**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage/spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and/or stillbirth may be mentioned.**
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status:
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY: What's your favorite thing about September?
Re: TTCAL w/o 9.2
9DPO, CD 26
Waiting to 9/9 to test (willpower needed, please send extra if you have any)
Struggling with everything this week. Unfortunately, in the middle of an incredibly hectic work situation (still trying to get caught up after I back-burnered a lot of projects after my MC last month, about ot be out of town for three weeks on a work thing) our dog got very sick, and despite everything we tried to do, we could not save her. We said goodbye yesterday, and it was f*cking devastating. I have barely been able to stop crying, and haven't slept, and I have to be at work today. On our way to the vet hospital to say goodbye to her, as we were pulling out of the driveway, this couple walked up our street with their dog and baby, looking so happy. I really thought I would have that life, and it just crushed me to see it as I was trying to deal with both losses. I also keep thinking that the stress and exhaustion of this might make me MC again, if I did manage to get KU this cycle, and that sucks.
No R/R for me this week.
My favorite thing about September is the gorgeous weather in Oregon. I hope you all are enjoying this lovely space between summer and fall, and that everyone is having a better Labor Day than I am.
I feel so overwhelmed right now.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. Early miscarriage at 5 weeks Dec. '18, CP July '19
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? The usual TWW emotional rollercoaster. Back to school today, so hopefully that will be a good distraction for a while. I find a lot of comfort in routine. I'm relieved that FW was last week because the first two weeks of school are exhausting and DH and I would NOT be in the mood to HIO!
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Just betas next week.
GTKY: What's your favorite thing about September? Anything apple-cider flavored!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. MC 6/2016, CP 1/2019, MMC 6/2019
Status: WTO
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I'm feeling pretty good at the moment. I think I've officially had a period and am hoping to ovulate this cycle. I dont expect that it will happen when it normally does but I'm just so excited to get back to TTC and not be in limbo.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY: What's your favorite thing about September? Our anniversary is in September! We usually try and do something fun. This year we are going to Vegas. I also just love the cooler weather and the smell of fall on it's way.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 2 MMC's 2/19 and 6/19
Status: Mid-IVF
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
I'm just super nervous about my IVF results. On pins and needles waiting on my next update.
Also kind of on the struggle bus now that its September. My first would be due date is coming up in less than 2 weeks. and just so happens to be right before my own birthday so it's a lot of mixed feels. And I really just thought I'd be pregnant by now and im not.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Should have my 7 day embryo report today and then PGS in 2 weeks!
GTKY: What's your favorite thing about September?
Probably my birthday lol! Also love all things apple cider!
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
@emeraldduchess Big hugs to you too friend Fx for your betas!
@dumbledoredies Yay for getting your period and getting back in the TTC game!
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
@dumbledoredies I am glad you're through that part and can start again. Good luck!
@emeraldduchess I find comfort in routine, too. I hope that the rhythm of the school year is helpful and things go well!
I'm 10DPO, not testing, and trying to think about other things. It's hard to tell if I'm nauseated or crampy, because I just feel so awful across the board, so I'm not sure if I have any early symptoms. I caved last night and took a benadryl because I hadn't slept more than an hour or two in a few days and I badly needed it. I feel a little guilty, but hopefully that won't make a difference.
@hanshotfirst77 happy birthday month to you! I know how you feel approaching your would-be due date without being KU. I was convinced I would be by my EDD in August and I wasn't. *TW* It was particularly hard because I have several friends and family members who had losses but got KU with their rainbow babies within three months. I assumed it would happen for me too. Nope. *End TW* Lots of hugs.
@dumbledoredies glad you can get back on the TTC train!
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
MC at 7 weeks in 1/19 & at 5 weeks in 8/19
Status: Benched
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Last Friday was our first would be due date, and it was a struggle. Work helped to keep my mind off of it, but then the grad announcement on that day got to me (even though I am so happy for her and everyone else that is moving on to May...it’s just that it happened on that day that got to me)! Talked to DH about it and how I was feeling...he got me some flowers, which definitely made me smile! He is trying to stay positive and look towards the future, but it’s hard for me not to think about what could/would have been! I do feel good about the path we are on with the RE though! On another note, I had my annual gyn appt today (I see a midwife), so that was “fun” being around *TW lots of pregnant women & babies in the waiting room! End TW*
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
Waiting for karyotyping results and to schedule SHG when my cycle starts.
GTKY: What's your favorite thing about September? That it’s the start of Fall, which is my favorite! Never would have said this growing up, but I also like watching Football, which usually starts in September.
@emeraldduchess hope you had a great first day back!! That’s nice you started out with a short week! Good for teachers and kids that way I’m sure!
@dumbledoredies that’s great you had your period and can move forward with this next cycle now!
@hanshotfirst77 I’m so glad you got good news today! So sorry for your upcoming would be due date, it’s definitely hard! I completely get the thinking you would be KU by then, I had those same thoughts & then disappointment. You are so close with IVF though, and that is incredibly exciting (I’m trying to be like MH and look towards the future)!
@bluetickgal I know it’s tough being around all of those bellies and babies. Hope your appointment went well. Yay for flowers! If it makes you feel any better, I got hit with 5 announcements IRL in one day a couple of days ago.
@hanshotfirst77 I read your IVF news and it’s awesome! I hope you have a good birthday knowing you’ve got some great embryos waiting for you.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
@NYTino24 Thank you! Having a plan and next steps always helps comfort me a little, I am really trying to believe that at least one of those embryos will lead to a THB, positive thoughts!
I'd like some opinions on something. I have been wanting to get something to remember my two babies I lost this year and I think I want to get birthstone rings for them. Would you get the birthstone of the month they should have been born or the month where you lost them?
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
@hanshotfirst77 I agree with others to commemorate something more associated with life, like the due date or the BFP date, to focus on the hope and joy aspect and allow that reminder to carry you through the sadness of loss. The thing about loss is that we don't need a reminder; I remember the loss all the time. I think a commemoration is most helpful when it balances those constant sad memories with the more hopeful ones.
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
BLerg.
I suppose I am grateful that I can stop dodging my boss's invitations for post-court wine and sushi. And I am grateful that when I get back home tonight I can have cocktails. I would like all the cocktails, please.
How you are you guys doing? It's Friday. Hopefully someone is going to have a fantastic weekend and I live vicariously through you!
@emeraldduchess how was your first week? Hope you aren’t too wiped out!
@dumbledoredies I’m glad you’re finally out of limbo! Happy for you. When’s your anniversary? Vegas will be so fun for you guys! You deserve a fun time.
@bluetickgal I’m sorry for having to be around a literal room full of pregnant people right after such a hard anniversary. Big hugs to you.
@hanshotfirst77 So happy for your great news!
Edit: formatting and random spoilers removed. I’m so bad at this.
@tyrion_ thanks lady! It was tough, but hopefully I’ll be in that room for another reason before long!
@bluetickgal Hope you have a nice visit with parents. I am enjoying a not-pregnant feast this weekend, including cocktails and eggs with runny yolks and sushi!
Hope everyone is having an ok weekend!
@litigatorgal omg!! Soooo cute. 😍 aww hello Shirley. She’s so sweet. I love kittens.