**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage/spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and/or stillbirth may be mentioned.**
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status:
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY: On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest & 10 the highest, rate you AND your SO’s driving skills. (Feel free to explain why you’ve scored things how you score them if you’d like.) 🚦🚙⛽️
Re: TTCAL w/o 7/1/19
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
BO at 10 weeks 4/19
Status: TWW and going BSC
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
SS in the TWW is the worst. I have some eerily similar things happening symptom-wise that happened the cycle I got my BFP, but it’s later in my cycle, so I keep thinking I’m KU even though I’m probably not thanks, Dr. Google. FF even started feeding the crazy today.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? HPT this weekend probably. Expecting AF a week from today.
GTKY: On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest & 10 the highest, rate you AND your SO’s driving skills. (Feel free to explain why you’ve scored things how you score them if you’d like.) 🚦🚙⛽️
Though he would say otherwise (apparently me getting a ticket the summer before our wedding makes me a terrible driver...), he’s an 8 (he gets distracted easily and is stubborn about driving no matter how tired he is) and I’m probably an 8 as well (shiny objects... 🤷🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️). Though neither of us have been in an accident, speeding tickets only.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
7 week loss 8/2016 and 7 week loss 5/2019
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Things are going. We just entered our 14th month TTC. The past couple weeks have been a little rough for me. We went to Europe with my family and the trip was aaaamazing, but I kept thinking “I should be pregnant now. This is when we planned on announcing. I shouldn’t be able to drink this wine.” And, in my family, only my parents and my older sister know about our losses and my pregnant SIL was a pregnant diva in Europe so it definitely annoyed me more than normal.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? When I get my period, I’ll have to schedule my hysteroscopy and then we’ll decide next treatment from that.
GTKY: On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest & 10 the highest, rate you AND your SO’s driving skills. (Feel free to explain why you’ve scored things how you score them if you’d like.)
I’d say we’re both 8’s. DH kind of drives like a grandpa but also almost follows the road rules tooooo much and gets mad at other drivers. DH probably would rate me at a 6 because he thinks that I get too distracted... but I’ve never had an accident or ticket so I’m obviously doing something right!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. MMC in Nov '18
Status: WTO
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? This last week was nuts. We went down for MH's cousin's services on Thursday and came home Saturday. It was so incredibly sad, and I've never seen so many people at a wake/funeral. It was heartwarming to see his family have such a huge support system, but still so heartbreaking. And of course it was right in my FW, so we missed 2 nights of HIO. And I forgot my BBT.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Started OPKs yesterday because I also forgot to pack those.
GTKY: On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest & 10 the highest, rate you AND your SO’s driving skills. (Feel free to explain why you’ve scored things how you score them if you’d like.) 🚦🚙⛽️ We're both pretty good drivers. I'm maybe like an 8, but I do occasionally do something dumb like clip the curb in my mom's car like I did this weekend. MH used to be really good, but lately seems like his driving has gotten worse. I find myself nagging him more, which I hate doing, but PLEASE pay attention to what people are doing around you, for crying out loud! I'll give him a 7. He used to be like a 9. Or maybe I'm just more naggy now, who knows.
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
@mokay19 I feel you on the should-bes right now. I should either have a newborn right now (1st loss) or should not be able to drink right now because of pregnancy (2nd loss). Instead I'll be spending my 4th of July drinking my sorrows, which always ends well, right? Hugs to you.
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
@ejoseph16 yes TWW is the worst. I keep overlaying my BFP charts on FF with this month hoping to see the similarities even though I've had 2 BFN. I keep trying to tell myself I'm testing early. But you're absolutely right. It's a rabbit hole I should try not to fall into. FX for you.
@mokay19 Glad to hear you had a good time in Europe. Sorry to hear about your diva SIL. It's hard to get rid of those I should be or what if thoughts. But I'm glad you got away and had a long awesome trip.
AFM:
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: 2 losses, 1 MMC 8/2018 & 1 MMC/D&C 2/2019
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Had a rough couple of weeks and didn't post or check the bump groups. **TW** 3 friends announced their pregnancies for their 2nd child and I am happy for them but can't help think why them and not me? I can't even have 1 and they get 2. Then I found an Amazon box in the corner of my living room and opened it only 2 realize it was the pregnancy journal and book I had ordered with my last pregnancy from 5 months ago. I broke down and cried. Trying to be positive is tough sometimes. **End TW**
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Just POAS so far 2 BFN but its early so I'm hopeful.
