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Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.:
Status:
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year?
Re: TTCAL w/o 12/31
Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: 2 CP's and 3 MMC's.
Status: Benched.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I realized yesterday that i turn 38 in a month. Its hitting me harder than I expected. I feel like time is running out to conceive this baby without IVF. I know people my age get pregnant all the time, but with 5 losses, I'm starting to lose faith.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Saline sono once CD1 gets here.
GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year? Hmmm, this is surprisingly a lot harder than I thought it would be... 1) vacation and time with MH; 2) running/hiking; and 3) my awesome coworkers.
Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: 1 MMC
Status: WTO/TWW... not totally sure. I think I ovulated today fx.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I'm feeling a little better this week. I think it helps to feel like you are moving forward a bit. We did the HCG trigger shot on Saturday so I'm feeling hopeful.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? No. I did have a mid-cycle ultrasound on Saturday that showed two big hemorrhagic cysts. We still moved forward with this cycle, but if they don't improve I'll likely take next month off.
GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year? 1) Discovering poetry. I had never really read it before, but I've really enjoyed it the last few months. 2) Make-up. 3) Sashimi. Never thought I'd like plain raw fish, but it is so good!
@ruby696 I wish I had some advice or insightful comments. Only that I'm sorry things haven't been easier for you. It doesn't make sense why some have such tough roads. Big hugs
@ruby696 I’m also struggling with the age thing. I’ll be 35 in March and officially higher risk maternal age, and I’m high risk already if I ever get pregnant.
AFM
Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.:
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
The holidays have been incredibly difficult for me. Between Christmas Eve marking the day I’m sure my last baby stopped, a just struggling with it being a year since I’ve been able to get pregnant
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope
GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year? 1. Family 2. Reconciliation 3. My students
HX
DSD: 17
DS: 4(Nov'14)
MMC:8/17
MMC: 1/18
BFP: 2/7/19 EDD:10/16/19
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@ruby696 I'm with you on the difficulty finding joy. Hopefully AF speeds in soon...
@kgg2241 fx for you
@kindbytealik I'm sorry it's been so difficult. Lots of hugs and plenty of forgiveness for your absence.
Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: 3 losses this year, MMCx2 & CP
Status: benched
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Had lunch with BFF for lunch yesterday and it was almost 3hrs of catching up. She is amazing and while she doesnt have any advice, shes a great listener. It also warmed my heart to know that her SO frequently asks her how I'm doing with all of this. I'm really happy shes found him. I'm feeling okay emotionally. I have sad moments but they are fewer. I talked to DH about my tattoo idea and hes not a fan (he doesnt care for them and says I'm "pushing it" with 2 plus he's not thrilled about the location for professional reasons) but it seems like he understands the importance to me and isn't going to fight me too hard.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? sono hsg Thur
GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year? Honestly it's not much. I'll say Yoga, my cat, and my family
@prpl11butterfly I’m glad you were able to catch up with your friend. Sometimes it’s nice to have someone who is just going to listen and not try to give advice. Good luck on Thursday!
@kindbytealikat I’m sorry you have been struggling so much. We are here whenever and however you need it .
@kgg2241 good luck this cycle!
@ruby696 hope your sono happens soon!
Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: 5 losses 12/13, 1/17, 11/17, 4/18, 9/18
Status: benched pending testing
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Just really enjoying the holidays and spending time with family and friends. Looking forward to a new beginning and a better, more positive year ahead.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Wfaf to schedule my saline ultrasound and results from karyotype of both dh and myself. Waiting on karyotypes for both dh and myself, wfaf to schedule a saline sono in January. Waiting, waiting, waiting.
GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year? Being benched, carbs, moving to dh’s new duty station.
@kgg2241 FX for you this cycle!
@kindbytealikat I'm so sorry this year has been tough. Sending you love.
@prpl11butterfly hoping for good results from your sono. And happy to hear you had a good lunch with your friend! Those are the best.
Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: MMC in Oct and CP this month
Status: WTO
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Honestly happy for the holidays to be just about over. It was a rough one. We made the most of it, but it was so draining at the same time. I am also dreading taking down all the decorations. It's going to take hours.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Putting this in a spoiler:GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year? 1) Ocean's 8 2) My dog 3) My co-workers
Married 8/16/13
BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
BFP# 3 Preemie DD born at 38w (IUGR) on 8/28/19 weighing 5.5lbs. Our little miracle
@prpl11butterfly I was going to include my dog as one of my joys but that B just pulled as many meyer lemons off my tree as she could. So. Much. Rage.
@kbrown2385 I'm glad you enjoyed the holidays and your feeling positive. Good mental health is so important.
@kbrown2385 ugh the waiting game, so many pros and cons.
@zuuls_mom I hope you get answers soon
HX
DSD: 17
DS: 4(Nov'14)
MMC:8/17
MMC: 1/18
BFP: 2/7/19 EDD:10/16/19
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ETA: spelling
@ruby696 I am so envious that you can grow your own lemons. I also hear you on the age frustration. I keep telling myself that I an healthy and in good shape, so there's nothing to worry about, but unfortunately google keeps sending me to all the scary, negative info about ttc over 35.
@prpl11butterfly that's wonderful that your friend is so supportive. Sometimes a good long talk with your bestie works wonders.
@zuuls_mom I can imagine how frustrated and confused you are right now. I really really hope that you can get some answers.
@kindbytealikat I am sorry you are struggling. Life really has a way of kicking us around sometimes. Sending you hugs.
@kgg2241 fx for O! Good luck!
@kbrown2385 I hope that you get your test results back soon.
Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: CP in December at 5 weeks, 1 day
Status: WTO but benched until next cycle
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
I am starting to feel more like myself. I think being on Christmas break has helped me to process everything from the last 2 weeks. I am struggling with just turning 37 and only starting my TTC journey in July. I wish DH and I hadn't waited so long to figure out what we wanted as far as kids goes. It also took me a really long time to get to a place where I thought I could be a good mom, despite my mental health struggles with depression and anxiety. I know I can't turn back the clock and can only move forward. I just need to let go of the regret.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?No testing. If we experience a second loss, I will push for it.
GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year? 1. DH and I have gotten a lot closer 2. Theater 3. My students who are noisy, but hilarious.
@ruby696 I will also be moving into AMA with any other pregnancy. So I feel you on the age thing. Also, you have a gorgeous dog!
@kgg2241 FX this cycle is it!
@kindbytealikat hugs! I'm sorry you are having a difficult time.
@prpl11butterfly I love it when I get to catch up with my friends. I'm glad you were able to do that.
@kbrown2385 the waiting is killing me and I'm only waiting for O so this cycle can just end. I don't know how you are doing it.
@zuuls_mom FX for good news. ❤
Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: 24 week MC on 12/14/18
Status: Benched, waiting for my body to O so I can move on to TTC next cycle.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I have been weepy the last few days. It is emotionally and physically draining to be in tears this much. A positive is that we are getting back into our routine this week. I'm ready for the holidays to be over.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Still waiting for the genetic results from our angel baby.
GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year? My cat, snow, a Harry Potter time-turner necklace.
@ruby696 I'm sorry you're struggling! I really hope this is your year. On a side note, I luuuuuurve your doggo! She is gorgeous!
@kindbytealikat Sorry you're struggling so much. I really hope things turn around for you soon!
@prpl11butterfly Friends who ask how we're doing and then just listen make such a huge difference. I'm so glad you have someone like that!
@kbrown2385 FX for good test results!!!
@zuuls_mom Oh my gosh, what a roller coaster for you! Keep us posted! FX so hard for you!!!
@emeraldduchess Letting go of regret is so so so hard. Especially when you have anxiety (like I do). I lose so much sleep over things I can't do anything about. I'm trying so hard to get better about not dwelling, but it's so hard. I'm glad you're starting to feel more like yourself now!
@emeraldcity603 I am SO relieved the holidays are over! FX for a wonderful 2019 for you!
Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: MMC 11/16 at 9w6d.
Status: WTO, CD7
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Back to charting this week after finishing AF and running around for the holidays. Really hoping my stress levels drop enough to give me a normal cycle.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Starting OPKs in a couple of days.
GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year? Not a little thing, but really they have both been so extra important in giving me joy in 2018: My friends and family.
ETA I can't read instructions, and just realized this asked for 3 things. I'll go with chocolate.
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
Introduce yourself/what you think is important, such as number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.: 2 CP, 1 BO
Status: WTO I guess, not quite certain yet.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I am welcoming 2019 with open arms, a semi clear mind and ready to have a better year!
Any testing coming up/any recent results? On NYE I had bloodwork done and I am finally negative for HCG. So it only took 7 weeks but I am finally back to 0. I have my yearly next week and have lots of questions about why this is potentially happening repeatedly.
GTKY? In trying to remember the good of 2018, what are three little things that brought you joy this year? I am very proud of myself for setting a foal and sticking to it in 2018! In my head its so easy to make lofty goals and then never see them through.
Married 8/16/13
BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
BFP# 3 Preemie DD born at 38w (IUGR) on 8/28/19 weighing 5.5lbs. Our little miracle
Also, for what it is worth, I'm okay that you posted that here. You might want to edit to put it in a spoiler with TW just to be safe though.
Married 8/16/13
BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
BFP# 3 Preemie DD born at 38w (IUGR) on 8/28/19 weighing 5.5lbs. Our little miracle
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
Married 8/16/13
BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
BFP# 3 Preemie DD born at 38w (IUGR) on 8/28/19 weighing 5.5lbs. Our little miracle
HX
DSD: 17
DS: 4(Nov'14)
MMC:8/17
MMC: 1/18
BFP: 2/7/19 EDD:10/16/19
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Married 8/16/13
BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
BFP# 3 Preemie DD born at 38w (IUGR) on 8/28/19 weighing 5.5lbs. Our little miracle
I will be praying this all has a good outcome for you. I know the uncertainty is hard to deal with.
@zuuls_mom, I am sorry that you are in limbo, I know how frustrating and terrible that can be. When I was on my phone with my obgyn, and was telling him I was bleeding, he told me my HCG was only 7 and my first thought was to be thankful there was no waiting/guessing game this time.
Married 8/16/13
BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
BFP# 3 Preemie DD born at 38w (IUGR) on 8/28/19 weighing 5.5lbs. Our little miracle