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nomangos23
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TTCAL w/o 11/12
nomangos23
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**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage/spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and/or stillbirth may be mentioned.**
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status:
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY? What is your hidden talent?
Re: TTCAL w/o 11/12
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 losses in 2018 @21 weeks, 5.5 weeks, 6.5 weeks
Status: Benched TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Excited to finally see the RE tomorrow now that all test results are in.
Rave: Thanksgiving is sooooooo close and I'm getting really pumped about it. I know not everyone has stellar extended families so I feel blessed to be so close to mine.
Rant: It looks like DH is going to be out of town for next cycle's FW
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Follow up TSH results should be in today or tomorrow. I don't expect them to be great.
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? I'm good at guessing middle names.....
ETA Good luck this week @minnek8
@nomangos23 hoping you get some answers tomorrow! GL at your appt!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 5 losses. 12/13, 1/17, 11/17, 4/18, 9/18
Status: benched pending testing
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Glad to have been able to spend some quality time with DH this weekend. He’s been working super late the last couple of weeks, so it was nice to reconnect. I’m recovering from bruising my tailbone...and I’m just over it.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Did bloodwork a couple of weeks ago, follow up RE appt scheduled for 12/5.
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? I don’t know if I have one. My intuition is pretty spot on when I first meet people. Idk if it counts, but I can tell if we will get along well within the first few minutes of meeting someone.
@kbrown2385 bruised tailbones suck. once when I was in elementary school, I was trying to be popular by being a real bitch. a kid with crutches fell down the stairs and I made fun of him. not even 5 mins later I fell down those stairs and bruised my tailbone too. my first true taste of karma lol.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 1 MMC
Status: WTO
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? TW* my SIL had her baby a week or so ago so we went to see her. I had very mixed emotions so I told my bf to help dodge questions if I decide to not hold her. well of course, my sil puts the baby in my arms and I'm the only one in the entire house that can calm her and she slept for 4 hours. Thankfully my tears were seen as happy tears. it was rough but I'm proud of myself. END TW**
I woke up feeling like I got hit by a truck. not sure if I'm getting sick or if its my bodies way to telling me to slow down and take a day.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? In one week all my results from blood work is coming in and hopefully an internal ultrasound to check for cysts
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? I can sing almost any song that comes on the radio. I rarely know the name of the song or who sings it. my friends and family are generally pretty impressed by it.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. *sigh* MMC in Feb, CP in Sept, and now another MMC (D&C was Fri).
Status: Benched. For God only knows how long now.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Things are going as 1 would expect. I'm angry and spiteful and all the other aweful feelings. I'm in more pain this time around and while the ER dr gave me vicodin for pain (in case things started happening naturally over the night) I'm trying not to take it because it makes DH nervous. I couldn't sleep last night so I took an extra day from work. I sort of feel like I'm on autopilot. A lot of moments where I feel like I'm having flashbacks and not actually going through it again. I hate it.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I have no idea what's next. My FU is on the 26th. I'm going to ask for RPL panel but is there anything else I should be asking/demanding? I'm also going to push for an RE (if my ins requires referral, otherwise I'm just going) because I feel like OB is just running with bad luck. I don't agree.
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? Egh, fairly untalented here.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 losses MMC late last year then CP in june then MMC in September. For the moment unexplained.
Status: WTO
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Its been a bad week, CD21 and still no definite signs of ovulation. This is my second cycle after my last MMC (first trying and temping), and I have never ever had a cycle that looks like this. Before my last MC my cycles were unbeleivably predictable. I just don't really know what to do, its not like I thought I was going to be PG this cycle but this seems like a whole other issue,
Any testing coming up/any recent results? RPL clinic has ordered 2 more blood tests before they will book me in. So will do that tomorrow.
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? Nothing really, I sing okay
@nomangos23 hope your test comes back okay
@kbrown2385 its nice to get that time together, something I really need to book in myself.
