FFFC 7/19

Re: FFFC 7/19

• marebear15 member

  July 2019

  I never really bonded with DD until she started to react to my presence with eye contact and smiles. At times it made me feel like a horrible mother because I didn't feel sad when she got her shots or sad when I left her at daycare. But for the first few weeks/months, I just felt like I was going through the motions because it was my duty, not because I loved her.
  
  PSA: This is a classic sign of PPD and while I never sought professional help, I did talk through my emotions and was very open with DH and my mother, and both of them helped me to get sleep and time to myself when I needed it. 

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• FyreFlyeRush member

  July 2019

  @marebear15, I'm sorry you experienced that, and I'm glad you were able to to work through it. It sounds like you had an excellent support system, and that's really important. Also, talking about it here helps normalize it and make less women feel bad for not loving every aspect of being a mom...or pregnant. 
  
  Which, brings me to mine...I want my baby. I'm taking care of myself (mostly...I like sugar and salt). I'm doing all the right stuff. But, I can't bring myself to get excited or attached to my pregnancy or plan for the future. I'm somewhat in denial, as stupid as that sounds. And, there's things I'm really not looking forward to...diapers, crying, sleepless nights, potty training, terrible twos...and threes...breastfeeding for years on end (because I feel guilty for not allowing them to self-ween). AND...I don't want to go to my MFM appointment today for the NT scan. I'm terrified of the ultrasound machine and I kinda just don't want to know. Being 42 and knocked up sucks sometimes.

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• persnickity member

  July 2019

  @marebear15 Thank you for being brave enough to share that. It happens more than most of us think. It can be hard to bond in the early days.
  
  I hated maternity leave at first and couldn't wait to get back to work. Luckily, I was able to start working part time from 3 weeks on. I wasn't prepared for the lack of mental stimulation. I bonded and sobbed when she went to daycare, but was thrilled to be back to work.
  
  @FyreFlyeRush I didn't bond to the pregnancy until I found out the sex. I didn't want to plan for the future or share I was pregnant. So far, it's the same this time. I'm happy to be pregnant, but I'm dreading the sleepless nights and pumping.

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• jaceru member

  July 2019

  @FyreFlyeRush I am also feeling weird about this pregnancy. For some reason I still don't feel like its real even though I am almost 16 weeks. This is for sure a very wanted baby, but I am also not planning or excited to tell people. 
  
  My FFFC is that I have let my 3 year old watch pretty much all the harry potter movies. She doesn't seem phased by scary things and loves them 

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• FyreFlyeRush member

  July 2019

  @jaceru, my son is 7 now, but when he was 3, he started watching The Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit!!!

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