It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status:
How are things going?
What is something that you are struggling with this week?
What is going well for you this week?
R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY: Share your punniest meme, gif, T-shirt, etc.
Re: TTCAL Week of 12/9-12/15/19
Status: just finished AF
How are things going? Just reminded a lot of our loss and trials recently which stinks, but trying to focus and have gratitude for the good things in life!
What is something that you are struggling with this week? We decided to TTC last January and I didn't even get a cycle until March to start trying.. realizing that we pulled the trigger almost a year ago is such a gross feeling to me as a "loss of time with no result"
What is going well for you this week? Starting to get all my Christmas gifts handled and ordered and delivered
R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results? getting karyotype testing done tomorrow as well as my hopefully last beta
DS born 9.17
TFMR 10.19
number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 4 losses (all info is in my siggy)
Status: Benched
How are things going? Meh. I am in a crap place. I am better than last week, but I just cant seem to shake the feeling that the testing will not show anything and we will be stuck in limbo.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? See above. I have been diving deep into Dr. Google, and trying to find anything at all that I might be able to be tested for, to give some sort of answers for my RPL.
What is going well for you this week? 8 days of teaching left. I am out on Thursday, to go Christmas shopping with DH. I need some us time with him. This month has been shitty.
R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope. Just waiting for my results to come back.
GTKY: Share your punniest meme, gif, T-shirt, etc.
Married: 7/21/12
BFP: 12/4/16 Due 8/8/17 -- Its a boy! Born 8/14/17
BFP: 5/19/19 and MC on 5/27/19
BFP: 6/24/19, MC on 7/24/19
BFP: 10/24, no heartbeat on 11/27, D&C 12/2
Officially diagnosed with Secondary infertility and recurrent miscarriage
IVF started Feb 2020
retrieval and PGT testing: 18 retrieved, 17 mature, 16 fertilized, 9 to blast, 8 PGT normal.
Transfer #1: June 14, 2020
DS born 9.17
TFMR 10.19
4 losses, 2 in college, 2 this year. (Jan and Oct)
Status:WFAF
How are things going? DH got the all clear from his doctor, so we are off the bench! Of course I O'd the day before he got the ok.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? My brother got married this weekend and I am just dragging after it. The good news was my dress fit after the loss in Oct, emotional eating, then... Thanksgiving. One of the other bridesmaids dress did... not... fit. But it's just been emotionally exhausting.
What is going well for you this week? We got our pellets delivered today! The guy was able to push one ton completely in the shed, so we don't have to do anything, and I have friends coming tomorrow to help us load the second ton on our front porch.
R/R? We are loosing our health insurance, so we need to go on mine - which is expensive and crappy. But - I've heard rumors that the company hubs is moving to has fertility treatment coverage, and will pay 100% of adoption costs if it comes to that.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I need to get on calling my dr about RPL. I keep hoping I will just magically get a BFP and not have to worry about it.
GTKY: Share your punniest meme, gif, T-shirt, etc.
So my brother is an English major. He writes the grocery list for his new wife in puns and/ or phonetically.
but-ah
world Peas
I just picture her going through the store every time like "what the hell does he want?"
Status: Still WFAF
How are things going? Ok I guess. Been super busy with work and Christmas shopping. Almost all done. Just a few more things for family to get.
What is is something you are struggling with this week? Still same thing as last week. My hormones. I haven’t been as emotional this week and definitely a lot less tears which is good. Just still frustrated at my HCG levels. GOD this is taking forever! I swear its going down slower and slower every week. I want to rip my hair out. The only thing I want this Christmas is for my period to come 😆 I would be sooo happy.
What is is going well for you this week? Well we got our live Christmas tree yesterday so that was fun cutting it down and setting it up and decorating it. Omg smells so good in the house
R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Had my weekly HCG blood test done today. Still in my system. was 230 last week. Today it was only 109 ugh. 😫 Why is it going down so slowly? will it ever go to zero?