@prpl11butterfly I'm not sure I would be okay with its just bad luck either. It may well be, but better to rule out the other stuff. Take care of yourself and I am so sorry for your loss.
@prpl11butterfly I am so sorry to see you back here. It is so unfair. Big big hugs. I definitely think you should move to an RE. My OB actually didn't think I needed to see an RE, so I just called one up and made an appointment. It is worth a shot... and remember, they work for YOU, not the other way around.
@kels0091 I'm sorry about the emotions for the new baby in your family. It is definitely bittersweet. Rember, it is okay to be happy for your SIL, while also feeling sad for yourself. The two are not mutually exclusive.
@kbrown2385 I'm the same way! I really think my gut impression of someone is pretty spot on. And ouch! A bruised tailbone sounds so annoying.
@nomangos23 Girl, I just want to give you huge props for your attitude and spirit lately. I lurked last week and your posts cracked me up. I'm sorry about your levels going up (and potentially missing the next FW). Hopefully, you can get to the bottom of this soon!
@minnek8 Good luck this week! I forgot to ask, but hopefully, you got all your FMLA stuff worked out!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. MMC at 11 weeks 6/18
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I'm doing okay this week. Met with our RE last week. If we get a BFN this month, I think I'll handle it a lot better now that we have a path to move forward. Also, sorry to post and dash last week. I just wasn't mentally prepared to be supportive.
Did anyone else see Michelle Obama's interview where she talked about her miscarriage and needing IVF? I don't usually find comfort in celebrity loss stories, but I thought it was great she shared and opened up about it.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I'll probably text Friday or Saturday (or sooner since I have no willpower)
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? This is so weird, but I can smell when some is getting sick or are already sick. I never tell people that I think they are getting sick, but I am almost always spot on.
@lokibear89 I'm sorry for the out of wack cycle. I was noticing some delayed ovulation after each loss cycle and they all actually turn out to be an-o cycles. I would say if next month is wonky too you might call your doc.
@kels0091 Bless you for powering through holding a nb for FOUR HOURS. My heart aches for you just thinking about that! @kgg2241 Can you tell us if Kels is getting sick or not?
It sounds crazy. Mostly colds, but sometimes more serious stuff (like when my sister had appendicitis). I think I can smell the immune system ramping up. It is a sour, musty smell. Or when people have cancer they have a very strong, distinct smell to me.
Edt to add that I totally bet I could smell if Kels is getting sick
@kbrown2385 Hidden talent or not, having a good read on people probably saves you from a lot of garbage humans. I'd love to be like, "Noooope. Not you."
@kels0091 I feel like new babies in the family or close circle of friends is a no-win situation sometimes. I am glad you are proud of yourself-- that's so important! I went to a baby shower of a very close friend who had also had a loss (which is how we got so close) and I sweat THROUGH MY CLOTHES at that godforsaken shower, but I did it.
@prpl11butterfly I am so, so sorry. I hope the physical pain and discomfort subsides soon.
@lokibear89 I am sorry it's been a tough week. I miss the predictability of pre-MC cycles. Hopefully there will be some ideas/answers at future RPL appointments for you?
@kgg2241 Thanks-- the FMLA paperwork did work out! I didn't really doubt that it would, but there was some confusion about whether or not I HAD to do it because we have such good sick time coverage, but overall it was relatively easy. Shout out to my surgery scheduler who did pretty much everything for me! I am sure that is a thankless job many days but she was a true champ. I also heard about Michelle Obama's new book on NPR this morning and I loved how candid she was about their marriage and marriage counseling too. She said something along the lines of knowing that people really think they have this amazing relationship (#relationshipgoals) and she wanted people to know that that kind of relationship took hard work for them. For some reason, that lifted my spirits a bit about all of the challenges of adulting: marriage is work, for some of TTC is work, it's all work. Then I put some Irish cream in my coffee because I have the day off from work work.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 2 MC (2/2017 and 7/2017, the latter in the desert on a backpacking trip, because of course it was).
