August 2019 Moms

Goodbye (trigger warning)

hello everyone,

im sorry to say I have to say goodbye to this forum. Sadly at my 10 wk follow up today we saw that the baby stopped growing at 8wks with no heartbeat. 

I think this pregnancy was doomed from the start with first almost getting the mtx shot because we thought it was ectopic then finding out it’s not at the last minute in the ED but then being told it probably won’t work out because of an irregular sac with a subchorionic hemorrhage. And then we find out the baby the growing with a heart beat at 6 wks. And then another ultrasound with good growth at 7 wks. Then a week of brown spotting then our follow up today. 

But it’s ok! Life’s happens. Just need to make a decision now on either waiting, taking misoprostol or a dnc. But this is not the place for that. I know there are other forums to discuss this on. 

I just wanted to say goodbye. Wish you all happy sticky babies and while I’m sad I won’t be with you all through this time. I’m so happy for the rest of you and wish you all so much luck and easy pregnancies. ❤️

Re: Goodbye (trigger warning)

  • I’m so sorry sim-sim for your loss. Standing here with you <3 There is a wonderful TTCAL thread posted once a week on the TTGP boards with an awesome group of women. For when you’re ready https://forums.thebump.com/discussion/12739975/ttcal-w-o-1-28#latest


    People think we become mothers when we give birth but the truth is we become mothers the moment we start calling our babies to us in our thoughts, dreams and prayers. Some paths are short and some are so long that you can easily forget where you were headed.

    How I feel all of the time.
    My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
    IVF
    IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
    Back on Levothyroxine
    FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
    FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
    Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt, 
    1st Beta on 7dpt 93
    2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!

    TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
    Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
    New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF

    IUI
    IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
    IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
    IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
    BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine 
    IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
    Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
    Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
     
  • Oh no @sim-sim so sorry to hear this. Take care of yourself and best of luck to you in the future. We will miss you here!
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  • I'm so sorry.  The forums on the bump are filled with great ladies and information, I hope you are able to find the support that you need <3

    Me 32 <3 H 33
    TTC#1 January 2016  BFP 5/16/2016  DD Born 1/27/17

    TFAS: BFP 11/26/2018 Estimated due date: 8/2/2019


  • So sorry ❤️❤️
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  • I'm so sorry to hear @sim-sim, please take care of yourself <3
    **History in Spoiler**
    Me-35, DH-36 - TTC since 08/10
    Me - anovulatory, non-Insulin PCOS, DH - low end of "normal" sperm count
       IUI#1   - 02/15 - Cancelled due to scrubbed sperm count <1MM
       IVF#1  - 08/15 - 13x5-day blastocysts (ranging from AA-BB, most are 5 or 6), not PGS, on ice
       FET#1 - 10/15 - 1 emb - BFP (DD 07/16) (estrace + PIO sesame oil + prometrium)
       FET#2 - 07/17 - 1 emb - BFN (estrace + PIO sesame oil + prometrium)
       FET#3 - 08/17 - 1 emb - BFN (estrace + PIO sesame oil + prometrium)
       FET#4 - 10/17 - 2 emb - BFN (changed to estrace + prometrium because of allergic reaction to PIO sesame oil)
    ERA Testing - 12/17 - window moved (-1 day)
       FET#5 - 03/18 - 2 emb - BFN (estrace + prometrium, ERA-timing used)
    Karyotype Testing - 04/18 - Negative (we're ok)
       FET#6 - 06/18 - 2 emb - BFN (estrace + prometrium, ERA-timing used)
       FET#7 - 10/18 - 2 emb - BFN (estrace + prometrium, ERA-timing used)
       FET#8 - 11/18 - 2 emb - BFP; looks like one baby is going to make it, DD is due 8/16 (though likely to be 8/9)


  • @sim-sim it’s heartbreaking even when you think you’re prepared it. I’m so sorry for your loss and am holding you in my heart. The ladies over at TTCAL are also awesome and were my homebase for nearly a year. I’ve had 3 D&Cs and done cytotec (though I failed—feel free to PM me if you’d like to talk/vent/ask questions :heart:)
  • I'm so sorry for your loss @sim-sim. <3
  • I’m so sorry. ❤️
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  • @sim-sim - I'm so sorry to hear this. I hope you're able to get the support you need and best of luck to you in the future.
  • So sorry for your loss sim-sim. Have grace with yourself during this time. 

    Just know, whatever you choose there is not a wrong answer. Choose whatever makes you feel most comfortable in this hard time. 
    Rainbow baby Dean is due 2/17/17!
  • I'm so sorry @sim-sim ❤️
  • @sim-sim So sorry for your loss <3

    Me: 31  DH:35
    Started TTC in June 2014
    Started seeing RE in June 2015
    HSG in July 2015 = normal, started Clomid/Ovidrel/IUI cycle in August 2015
    Cycle #3 in October afforded 1st month of mature follicles - underwent IUI
    BFP on 10/27/15 - EDD 7/8/16
    DD#1 born on 7/1/16

    TTC #2 in September 2018
    BFP on 12/2/18 - EDD 8/16/19
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  • @sim-sim I am so so sorry for your loss ❤️
  • @sim-sim I'm so sorry! Please take care of yourself! ❤️
  • @sim-sim I'm so sorry for your loss and all of the difficult and uncertain times you have been through. You and your family are in my thoughts. 
  • I'm so sorry for your loss. To echo the other ladies, I found the TCCAL community here to be an incredible source of support before and during my last pregnancy. Please take care of yourself. 
  • Oh @sim-sim! I’m so sorry for your loss. Hugs. ❤️
  • @sim-sim I’m so so sorry for your loss 
  • I’m so sorry for your loss. 
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