**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage/spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and/or stillbirth may be mentioned.**
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status:
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY: What's your favorite "fall" treat (apple cider, pumpkin bread, etc.)?
Re: TTCAL w/o September 9
NMC 1/17, BO 6/19, CP 8/19
Found an old test that somehow got left in the half bathroom. Thanks for the reminder, life! Pharmacy also sent a progesterone refill reminder from last cycle. Luckily I’m about to ovulate the earliest I’ve ever ovulated with a nice follicle, so I’m focused on now.
hot apple cider
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
@NYTino24 Sorry for those reminders, they can sneak up on you. Hoping for great results from your tests and yay for ovulating!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
2 MMC's, 2/19 and 6/19
Status: WFFET
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Well I got my first AF since the ER over the weekend. I'm glad it came so I can move forward but omg it's so bad. So heavy and so much cramps. I barely slept last night was up like every 2 hours to change pads. I am so tired today.
But I emailed my nurse first thing, cause I am hoping to get my Saline Sonogram scheduled now. Trying to get all my ducks in a row for my FET.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Still waiting on PGS results and Saline Sono
GTKY: What's your favorite "fall" treat (apple cider, pumpkin bread, etc.)?
Apple cider donuts straight from the farm with hot apple cider!
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
@hanshotfirst77 I hope you can get the saline sonogram scheduled ASAP. Keep us posted.
Both of you have me craving apple cider, though I had my first hot chocolate of the season last night and it was gooooood.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: Early loss in May 2019
Status: WFAF to full show up
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
I was so hopeful for this cycle. Our timing was awesome. The “signs” I made up in my head were perfect. And now I’m just here, mad. Annoyed. Impatient because I keep thinking about how I should be nearing the 20 week mark. I’ll wallow today and move on tomorrow.
At the same time I’m very thankful I have this group to vent to. You all have had these same thoughts and feelings. And it’s nice to be able to share somewhere. Of course I wish none of us were here. But I am thankful for it 💗
Any testing coming up/any recent results? None
GTKY: What's your favorite "fall" treat (apple cider, pumpkin bread, etc.)? Anything Apple. Yum.
@NYTino24 Ugh, sorry for those reminders. I’m hopeful for you nice little follicle you have growing! Hoping this is your take home baby in there!
@hanshotfirst77 Sorry your period was so awful and intense. Hope you’re feeling better today. Fingers crossed you get your saline sono scheduled ASAP.
@litigatorgal Hope your week goes well! Good luck with your trial!
AFM I did get my Saline Sono scheduled for Friday afternoon. Hopefully AF will have left the building by then.
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. Early MC (5 weeks) December '18. CP July '19
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I was doing well this TWW until I left concert rehearsal tonight. *TW PG, LC*
What's going well is I am happy that I get to do some kind of performing right now. I don't think I can commit to this theatre's holiday show this year, so I feel fortunate that they asked me to participate in this.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Betas on Friday but since I don't really feel any consistent symptoms, PMS or otherwise, my gut says it's not going to be good news. TBH, I am dreading it.
GTKY: What's your favorite "fall" treat (apple cider, pumpkin bread, etc.)? Warm apple cider donuts FTW! I haven't had them in years, though. A local restaurant has a spiked apple cider martini that is amazing, too.
@hanshotfirst77 I'm sorry AF is such a witch right now. FX for good sono results!
@tyrion_ so many hugs to you right now. This rollercoaster sucks so, so much. 💜
@litigatorgal good luck with your trial!
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
I see you. You are a mother and one day you will have that rainbow baby!!!
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
MC at 7 weeks in 1/19 & at 5 weeks in 8/19
Status: Benched
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Doing pretty well...finished Prometrium last Thursday, so just waiting for AF so we can get this show on the road! I’m feeling optimistic & excited to hopefully start trying again (as long as all is good with the SHG)!
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
Just waiting on karyotyping results...hoping to get them in the next week or so. Will schedule SHG soon hopefully!
GTKY: What's your favorite "fall" treat (apple cider, pumpkin bread, etc.)?
I’m more of a pumpkin than apple girl! Give me pumpkin bread/muffins any day! I do like PSL’s too, but I’m good with just a few each year and then I’ve had my fill.
@nytino24 so sorry for the unexpected triggers!! 💜 Yay for ovulating!! Hope you got good results!! Saw them on IF thread, but don’t really know how to interpret the numbers.