GTKY: On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest & 10 the highest, rate you AND your SO’s driving skills. (Feel free to explain why you’ve scored things how you score them if you’d like.) I would say I am an 8. I'm a good driver but I do speed, a lot. My SO would also be an 8 but he's much more cautious than I and I get frustrated with him because I want him to go faster but he's easily distracted.
@ejoseph16 TWW is totally the worsttttt. Solidarity.
@shamrocandroll I hope you & YH were able to get some closure at the funeral--which nights did you miss, do you know yet? I'm not sure when I O'd, so you may not be as well (I haven't checked the dailies yet today.)
@mokay19 So glad your trip was amazing! I feel you on the "this is when..."'s. I shared some of those w/ MH & he was super understanding & I was grateful to be able to talk about it. But when he's not, I know I always have yall to be understanding. ^_~* LOL that YH would rate you lower than you actually are. I'd thought we'd get more ppl willing to own up to their bad driving w/ this question, but actually of course we're all safe drivers haha.
Number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. CP Oct. 2018; MMC w/ D&C Jan./Feb. 2019
Status: Probably just ovulated yesterday/day before
What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? OKAY SO, I briefly ranted about this in WTO weekend, but I wanted to get into some of the details, so TW: PG Announcements...
Any testing coming up/any recent results? About to enter the TWW. Trying to keep it cool, ya know.
GTKY: On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest & 10 the highest, rate you AND your SO’s driving skills. (Feel free to explain why you’ve scored things how you score them if you’d like.) 🚦🚙⛽️I wrote this one bc I was starting some Monday/July threads while DH & I were driving from the airport to our home last night--it's a long drive after a long flight & it was laaattee. Anyway, I feel like I'd give us both 8's, which seems to be pretty common, but I can't tell if he should actually get a 7 bc he follows close/closer than me sometimes and has to break hard & makes me gasp. He doesn't always do that, but enough that he knows I hate it.
@kagesstarshroom Thank you. It was really really emotional and hard. I'm glad to have it behind us, but feel so terrible for his poor immediate family. We missed CD 13 & 14. I've been Oing around 17-18, so there's still a good shot, but it definitely killed my SMEP plans, so we've just been doing ED otherwise. I haven't O'd yet, but probably today or the next day. We managed to get it in on CDs 11, 12, 15, & 16 so far. I have a friend staying over tonight so will probably be up late talking, but might try to get a quick and quiet one in tonight too.
I'm so sorry the wedding was SO triggering for you! That's a lot! And really inconsiderate of them! My mom keeps talking to me about all these women from my old neighborhood growing up who are having babies/PG, and I'm so over it. I haven't talked to these people in 10+ years and I just plain do not care to hear about their showers or newborns. I'm also upset because she keeps eluding to me having another one, and I've told her about my losses, which was really hard for me, and she just doesn't seem to care. She seems to think just by not talking about it, it didn't happen. Not to mention my MIL who mentions having another one every single time I see her and I am going to snap one of these times.
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
MC/BO at 10 weeks found on 5/28, D&C 5/29.
Status: Waiting for AF
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Rave: We've got some fun plans on the horizon, a cousin/friend night at the casino one state over this weekend (among other 4th of July parties) and our big lake trip at the end of this month. Which is great to keep my mind busy.
Rant: No AF, so still just living in limbo. Wednesday will be five weeks, then just one more week and my doctor said to call and we'll do a follow up U/S and blood work to make sure that we're getting there. I just want to be back in the know really. Mostly, just feel like I'm wasting time. Which is crazy because I'm 29. But also want a sibling for my little one, she is so ready </3
Any testing coming up/any recent results? If AF shows, day 3 blood work. If she doesn't, then not sure what kind of tests to see why she isnt!
GTKY: On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest & 10 the highest, rate you AND your SO’s driving skills. (Feel free to explain why you’ve scored things how you score them if you’d like.) 🚦🚙⛽️
I'd say we're both like 7 or 8s? I can have a lead foot and be distracted, he thinks hes great which makes him not so great *eye roll* but we're both pretty darn safe for the most part!
@shamrocandroll - his poor family. It really does mean so much when so many people show up. But so hard. Missing FW days is also so hard to stay positive, you've got some good days left though!
@maserrano714 - That would be so triggering. Love that you are remaining hopeful! You will look back at those somedays and be so proud of where you've come from!
