so..
I am still pregnant.
My parents are here. and I can not stop sneaking into my room or the bathroom to cry...for stupid reasons!! First I got all sad because my ma got Juniper out of bed this morning and took her into her room to play and snuggle and I was so overcome with the thought of not having her as my only child and that I was having to share our last days together alone- and not just share- my mother basically absorbs my child into her own body when she is here and then I don't see my kid until she leaves...usually that is ok, but these are special circumstances..I just wanted to grab her and hide away in my room with her- but that would be dumb, so I just cried instead...
Also, they keep letting my idiot dog on the furniture! He is not allowed on the furniture- and I have asked them nicely and not nicely- especially with the new baby coming, I do not want him jumping on the couch, or bed and they keep saying "oh- we know- but he wanted to come up- what are we supposed to do"
REALLY? he is 8 pounds of weiner dog. I am pretty sure you can overpower him and keep him off of the furniture..
OR "He isn't on the furniture, he is on my lap. I won't put him on the couch."( like he knows the difference? no. he jumps right up there now when he comes into the house or finishes eating or licking his junk or whatever the hell he does...) EVERY TIME I leave the room and come back in he is on the furniture now...it is drving me insane. ESPECIALLY when they act like I am insane- and say ooooh- get him down, she is going to be so mad at you!!
I know that sounds so dumb- dumb enough that I might not even mention this crap to my husband because he will think I am a nut for getting this upset about that kind of thing...but I am so hormonal and high strung it feels like the end of the world! I just sent them to lunch without me so I could cry by myself while I get ready to go to my dr. appt.
I just have issues right now! I woke up at 5am to pee, and on the way back to my room, my dad tried to hug me- WTF!? I am trying to go back to bed- not have a special moment in the hallway...what is wrong with these people?!
I know they're here to help and I love them, I really do.
snap me out of it!
Thanks for the vent!
Re: Wherein BOF is an ungrateful whiney jerk:
((hugs)) It's almost over, and we're all hoping for you every day! Hang in there! How about some jumping jacks?
(((HUGS)))
You can come hang out with me, the ILs, and their 800 pound dog. He'll even drool all over you. Free of charge.
You take my ovaries, I take your yarns.
I can relate to your first vent. My IL's came up about a week before I had the baby and I absolutely remember thinking the day before they came that this was going to be my last day alone with T. EVER. See how dramatic I was? Because even if I still had another week before I went into labor, THEY'D be there. I'm happy that the day before I went into labor, I took him out by myself and we spent the morning at the mall and had lunch together.
I also totally cried when my water broke. He was in bed already and we had to leave for the hospital. I was so upset about rocking his world - when I came back, he wouldn't be an only child anymore, he'd have this INVADER. I stood and watched him sleep while I cried.
Of course, we brought the baby home and he's been great about her and I can't imagine life without her (although, sometimes, we leave her with a friend and it's just mommy, daddy, and T and I get a little nostalgic). Hang in there. It will be okay.
Gin and tonic, your post just made me cry really really loud...that is exactly how I keep feeling...I am so sad...
Thanks guys, I seriously need therapy or something- but I knew I could count on you for support!
and bubbs- I HATE slobber- uncle newman is almost cute enough to let it slide, but ewwwwwwwwww!
Aw. (((HUGS)))
OH - I'm sorry I made you cry. I just wanted you to feel like you weren't alone. I'm almost crying because I made you cry (and I'm not pregnant - just getting sick).
It never helped me that DD was an "oops" and I wasn't ready for her - I cried when I POAS'd, etc. Don't get me wrong - I adore her. I just wasn't ready to share him. Or for him to have to share me. But, it's all going to be okay. There's nothing better than them both on your lap at once
this one was an oops, too!! And don't feel bad- I was already crying. I am very cry-ey right now...
I really appreciate it!
I am sure I will be so happy once he is here- I just wish he would get here so I can get over this nonsense!
i had to giggle at the end of your post....
it sucks that you are feeling this way. i know i would feel the same way about dd if i was to have another baby. you are not nuts just pg.
hang in there, we are all rooting for you.
Juniper will LOVE her baby brother....LOVE him. Just think of how much fun it will be to see her "mothering" the new baby...and she will be so proud when you ask her to get a burp rag or ask her to hold a bottle or whatever. This is the best kind of "rocking her world" you can give her!!
And I had the same feelings shortly before Audrey was born. Now Taylor and Audrey are glued to the hip. Taylor calls her "honey". Audrey calls Tay "sissy".
There are FAR more positives to come than negatives. Hang in there!
I know you said you want nothing to do with sex. My OB told me that sperm has something in it that thins the cervix. I know it didn't work for Kerty, but it did for us.
Maybe you can figure out a different way to get that junk in there.
I have to add - if I were to run into you in a hallway at 5am, I would totally try to hug you & have a special moment.
so sorry! I kind of know how you feel. I could cry over everything no matter how small. I have cried at reruns of SATC the past 2 days.
GandT I am so glad you posted that. I'm feeling that way about having a second and it's nice to know I'm not alone. And that you didn't destroy DC1 when you brought #2 home.
BOF...hang in there girl...hugs!
Liam is 5!
Nora Judith 7/2/06 Miles Chauncey 4/20/09 born with Trisomy 21 - Down syndrome
I'll hand the husband a turkey baster and tell him to fill it up- ew!!
at this point, I want a special moment with every one of you in the hallway right about now.
I really feel better- thank you all so so much.
( What the hell will I post about when I can't whine incessantly about this pregnancy...? ugh- I am just steeling myself for next week's PABST...)
I am writing about you all in my diary.
Alex (11/14/06) and Nate (5/25/10)
"Want what you have, do what you can, be who you are." - Rev. Forrest Church