Status: Benched. Surgery in 2 days! And then still benched for at least a month after that, but at least we are doing the thing, ya know?
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Rant: I went through quite a bit of therapy to help me move past the grief and trauma of our losses, so most days are okay, but lately my anxiety has been through the roof. Today, I was enjoying a day off and got on social media to scroll lazily while watching Great British Baking Show, and not one but THREE new baby announcements popped up. Ugh. get out of my day off, Fertile Myrtles.
Rave: Two things. I spent part of my day eating chicken and waffles and a big part of it sleeping on the couch side-by-side with our big, dumb dog. DELUXE. The other thing: We've been doing some work redecorating and rearranging our house a bit and my sister, who is *perfect* came to pick me up today, and said, "Your house feels so welcoming and cozy. And it is so you guys." Felt like a huge compliment from her-- our style is a little haphazard and non-traditional.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Unlikely. Sounds like my OB wants to do this surgery and then essentially start "fresh" on my TTC adventures. The uterine tissue that is removed will go to pathology, per protocol, but no one suspects anything exciting to come from that.
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? I am really good at knowing what time it is without looking at a clock. I think this comes from years of outdoor activities, where knowing sunrise and sunset times matters?
Hello everyone. I have had one MC at 10 weeks in August 2017. Last month was my first time back TTC since my loss. I have one child who is almost four who was conceived through fertility treatments.
Status: CD10
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? So far things seem to be going well. My husband travels a lot for his job, so I solo parent all week. It can be stressful and exhausting.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? No.
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? I am an empath, so I can read people pretty well.
@kgg2241 I’m intrigued by your ability to smelll sickness! I watched the Michelle Obama interview today. Loved how she opened up about all of that.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. Unexplained RPL. 4 MCs.
Status: WTO like CD 6 or something.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I am still having a rough time *shocker.* DH and I went to therapy on Saturday and I don't know what I was expecting, but it's not what I got. With this past cycle being extra-special to my body and everything I am really done with TTCAL physically myself. So, I guess I was hoping maybe at therapy to convey that to him and to confess that I still REALLY want a baby, but I can't abuse my body (physically, mentally, or emotionally) anymore to do it. I guess I was hoping he'd reconsider adoption. But he essentially said he never wanted kids, and that we tried, and that he doesn't want to put any more time or effort into having a child that he never cared if he had or not in the first place (either bio or adopted). So if I'm done with putting my body through this process, then we can basically be done altogether. He is not willing to compromise any further (he never wanted RPL testing, which I found out after we were most of the way through RPL testing and meeting with REs). So... I'm trying to come to terms with all of this. *sigh* Back to reading "Life Without Baby" for me I guess...
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? Lately I'd say it's managing to not murder everyone around me... which is pretty amazing for someone with about 0 patience...
nomangos23 I’m excited for my extended family coming over for Thanksgiving too! I definitely appreciate my awesome and crazy family.
prpl11butterfly Sorry you’re going through all of this again. Take some time off work if you can and focus on self-care. I really do recommend it. Definitely ask for a RPL panel, but make sure you get it done with the RE and NOT your OB! Sometimes RE’s require tests done by THEM so you don’t want to end up having to pay for tests twice because of this. Make sure you get a progesterone test done at some point.
kgg2241 I read about Michelle Obama’s MC and IVF. I thought it was a great share too. Also, weird hidden talent! Cool though!
minnek8 I have unfollowed SO many people on FB, I swear all I have left are single friends and “We’re all getting microchipped in 2017!” psychos.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@nomangos23 I downloaded it and am slowly working my way through. With all my emotions it's hard to focus in depth on it (or anything for that matter...)
@dpjennifer thank you for the advise. I'm waiting on a call from my pcp to get the referral now. I am so sorry that YH is unyielding on his decision. I cannot imagine how tough it is and I'm so sorry that you were caught off guard by the inability to sway him even to think about it more.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. Well. 2 CP, this summer and now a Blighted Ovum that was discovered at my 8 week appointment on Friday.