@ejoseph16 - if you don't become BSC in the TWW are you even human? So easy to do. I have wondered if I'm pregnant like even when I KNOW I can't be. Hope the rest flies by!
@mokay19 - Europe sounds amazing, but I totally get all of that. hugs!
@mokay19 I'm sorry for all the reminders. I feel that so much right now too. The I should be's are so hard
@maserrano714 I'm sorry for those announcements. You're feelings are totally valid. I feel them a lot myself. The sibling announcements are the worst for me. It's such a struggle. Hugs!
@mhamik I hope AF comes soon! The wait post loss is horrible.
@shamrocandroll I'm sorry you've been having a rough time too. That must have been hard for you guys. It sucks to miss parts of your FW but I hope you guys still were able to hit enough. Fx!
@kagesstarshroom I'm sorry the wedding was so tough for you. It sounds like quite an ordeal. And I agree I plan to do something similar if this ever works out for me re: announcements including losses. Hugs!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 2 MMC's, 2/19 and 6/19
Status: Benched
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? see spoiler below
Any testing coming up/any recent results? see spoiler below
So this is officially the never ending miscarriage. D&C was incomplete, Misoprostol failed, and then I kinda overdid it this past weekend trying to get our apt cleaned and packed and ready for the move and ended up in the ER last night for possibly hemorrhaging. It has been a long and awful experience.
Fortunately, I did not hemorrhage, but apparently I am borderline anemic. My HCG has been dropping quickly though, and is down to the 500's. I saw my RE again today and there is some good and bad news.
Bad news is the fetal tissue from my loss came back normal. And after discussing things with my RE we have no answers on my losses. I don't meet the criteria for any of the causes my RE discussed with me. Which I suppose can also be considered good as I don't want there to be something wrong with me. But it is frustrating that I miscarried for seemingly no reason. My genetic screening on me has not come back yet so still waiting on that. Also I need another D&C which will happen on Wednesday.
As for the good news. My RE is confident I can still have a healthy pregnancy. The plan is to get this second D&C over and done with, get my HCG to 0, then do a Saline Sono again. And after that start the IVF process. He is thinking I could be starting by August. We haven't worked out all the details yet but the plan is to do a egg retrieval and then either do a fresh transfer with the best embryo and then freeze the rest for testing, or Freeze all for testing and then do a FET.
I have really been struggling with the losses, and now that they seem to be for no reason. But I feel better after talking to my RE today, I think it gives me a little hope that maybe it's still possible.
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
@mhamik The first AL cycle is SO hard and all of your feelings are valid! I hope AF shows up soon and you can start fresh! Enjoy the fun events you have coming up! I hope they make time go by quickly.
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
@mhamik Glad you have something to keep your mind busy. We went to Jamaica my first cycle AL (a trip we'd originally cancelled bc... you know...) & that was really helpful. I'm rooting for yr AF to show soon! Yeah, I doubt anyone on that side of the fam knowing would have changed anything, but... a warning would have been nice? IDK, I live 1300 miles from my fam right now, so I don't see them enough for something like what I've been thru to come up casually &, well, I just had to suffer in silence. I hate that it's what so many of us here would have to do in that situation.
@shamrocandroll I am super glad that SMEP was only briefly curtailed for yall & you have a shot this cycle despite the family stuff. Stuff like that is sooooososososo hard. I can't imagine having to go thru that as even a cousin, cousin-in-law. But you made it through the rough stuff--well, re: the funeral, as your mom/mil's comments make me mad. Esp. the "not talking about it" = "it didn't happen" way of looking at it. Ummmm no.
(((TW: that wedding announcement/details about my cousin's PG again)))
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
@ejoseph16 FF’s little tidbits can be nice sometimes, and then other times I’m like GTFO with your nonsense!
@shamrocandroll again, so sorry about your family’s loss and all that stress but I’m happy to hear that it was well attended and that his immediate family seems to be receiving support in this impossible time!
@maserrano714 I hate how much I hate pregnancy announcements. Usually I’m happy for the people, but I still hate the announcement itself… basically always.
@kagesstarshroom I’m so shocked at that wedding story. I don’t know how I would have reacted. Also, that is not something that would go over well in my family since majority of my extended family is very Catholic haha. I’ve been more open about just mentioning our second loss to people. I decided that it was hurting me more trying to be secretive about it so I just talk about it when appropriate. Usually people feel uncomfortable at first, but then I think my level of comfort makes them more okay… andplusalso, IDGAF how they feel about my losses.
@mhamik ugh sorry about the waiting and limbo. Honestly, waiting is some of the worst part. I’m far too impatient and I hate not being able to actively do something!
@hanshotfirst77 I’m so sorry to hear the saga of the never-ending miscarriage. That’s so awesome that your RE thinks that you’ll be able to start IVF so soon though. Did you do IVF before or what made you decide to step to that? I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and planning and leaning toward IVF now so I’m curious other peoples steps to get there.
@kagesstarshroom I have been having such a struggle with positive thinking. I'll be honest when my RE told me about the normal embryo results I had a knee jerk reaction of wtf well thats it it will never happen for me. But as hard as it is to do sometimes, I know it's important to still believe. And try to be positive. Let's hope we both get better at that.
@mokay19 This would be my first time doing IVF. I had previously been doing medicated IUI's which
*TW* did work twice this year, but both times resulted in MMC /*TW
After my last MMC diagnosis my RE brought up doing IVF and then I really started to research it and today was our first sit down discussion about it. At first I was a little apprehensive but now I feel like I want the best chance, and IVF gives a lot more control and also the possibility of banking embryos for the future. And after discovering my insurance covers IVF the decision was much easier. The only decision I am wavering on now is whether to do PGS testing or not. Since that is not covered. But it is a big decision and not one that I think comes easy for anyone.
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
@shamrocandroll I'm sorry about your mom =/ I've always felt so lucky that no one in either of our family's has EVER pressured us, though at the same time that might be why bringing up the losses is so hard? One of the reactions I've gotten from ppl who do know is "oh, I didn't know you were trying!" and that's just not my fave reaction. I'm glad your dad has been super kind. I definitely don't want to tell my dad now after what I mentioned in today's TWW R/R. He'd probably just be like "well, now that you know how much failing at TTC cost you, imagine having those costs upon you your whole life!" & I would see red, & we'd fight about it, & it would be the worst. But my Mom has been awesome (luckily they are divorced). MH & his MIL don't speak, so she doesn't know unless his sister told her, but I doubt that? Anywayyyyy. My dad's friend died by suicide, and I missed that funeral bc it was my bday weekend--I called him crying bc I was so upset that he would be mad that I didn't want to go. He was like "no, you have to go do your plans." But my Dad gave me the play by play of the funeral, and it sounds like it was probably one of the most difficult things to attend, ever. It's so hard when people are hurting and you don't even know. And so confusing and hard for the family, I agree. I can't even imagine what going through that is like for a close family member.
@hanshotfirst77 We did a week of positive thinking a while ago over here at TTCAL haha, or at least I encouraged it in everyone bc I was feeling like some of us--esp. myself-- would really benefit from it. It's not going to magically get us what we all want, but it can at least help us feel better. Like, unless you are actively trying to be positive, it can be so hard to take a step back from negativity, take a deep breath, and ask yourself to focus on the good. I think I was having to tell DH to do that a lot that week & that's how it came up/was in my head here.
.....can you tell I missed you all when I was away haha. I am typing so many words.
@kagesstarshroom yes, totally happy that everyone was positive toward their announcement... I'm just stil shocked that was a thing that happened! I would feel so blind-sided at a wedding. Also, none of my friends are in the TTC stage yet--probably soon--so I have one friend IRL that has gone through any loss and I know it's impossible for people to understand if they haven't experienced it so I'm fortunate that everyone is empathetic at least.
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
@mhamik you're 4th of July weekend at the casino sounds like fun. Hope you have a good weekend and I hope AF comes soon. Totally know what you mean about wanting to be back in the know. I waited a little over 5 weeks before my AF came after my d&c. Hope you get back in the know.
@hanshotfirst77 sorry to hear about needing a 2nd D&C. Sending you hugs and healing thoughts for your d&c Weds. Sounds like you have a good plan. Hoping it all works out for you.
@shamrocandroll I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. May they rest in peace. I hope your mom is able to talk to you soon. For me it's the opposite. My mom talks but not my dad. He hasn't brought up the loss or pregnancy at all but its typical for him so it doesn't really bother me. He's not the touchy feely type. Sending you hugs.
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
NMC at 7w6d in 1/17 and BO at 7 weeks in 6/19
Status: WTO
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week?
People who knew I was having a miscarriage kept asking me if I wanted to go swimming. Like four of them. NO!