@hanshotfirst77 sorry AF is so brutal!! Hope you are feeling much better today! Glad you got your saline scheduled!! Oh, I’ve had apple donuts from an orchard before...they are so good!!
@litigatorgal oh, hot chocolate is always a good option! Hope your trial is going well!
@tyrion_ sorry for all the feelings right now!! Sending hugs!! 💜 Hope you are feeling better today! I second what you said...I hate that any of us have to be here, but I’m so thankful for you all...because you get it!
@emeraldduchess so sorry your escape was triggering...that definitely stinks!! Sending hugs! 💜 Also sorry you are dreading betas..I’ve still got a good feeling and my fingers crossed for you!!
@bluetickgal hope the karyotyping results are good!
@nytino24 Your comments really resonated with me. I see you.
@hanshotfirst77 how was the saline?
@tyrion_ I'm grateful for you, too
@emeraldduchess it's the pits when you look forward to an escape and it's... not what you need. Blerg.
I'm on a one-day trial break to mediate a totally different case and hopefully avoid a trial in October. I'll drive back down to our trial city tonight after work. Gotta get me some hot chocolate and download some podcasts for the trip!
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
*Edited to add more words/clarification.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Two CPs Nov. 2018 and July 2019
Status: WTO
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Have no idea what my body is doing. AF started on day 22 but was so light I wasn't sure if it was happening or not. It normally starts on day 24-28, but I was travelling so thought maybe that was why things were different. My period app is now messed up and I have no idea when to expect O. Holidays messed up my sleep. Haven't been able to temp consistantly and am a little frustrated this cycle is being wasted.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?Not yet.
GTKY: What's your favorite "fall" treat (apple cider, pumpkin bread, etc.)?
Pumpkin everything! As long as its made correctly.
Will come back in a bit to tag. Still getting things unpacked from my trip and trying to get back into the normal.
I hope AF comes soon for you so you can get the SHG done! Thank you I am excited to move forward. I'm slightly worried my SHG will be abnormal though. I had one done prior to my egg retrieval and my RE thinks something may have been off. Retained tissue or a polyp or something. So he had me proceed with the IVF but wont let me transfer until we check it out again. So I am so hoping that it all looks normal tomorrow!
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
@ottergirl81 Do you temp? That can help, but things can be off AL.
I was doing pretty well focusing on the now, but seeing checkins here and bumps / US announcements from people IRL with similar or later due dates that show gender, names, etc. have been a bit jarring this week. It’s not jealousy about actual babies, but more when people seem to have no fear about the future and seem to be able to take it for granted (for lack of a better term) that their pregnancy will continue. I never want others to know what it’s like to struggle to get / stay pregnant and have a loss or deal with the emotions of being PGAL and I guess I’m mourning that I’ll never have a peaceful pregnancy.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
AFM I am dreading my betas tomorrow. I just don't want to put myself through another blood draw and another phone call telling me it's another BFN. I miss a year ago, before my losses and IF testing, when I was excited to test.
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
@hanshotfirst77 I can totally understand that! I’ve tried to keep up with the dailies, but it’s a bit hard...especially having been benched. Thanks!! Fingers crossed & sending positive vibes that all is well with your SHG!! I’m sure that is nerve-wracking, but hopefully what they saw before was nothing and you'll get that confirmation tomorrow!
@NYTino24 thanks! Sending hugs!! 💜 I’ve thought about that too...I think it’ll be hard to relax at any point in pregnancy in the future! I wish I could have a carefree/peaceful pregnancy, but that ship has sailed! Fingers crossed none of us have to experience any further losses though and we will all have healthy pregnancies/THB’s before long!!
@emeraldduchess sending hugs and positive vibes for your betas tomorrow!! 💜
@hanshotfirst77 I was so happy to see you had two good embryos. I’m hoping with everything in me that your SHG comes back normal and you can move forward with IVF. When is it happening?
@nytino24 Sending big creepy internet hugs to you. I’m so sorry you’re having these feelings and even more sorry you’ve had to endure what you have to have gotten here.
@emeraldduchess I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow. I wish we could all go back to ignorance is bliss. I really hope things turn out different than you’re expecting tomorrow 💗
You ladies are the best. 💚 you all.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
Have a great weekend, I will be back soon!
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility