Baby is the size of a(n):
Poker chip
Upcoming appointments:
Early Feb
How are you feeling?
Good- still pretty tired. I took some amazing naps this weekend.
Raves/Rants:
Rant: it’s owl mating season and we have some love birds courting each other every night close to the house. It’s not helping my sleep.
Questions:
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered?
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@ziggymama06 OMG your nana (and her food) sound amazing!
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: just found out today -team blue!
Baby is the size of a(n): lemon
Upcoming appointments: Feb 17 for my 16 week visit. I got the NIPT results back and everything is looking good!
How are you feeling? Pretty much the same. Low key nausea, painful bloating in the afternoon, and pain in my hips.
Raves/Rants: Now that my NIPT results are in, and I’m just a couple of days away from my second tri, I am just so grateful to be having a healthy pregnancy after everything we went through to get here.
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? Anxiety has always been an issue for me, but I have made a lot of progress over the past few years (with the help of therapy). After a series of scary car accidents about 10 years ago, I developed some intense anxiety about driving. I’m not really sure how, but I’ve managed to overcome that in the past few years. I think part of it was just being comfortable driving super safely, even if other drivers are passing me, and just generally being better about getting out of my own head and succumbing to negative thoughts.
P.S. eating tater tots tonight bc of your and @riatortillaxo 's post (:
@RedBaramid I'm sorry you're still having to deal with HR! I think your perspective on the worrying aspect is really healthy. I need to start thinking more that way when I'm in between appointments and getting anxious to hear good news. I'm also so sorry for your childhood experiences
@riatortillaxo Congrats on being done with pumping! And congrats on all of the progress you've made with self-love and healthy body perceptions
@wednesdaygirl1019 Yay for a reassuring ultrasound!
@emiliadkay Your "making up cravings" comment made me laugh! I am right there with you. I've had mostly aversions thus far, but today "Baby" wanted Starbucks after work... I'm sorry about your MIL's text
hubs: 26
ttc #1: 4/19
dx: PCOS
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding out! This week I started having a feeling it's a boy. It's not based on any particular clues, just a random feeling I didn't have before.
Baby is the size of a(n): Cherry
Upcoming appointments: NIPT Friday! Next dr. visit is 2/13. Realistically, I know that time has passed since my last appointment. But I'm so impatient it feels like my next appointment is still a month away. I keep having to tell myself it's just ~2 weeks. I need to work on waiting more calmly.
How are you feeling? Meh... food aversions have lessened so I can eat more normally, but I keep forgetting how strong and present the nausea is if I go just a bit too long without food. I really should be used to this by now, but it's tricky because I won't feel hungry before I get nauseated. It really hits me all of a sudden. Since my nausea has been better overall, I thought this week would go smoother, but I've just generally felt... bad? It's hard to explain... dizzier than previous weeks, out of breath basically all the time, not sleeping well, flushed, mild headaches, low energy, can't stand up for a very long time without getting woozy, muscles feel useless, etc. I'm really looking forward to that second tri!
Raves/Rants: Rave: We finally got our washer/dryer installed! It was quite the adventure. It involved me crawling on top of and behind the washer into a little corner, plugging in/connecting all the dryer pieces, hoisting myself back onto the washer and then wedging myself directly into a too-small space in our water heater closet across from washer/dryer (which we had to remove the door from first in order to make happen). I was flat up against the water heater with my arms each on a wall basically straddling it while hubs attached the dryer to the top of washer. There was a moment of fear where we couldn't push the washer/dryer back into place, so I was stuck in the closet for a little while longer than I'd have preferred. Twice I tried squeezing myself out with the small progress we had made and couldn't fit. But eventually I was set free and then hubs somehow got the appliances back against the wall.
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered?
I struggled with this one because I have anxiety in general that has developed post-college. So, a lot of times I find myself feeling like that's gotten worse instead of better since I didn't have it for most of my life.