GTKY: share your punniest meme, gif, t-shirt etc..
Had a miscarriage earlier this year which was incredible difficult. I'm a type 1 diabetic with hashimotos and ulcerative colitis. Neither caused my miscarriage and I'm pretty stable with everything. My blood sugar gets a little out of hand sometimes but my A1C was 6.3 the last time it was checked which is really good for me.
Status: TWW
How are things going? Okay I guess. Just doing the TWW which is taking forever
What is something that you are struggling with this week? Had a pregnancy announcement on my Facebook this week from a close friend. I'm happy for her but jealous at the same time.
What is going well for you this week? I'm officially done Christmas shopping and wrapping so that eliminates a lot of stress. We have our first party this weekend which should be fun.
R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I test next week.
GTKY: Share your punniest meme, gif, T-shirt, etc. Having a dispute with the neighbor behind me involving their lime tree. Told my husband it's putting a sour taste in my mouth. I laughed...he rolled his eyes. It was a good time.
NMC 7-8 weeks 1/17, BO at 7 weeks 6/19, CP at 5 weeks 8/19
Status: TWW / 9dpIUI
How are things going? My temp is staying up so I’m reading into that... not ready to give up, but I’m also tired of all of the blood draws and doc visits. Really hoping to be able to avoid more pills and injections.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? The weather is so depressing. It also makes my already long commute longer.
What is going well for you this week? It’s going fast.
R/R? I can’t wait until the winter solstice so we can start gaining minutes of daylight again.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Beta next week
GTKY: Share your punniest meme, gif, T-shirt, etc.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
@mindyb2019 I’m sorry your HCG is taking so long to drop. My hair falls out a lot when mine drops. I swear my pony tail is 1/3 the thickness it used to be.
@the_road_to_oz I really hope your new insurance covers what you need. I think about 90% of people who like puns are teachers. lol
@littlebug2010 Hope these weeks go fast for you! We have 13 days to go!!!
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
Married: 7/21/12
BFP: 12/4/16 Due 8/8/17 -- Its a boy! Born 8/14/17
BFP: 5/19/19 and MC on 5/27/19
BFP: 6/24/19, MC on 7/24/19
BFP: 10/24, no heartbeat on 11/27, D&C 12/2
Officially diagnosed with Secondary infertility and recurrent miscarriage
IVF started Feb 2020
retrieval and PGT testing: 18 retrieved, 17 mature, 16 fertilized, 9 to blast, 8 PGT normal.
Transfer #1: June 14, 2020
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
MC at 7 weeks in 1/19 & at 5 weeks (CP) in 8/19
Status: WTO
How are things going? Not great. Got a BFN over the weekend and then AF showed yesterday morning.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? The fact that we are going to go through Christmas (and my original BFP date) knowing that this cycle was a bust! MH and I were both so hopeful this last cycle...but we just have to move forward and hope for the best this cycle! Although I’m going to try my hardest not to get my hopes up and just let it be, whatever the outcome is!
What is going well for you this week? I have gotten about as close as possible to getting rid of social media...deleted everything except FB and only kept family & very close friends on there! Hoping it will help with avoiding triggers...and also not be as much of a time-waster!
R/R? I love Christmas...but I feel like there is a black cloud hanging over it this year! I will try my best to be joyful though! Since our families knows nothing about our journey, I feel like we have to be!
Any testing coming up/any recent results? None.
GTKY: Share your punniest meme, gif, T-shirt, etc.
@flinstone-2 ugh, milestones are so hard! Sending positive vibes your way! Glad you are almost finished with Christmas gifts...I really need to get on that!
@littlebug2010 I’m so sorry for everything you have been through...this all sucks so bad! I hope you enjoy your day off with YH on Thursday!!