What is going well for you this week? Pretty much all done with the MC now. The nurse who gave me my rhogam shot said I had muscular arms and asked me what I do to work out. Um, lifting 27+ pounds repeatedly?!
R/R? Remembered last night that I need to go in for an HCG test again. The hospital didn’t post the first results yet even though they posted the blood type (which they test every.single.time before rhogam - and I’ve had 4) and that I got rhogam.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Maybe today? I called the RE and left 3 different messages without a response. Now I’m getting frustrated. Seeing my friend who works there today, so maybe she can give me some info on what’s up.
GTKY: On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest & 10 the highest, rate you AND your SO’s driving skills. (Feel free to explain why you’ve scored things how you score them if you’d like.) 🚦🚙⛽️
I won’t even go there because we disagree. I’m very good at parking, including parallel parking, and used to drive a stick shift... but he has driven a tank and drives a fire truck on tiny crowded one way streets, so he wins.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
@maserrano714 I have done the overlay from my BFP constantly, daily. It's ridiculous. MH and I are SS daily as well. It's ridiculous. I hate hate hate the TWW. I'll be crushed when I get a BFN...
@kagesstarshroom UGH with the PG announcement/gender reveal. That's the worst. I can't handle PG announcements right now at all. I'm also extra emotional about LO and US pictures on FB. I can't handle it! Sorry you went through that
@mhamik I'm fairly certain everyone goes BSC during the TWW. You are correct. LOL It only gets worse the closer you get to testing. I got a temp drop yesterday that came back up today and instantly went "OOOOOH! Implantation!" Ugh. Face palm. Your weekend sounds amazing! Have so much fun!
@NYTino24 I'm so sorry It's frustrating when you don't hear back from the office to get answers. I hope you get your answers soon!
HCG results were
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
@mokay19 My losses have been around the same point as each other and yours. Any theories? I’m sorry your SIL was being such a TW. Those what ifs are so hard, but I feel like it’s really hard to avoid thinking about.
@shamrocandroll That’s so tough. I’ve found it ironic that so many families make an effort to get together after a loss, yet don’t make time when people are living.
@hanshotfirst77 I’m glad you got the news that it’s covered. I hope you can come to an easy decision on what to do next!
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
I’m not sure why, but I feel like I’ve lost hope and I’m already putting my thoughts towards how we can make IVF work...
Hi ladies,
I've been lurking and love-titting the last few days while in beta-limbo.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. Early miscarriage in December at 5 weeks, CP diagnosed today (still have to go in again for bloodwork on Friday).
Status: WFAF, I guess?
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Needless to say I am not doing well. I had a gut feeling after my first blood draw came back on Monday that this one probably wasn't going to work out (my hcg levels were only at 18), but I still had that *tiny* spark of hope. They called a little while ago and my levels were at 4. This month with be a year TTC with 2 losses. Since both losses were so early, we might never get answers as to why. Is it low progesterone? Poor egg quality? My age? All of the above? I'm both sad and rage-y. I don't even want to tell my mother because if she goes all "God's will/keep praying" on me I will lose.my.damn.mind. I just can't hear that right now. I know many find comfort in faith and prayer when grieving, but sadly I don't. DH is crushed and all I can think of is how I've disappointed him and our families. I know it's not my fault but I feel awful because I know both his parents and mine are expecting us to have news to share any day now.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Going back Friday for another blood draw; DH has his SA next week (do-over after he didn't collect enough last time) and I assume I'll have my saline sono at some point next week too. I don't know if they're going to give me the rhogam shot this time.
GTKY: On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest & 10 the highest, rate you AND your SO’s driving skills. (Feel free to explain why you’ve scored things how you score them if you’d like.) 🚦🚙⛽️ I occasionally make stupid driving mistakes, but I have an excellent record (only one speeding ticket and no accidents), so maybe I'm an 8? I can't parallel park to save my life and get major anxiety driving in cities. DH isn't bad, but he tailgates like crazy and sometimes I think he needs to brake a bit earlier. Maybe he's an 8 too?
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
AFM I just had my 2nd D&C for this latest loss. It wasn’t my RE but the RE today said there was retained tissue so it was good we didn’t decide to wait it out more. It’s been 3 weeks since the MMC diagnosis and the first D&C so I am beyond ready for this part to be over. I’m feeling okay but it seems to hit me in waves of being okay and then a crying mess. Should be going back next week to keep testing HCG down and hopefully confirming that this one was successful and the MC is really over.
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20