But @samsonator 's response resonated with me. I used to just go along with what other people said in meetings, play the role of the peacekeeper, or stay quiet. Now I speak up and am more involved. I'm vocal about my concerns and opinions. I'm not at all intimidated by people who are in leadership positions over me or who have more experience than me because I've learned that they're often wrong. I've never been much of a leader, but I've learned that I'm willing to go out of my comfort zone and be one when I care about things enough that are being handled poorly. I'm also learning how to say things in a more confident way, with a firm tone because I grew up learning that if you say things nicely and gently and be very patient, people will still pick up on subtleties and understand you. That has worked for most people I've interacted with throughout my life, but I now work with a few people who don't respect me and what I have to say unless I'm stern about it. One time I actually had to tell a coworker, "I don't know why you're still trying to talk to me about this. I've told you my answer several times and you haven't listened. My decision isn't changing. I'm going to go eat my lunch in a different room." That felt horrible to me because it seems very rude and I would normally never speak to people like that, but it's the only thing that got him to stop bugging me for a moment.
Wow. Sorry. I let myself have caffeine today, so I was even wordier than usual.
hubs: 26
ttc #1: 4/19
dx: PCOS
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding out
Baby is the size of a(n): as tall as a tube of lipstick
Upcoming appointments: Had one yesterday for culture, blood draw, and to discuss financials
How are you feeling? Feeling good. Little things easily trip me into a gagging fit though. Like brushing my teeth or being outside in the cold. My appetite is generally small still and I've lost a few lbs. Not too concerned about it but hopefully won't become an issue with 2nd tri right around the corner.
Raves/Rants: Rants - Saw everyone at my appointment yesterday with the cutest bumps! Jealous. I'm so awkward and just lumpy at this point.
Questions:
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? Oh man. I have so many irrational fears and have conquered none of them. I guess soon after DD was born, I was terrified I was going to accidentally hurt her. Example: That I would be carrying her to her crib, trip on the rug, and break her. It was a real paranoia I had. I still get paranoid about her safety but I guess I have managed it better as she has gotten older.
Team:
Finding out, plan on NIPT testing at our next appt on Feb 14th
Baby is the size of:
A baby sea turtle shell?? haha their day to day updates are almost trying too hard....
Upcoming appointments: Another US and first official "pregnancy" appt on Valentine's Day
How are you feeling?
I feel like my energy is coming back and intermittent nausea definitely seems to be abating. Hoping this continues but just grateful that overall I've been on the mild side as far as any symptoms go!
Raves/Rants:
Rave: Finally ALL family knows as of this Sunday, feels good to have done. My husband's aunt pulled me aside at a family get together this Sun, and commented on "how good I look", and that she "noticed at Christmas". I took this to mean she knew I was pregnant, and that she was commenting on a 'pregnancy glow'(which I dont feel I'm seeing ANY of, btw!) and my not drinking, but turns out she was under the impression I was losing weight! So that made me feel pretty good about myself, even though the scale certainly hasn't budged over the past month 🤣
GTKY: What is something you fear or have had anxiety over that you've conquered?
I'm epileptic which can be pretty scary and anxiety-inducing. I'm lucky to be very well controlled on a medication I tolerate well and is safe for pregnancy, but it has taken a long time and lots of practice for me to create a comfortable headspace for myself when it comes to driving/being out in public/etc. It's made me a strong person and I've proud with how I've handled my anxiety but definitely have a great family and husband to thank for good support when I'm not feeling my best.
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding out
Baby is the size of a(n): tater tot
Upcoming appointments: 2/11
How are you feeling?: Decent. Nausea on/off if I wait too long to eat.
Raves/Rants: I have a cold
Questions: none
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered?
I've had an anxiety disorder with panic attacks on/off since I was a teenager. It was definitely the precursor to developing an eating disorder. I'm overweight now, so whenever I go to the doctor I get really anxious about them bringing up my weight because its so triggering and I start thinking about the times in my life when I only allowed myself a couple bites of food a day and how much I hated myself and how everyone was so happy and praising me for how "great" I looked. I'm still in the process of getting over this fear, but I feel I've come a long way with liking myself just the way I am.