@the_road_to_oz yay for YH getting the all clear...that definitely stinks it was the day after O! Hopefully you got in one time though! I hope YH’s new insurance covers fertility treatment (and adoption if you go that route). That’s so funny your brother writes the grocery list like that!
@mindyb2019 great job on almost having your Christmas shopping complete, and on decorating your tree! Sorry your HCG still isn’t to zero, but it sounds like it’s making good progress! Hopefully it’ll be to zero very soon!
@ayycatie so sorry for your loss! That’s good your health conditions are well controlled! Enjoy your Christmas party this weekend! Man, all of you with your Christmas shopping complete are making me feel bad! Haha.
@NYTino24 I’m so hopeful this is your cycle!! Everything crossed for you!! Yes, I can’t wait for the days to get longer either...I hate that it’s dark shortly after we get home from work!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. Early miscarriage at 5 week December '18, CP July '19
Status: TWW
How are things going? It goes back and forth. I got my u/s results in the portal yesterday and I had 2 good follicles at the time of the trigger shot. Crossing everything that we had good timing. Of course now is the point where I panic at every little twinge I feel, thinking it's a sign AF is around the corner.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? The first anniversary of our first loss is next week and I am having a tough time accepting that it's been a year and we're still waiting for our rainbow. We also have no answers as to why I lost both babies or why we're having trouble getting pregnant. My 38th birthday is in less than 2 weeks and I definitely feel like this is just never going to happen for us. The unfairness of it all is making me bitter. I feel like I am being punished. I know that is ridiculous, but I can't help but feel that way sometimes.
What is going well for you this week? The fact that I have shared with family about our losses is making me dread Christmas a little less. I know they will be sensitive and not make comments. I'm chipping away at Christmas shopping, too. I wish DH would be more helpful, I don't like that all the gift-choosing falls on me.
R/R? My SIL called me last week to see how we are doing. I was very surprised because we aren't close. But it was nice to know that she cares and understands. On the flip side, lots of my students have colds and I do NOT want to have to sit out the holidays.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope. If I make it to the middle of next week without CD1, I'll call and schedule my betas.
GTKY: Share your punniest meme, gif, T-shirt, etc.
@littlebug2010 hugs to you, as well. It's so frustrating to go through RPL testing. On the one hand, you want answers but it's also scary to think that there could be something wrong that can't be fixed. Hope those teaching days go by fast! I am right there in the teaching trenches with you. 💚
@the_road_to_oz I hope those rumors about better health insurance are true. We would not be able to go through any IF treatment if it weren't for DH's insurance.
@mindyb2019 I am so sorry for the frustration with your HCG levels. I hope you get what you want for Christmas (weird to be wishing for AF, huh?).
@ayycatie way to go on the Christmas shopping!
@NYTino24 FX so hard that your high temps are a good sign!! Mine have been stuck at 97.73 for 3 days. WTF is that about? LoL
@bluetickgal good call on getting rid of a lot of social media. I hope that gives you the peace you need. 💚
@bluetickgal I feel you. I’ve unfollowed so many people and hidden so many posts lately. Do what you need to do to stay sane.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
DS born 9.17
TFMR 10.19
Married: 7/21/12
BFP: 12/4/16 Due 8/8/17 -- Its a boy! Born 8/14/17
BFP: 5/19/19 and MC on 5/27/19
BFP: 6/24/19, MC on 7/24/19
BFP: 10/24, no heartbeat on 11/27, D&C 12/2
Officially diagnosed with Secondary infertility and recurrent miscarriage
IVF started Feb 2020
retrieval and PGT testing: 18 retrieved, 17 mature, 16 fertilized, 9 to blast, 8 PGT normal.
Transfer #1: June 14, 2020
DS born 9.17
TFMR 10.19
I just suffered a loss this evening so I'm sorry if this whole thing seems ranty and dramatic..