Status: Benched until Jan-Feb as of now, maybe longer if it takes that long to get back to a normal cycle.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Well I was supposed to have a D&C today, but I freaked out last Friday about the process they were taking me through and it gave me a panic attack. So I started Cytotec on Friday and repeated on Sunday and the dosage they gave me did absolutely nothing to me. So I started a double dose yesterday and it seems to have started the process, and hoping tomorrows dose finishes everything up. If not I will have to have a D&C in 2 weeks when my OB comes back from vacation in Italy. I am pretty much an emotional wreck and stressed.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I will go back for another US next week to check my status.
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? I want cool hidden talents like all of you. All I have is being able to rap Ice Ice Baby.
@nomangos23 I hope your appointment went well yesterday.
@minnek8 I swear I have seen more announcements in my friends circle and on FB in the last 3 weeks than I have in the last 2 years. It's like a baby boom.
@dpjennifer I don't even have words. I am sorry you are going through this and your therapy session went the way it did.
@prpl11butterfly :’( I am so heartbroken you are back here. No one deserves this.
****TW Friend babies/Kids****
AFM: The last two weeks have sucked. Being horribly sick and a long period on top of that. Today was just the topper. A close friend of mine was being thrown a sprinkle shower, I wasn’t going to go but I love this friend dearly so I went. Everything was going ok until the topic of kids/more kids came up and of course it’s the woman with 9 biological children that takes it upon herself to ask everyone the plans for their uterus. Don’t assume you know shit about my uterus based on it current emptiness. Don’t throw around phrases like so many one and done here, not to mention that I have two step children and they count. So much rage. I knew I shouldn’t have went and then left shortly after.
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DSD: 17
DS: 4(Nov'14)
MMC:8/17
MMC: 1/18
BFP: 2/7/19 EDD:10/16/19
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I hate when other people have an opinion on someone elses uterus.
Hi ladies. I figured I would introduce myself here as I am having a hard time today.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. DS was born in June 2017 with a genetic disorder that caused many birth defects. He unexpectedly died of heart disease 3 months ago.
Status: WTO, CD 13
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I am struggling with Thanksgiving coming up. We're going to my in-laws and I had a mini meltdown tonight about it. I feel like such a child around them and I hate it. Like, I want to be hosting Thanksgiving this year - I'm a 30 year old mom now. But no, I'm not really a mom anymore. I have no one to take care of.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope. We met with our MFM last month, and she gave us the all clear to try again. We don't know the genetic cause of DS's issues, so we are supposed to try again and see what happens.
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? Hmmm....I guess I have an uncanny memory for song lyrics?
CP 3/2019
@SpongeWorthy I'm sure the holidays are so tough. My best friend lost her first baby almost two years ago right before Christmas. You will always be a mom. Hang in there.
@prpl11butterfly I too am so sorry to see you back. This journey is so hard.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. MC May 2018, MMC with D&C July 2018, CP last week.
Status: CD4 after CP
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I am just feeling so frustrated. I was so hopeful for this new pregnancy only to have it end in a CP. Initial HCG looked fabulous and then bam 2 days later unchanged numbers. I don't understand why this keeps happening. Luckily my doctor is fabulous and willing to do all the RPL testing without having me see RE. It's probably all just bad luck and the fact that I'm almost 39 and trying to have a baby. If we are lucky enough to get another positive test I will start aspirin and progesterone just in case.
I had an incredibly tough shift at work tonight. I ended up staying a couple hours after my shift ended to make sure this patient and her family had everything they needed. As I am grabbing my stuff to walk out the door one of my colleagues comes up to me to share the happy news she is 14 weeks pregnant. I seriously faked the biggest smile I could muster and then drove home in tears.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?All of the RPL testing. I know the second MC was due to Trisomy 22 after fetal genetic testing. I just need to find time to go to the lab and get them done this week. I need to decide if I was hysterosalpingogram.
GTKY? What is your hidden talent? Tripping over my own two feet, haha! Not the most talented individual.