Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
madamedudley
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Going from relief to sadness
madamedudley
member
Hi all,
I guess I just want to share my story. I had a natural MC a couple weeks ago. I found out i was pregnant in June and everything was going well until the end of the month. I started having some slight spotting. My doctor had me go in every couple days for lab work, my levels were not progressing as they should. I had my first ultrasound and just saw an empty sac (blighted ovum). I would have been about 8 weeks along. My doctor discussed the options of D/C, cytotec or just waiting. I opted to wait. It was weeks of being on a rollercpoaster- going in for labs, not knowing, waiting and hoping that maybe the scan was just wrong or too early. Then it started. The pain was terrible, lasted about one full day. Then it was over.
My husband, parents, and best friend were so supportive. I felt relief for it to be over honestly at first. It was my first pregnancy and my first loss. I got pregnant relatively quickly. I was so optimistic about moving on and trying again.
Lately though, I've been feeling sad. I work in a women's clinic and work with pregnant women regularly. I feel guilty, because I think sometimes I'm jealous of these women with healthy pregnancies (of course, I would want nothing but that for them). I know my husband has moved on, but I feel like I'm just starting to feel the loss. I feel guilty talking about it though.
I know there are so many women with far more devastating experiences, and my heart aches for you all. This is hard and I hope everyone has a happy ending to their story.
I guess I just want to share my story. I had a natural MC a couple weeks ago. I found out i was pregnant in June and everything was going well until the end of the month. I started having some slight spotting. My doctor had me go in every couple days for lab work, my levels were not progressing as they should. I had my first ultrasound and just saw an empty sac (blighted ovum). I would have been about 8 weeks along. My doctor discussed the options of D/C, cytotec or just waiting. I opted to wait. It was weeks of being on a rollercpoaster- going in for labs, not knowing, waiting and hoping that maybe the scan was just wrong or too early. Then it started. The pain was terrible, lasted about one full day. Then it was over.
My husband, parents, and best friend were so supportive. I felt relief for it to be over honestly at first. It was my first pregnancy and my first loss. I got pregnant relatively quickly. I was so optimistic about moving on and trying again.
Lately though, I've been feeling sad. I work in a women's clinic and work with pregnant women regularly. I feel guilty, because I think sometimes I'm jealous of these women with healthy pregnancies (of course, I would want nothing but that for them). I know my husband has moved on, but I feel like I'm just starting to feel the loss. I feel guilty talking about it though.
I know there are so many women with far more devastating experiences, and my heart aches for you all. This is hard and I hope everyone has a happy ending to their story.
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