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. CPs in October and just now
Status: Just started bleeding a few days after BFP
How are things going? Pretty badly. I got a BFP a few days ago, and disappeared from this board, but was too scared to join the Aug BMB. Probably the right move since now I'm out. I'm so mad at myself because I was refusing to let myself get excited but for whatever reason today I started feeling hopeful. I convinced myself I was nauseated this morning and my boobs were sore and since tomorrow was CD 35 I was going to test again and see a blazing BFP... then I went to the bathroom and blood. I just don't know what to do with myself.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? loss.
What is going well for you this week? I guess I can drink at the holiday parties now...not really much comfort
R/R? I work in the medical field and there are constantly people around me who accidentally got pregnant despite doing all the "bad for fertility" things, and here I am white knuckling it through no coffee and I can't make a baby stick ETA: this sounds super bratty and I’m sorry I wrote it plenty of people are doing far more than me to have a child, it just hurts so badly to see pregnant women when I’m having a loss...
Any testing coming up/any recent results? The first CP I didn't go in to see the OB because it was so early, they just said let it pass. But I'm going to call Monday and make an appointment to discuss how to go forward...
Sorry, posted in the wrong spot. *Edited to put in spoiler to remove without doing the dirty deleting thing*.
R/R? Ditto on waiting for winter solstice. This waking up in darkness and driving home from work in darkness is not helping my mood. Any testing coming up/any recent results? None
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Thank you. I'm having a pretty rough time, and DH is still away and actually unreachable at the moment so he doesn't know. I had a good cry on the phone with a friend which was nice, but it's going to be a long week alone until I go home for the holidays. I'm trying to get something set up for early January when I return since the fancy insurance I selected before my first loss will mean if there are any tests to run, they should be covered. Plus anything I have control over right now feels better than all the stuff I don't...
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 4 losses, CP 2/19, MC 5/19, MC 8/19, EP 11/19
Status: benched until April (for emotions' sake)
How are things going? Bleh. I hate that we are benched until April. MH wants to wait until then because he has some big work stuff at the end of March and wants to be available for me in case something goes bad again, which I appreciate and completely understand... But it still sucks. I'm pissed that our 2nd due date is on Christmas Eve and I literally have LESS than what I started this TTC journey with a year ago. Now that I've only got 1 tube, our chances go down by 50%. I'm mad and confused and... Ugh. I'm sorry for this rant. Im just so tired of it all.
What is something that you are struggling with this week? My brother is living with us while he works on getting a job (just moved here from out of state, not a lazy bum), which has really complicated the whole DTD thing. It's caused MH and I to argue because I'm uncomfortable DTD when my brother is around (our place is not that big and the walls are thin), without properly planning and timing it. MH was offended when I rejected his spur of the moment proposition last night and I feel like a jerk but I also felt so uncomfortable knowing my brother was in the other room waiting for me to come back because we made plans to play a game together. I just... UGH!
What is going well for you this week? I had 5-6 students absent this week due to vacations or illnesses and it was delightfully quiet in my classroom.
R/R? I've ranted enough. Now I need to simmer down. I just need to rave about you ladies. You're all amazing and such a great support. I was planning to wait to come back until April but I found myself constantly on here keeping up on your journeys and realized I still want to be a part of this community even if we're benched. Thanks for being so wonderful.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Got an endometriosis diagnosis. Started BC to help minimize scarring.
GTKY: Share your punniest meme, gif, T-shirt, etc. I still can't figure out how to add GIFs on mobile...
@mama_mea I am so sorry for you approaching empty due date and the awkwardness of having your brother around. I empathize so much with not wanting to be benched but also wanting to assure support in case of loss. I don’t think I fully processed how much worse it would be to go through alone.
It's a pretty simple blood test, and some local testing clinics will just let you come in and pay for the test out of pocket without a prescription.
I've never paid for it out of pocket but I believe it's a reasonable price. You might want to check into it just for a baseline and sake of sanity check- I'm not a doctor obviously so take my words at your own risk 🙂 good luck ♡