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding out
Baby is the size of a(n): Lime
Upcoming appointments: 2/10 and 2/21
How are you feeling?: Forever Nausea and exhaustion
Raves/Rants: I'm high risk because of a blood antigen and I feel weird saying I'm due in August when I will give birth anytime after 32 weeks depending on how baby is doing. Also there is literally nothing we can do but wait and watch it get worse for baby and have zero affect on me and also I shouldn't have more kids but I'm not allowed to stress even though its a stressful situation.
Questions: none
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered?
I've had a heart problem since 10th grade where my heart beats crazy fast for absolutely no reason and when I was pregnant with my first I was constantly on edge that it would hurt baby and I don't have that fear this time around. That may be because its my blood attacking baby this time so My head decided this would be my stress-or this time.
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: finding out.
Baby is the size of a(n): no clue I didn't update the app to keep track this time. tiney tiny
Upcoming appointments: 2/4 10 week blood work and NIGT
How are you feeling? eh. the nausea comes and goes but i haven't threw up since Friday
Raves/Rants: ehhhh i got nothing
Questions: none right now
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? recently breastfeeding, i just stopped BFing my 20 month old 11 days ago. Its been HARD. It was nearly 10 months of failed weaning. And I had made it two or even 3 days before but he always came back wanting it. But now that I know my boobs are empty and theres no going back it feels so great. Hes not happy about it but hey nothing I can do, the milk is gone.
Married Aug 2016 Me 30
CS scheduled 7/26-8/12 Due 8/30
Married Aug 2016 Me 30
CS scheduled 7/26-8/12 Due 8/30
@faith_2911 I'm glad you got tator tots! I still want them and need to pick them up soon lolol... I get the same way... If I'm even the tiniest bit hungry I get nauseous. So I've taken up just munching all day long to try and hedge it off. I've become more aware that once my stomach feels sort of empty, I better eat. I carry around plain Cheerios in a small tupperware and munch all day... just before bed, before I get out of bed, in my car to and from work, and randomly throughout the day if needed, unless I have a better snack on hand.
@samsonator & @faith_2911 That resonates with me as well. I used to be quiet and not speak my mind at work and decided when I began working in my new firm that I would speak up and bring all my ideas to the table. I feel like my fear began when I was the youngest, by far, for years at the first firm I worked at. Then the next firm didn't take any of my ideas and I was never going to get anywhere. And now my boss asks for my input and I speak up at meetings, even if it's not a popular opinion. When working with clients it's important to see things from different perspectives so I don't hold anything back anymore.
I'm sorry I really want to reply to everyone, but my brain just can't.
Dating 4/2008
Married 6/2016
TTC #1 9/2019
BFP 12/13/2019!
EDD 8/27/2020 Baby Girl
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding out
Baby is the size of a Lime
Upcoming appointments: 2/6 - u/s
How are you feeling? Back to normal for the most part. Still tired but I have two kids and work full time so that's not new. At least I'm not totally exhausted anymore.
Rant: I'm the algebra 1 team leader at my high school. All year I've written every lesson plan, made every graphic organizer, presentation, activity, etc. It's gotten to where, when I email things out or share things with them I get no response, not a thank you, or this looks good... Nothing. It takes me 1-2 hours to make these activities whereas it takes them two seconds to hit reply, type thank you, and hit send. I'm not asking for much. Just a little appreciation...
Raves: I'm loving our cloth diaper thread. It's so awesome. Also, I feel like the board is very well organized so thank you to the ladies who put the upfront effort to get it this way. I'm so glad I found this community.
Questions: how long does it take to get NIPT results?
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? I used to have really bad anxiety attacks. I worked hard to identify what was triggering them and learned to avoid them. Occasionally I'll feel one coming on but I can usually find a way to prevent it now.
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding out!
Baby is the size of a(n): Strawberry
Upcoming appointments: sequential screening 2/5
How are you feeling? Honestly - terrible! My first pregnancy with DS was super smooth and I felt great the whole time, physically and emotionally. Thought it would be the same this time - hah! I have been super nauseous (now on meds), exhausted, and grouchy/sad. Goes to show that every pregnancy is different. I have not been a treat to be around lately, but I hope that changes in the second trimester.
Raves/Rants: I wish winter would end (in the NE here), because the gloom isn't helping my mood!
Questions: For the working moms out there, when are you telling your boss? I'm still trying to figure out the best time.
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? I was actually very scared of labor and birth before I had DS! Turns out it wasn't so scary, and I had just built it up in my mind.
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Finding out (at anatomy scan)
Babies are the size of: Strawberries
Upcoming appointments: 2/10 NT scan, bloodwork?
How are you feeling? Finally feeling a little bit more like myself but the nausea and exhaustion are hard to manage thats for sure. I had no symptoms with DD so this is all new to me. So strange!
Raves/Rants: DD (2 years old) has been in the GREATEST mood this week. She is so hit or miss at this age!
Questions: None right now!
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? I have a lot of anxiety and fear regarding bumble bees and death. I have not conquered either. But working on it! I do better managing my fear of death. The bees always make me panic haha
@buhundbae I plan to tell my bosses officially at 12 weeks.
@buhundbae I told my boss at 9 weeks, which is early, but I needed to ask for support for a few upcoming things (I'm an event planner and had an event coming up where I would need to move a TON of boxes solo through snow and ice... no thank you, I wanted some help
@jwhite3116 I got mine back after exactly one week
EDD/weeks+days: 8/7; 12w, 5 days
Team Finding Out/Pink/Blue/Green: Blue
Baby is the size of a(n) as tall as: a tennis ball
Upcoming appointments: 2/26; It feels sooo far away, but I had an appointment yesterday and got to hear the heartbeat so going to try to just relax and enjoy the next few weeks and trust that everything is happening as it should.
How are you feeling? Overall pretty good! Got sick for the first time in a while earlier this week (and right before I boarded a plane), but other than that symptoms seem to be tampering off and I feel like my energy levels might be improving.
Raves/Rants: Rant: I'm traveling a little too much for my liking right now (mostly work, but some fun, personal trips thrown in too). I think I really need a solid two weeks at home so that I can get back into a routine and eat food that I make v. constantly eating out (either b/c I'm traveling or b/c I just got home and nothing is in the fridge). Rave: I got a pregnancy pillow last week and I'm in love. I've also been using it on the couch (my couch is really deep) and it's helped relieve some pressure I was experiencing. I also got to meet my doctor for the first time this week and I really connected with her. I see an NP for all my gyn care, but she doesn't do deliveries, so I'll start alternating visits between her and a doctor in the practice. However, the hospital I'll deliver at has a midwife program, so at the moment my plan is to use a midwife for the birth (plus a doula that I've already hired).
Questions: Anyone else using a pregnancy pillow yet? I don't *need* to be using one right now, but I'm enjoying having it either way. For those nearing the end of the first trimester, are you going to doing anything to celebrate/mark the transition?
GTKY: What is something that you have feared or had anxiety over that you have conquered? Hmm... I have a lot of general anxiety that flares up in my most intimate relationships, but I've been in therapy for a while and while I sometimes get frustrated with myself, if I pause and look back at far I've come I can see the ways that I've really learned to manage it.
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@emiliadkay Thanks! Yes, it's so hard for me to imagine having energy again, but I hope we do soon! Thankfully, the nausea does usually subside once I eat. But I do find that the longer I go without eating, the more trouble it gives me. Tonight I ate a snack when I got home, but then I took a nap for a couple hours before eating dinner. I found that it not only made my nausea stronger, but also my food aversions worse than usual, so eating dinner was more difficult. I think your husband's response is clever! I understand your feeling of not being 100% honest, but I also think you're ultimately doing your MIL a favor by waiting to tell her in a more special way.
hubs: 26
ttc #1: 4/19
dx: PCOS