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Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
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How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY? Any fun holiday traditions?
Re: TTCAL w/o 11/5
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 MC, 1cp and 2 MMC. At the moment unexplained.
Status: WTO
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Feeling kind of positive, but I'm alway better when WTO as there are things I can do. its the TWW that does my head in. I have been really slack with exercise, seems like there is always a good excuse not to do it. Plan is tonight to just get on with it.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Just waiting on the hospital to call for an appointment really.
GTKY? Any fun holiday traditions? I love christmas, we decorate and stuff. Christmas day my partner and I do our own little thing in the morning then head over on the ferry to see my family where we stuff ourselves with food and wine and just sit in the sun enjoying each others company. Don't knock a summer xmas til you have tried it. My partners family live in the UK so we skype them at some point as well.
@lokibear89 TWW gets me every month too. What are the next steps with the hospital? I couldn't imagine a summer Xmas because summers are so miserable in Texas, but I would say being stuffed with food and wine is a universal holiday tradition. It's my favorite. Any specific meals or just the traditional fare? And most importantly, red or white wine? : D
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 losses in 2018, @ 21 weeks, 5.5 weeks and 6.5 weeks
Status: TWW but benched
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? MRI came back clear so I've got a follow up appointment with my RE next week to discuss what we do going forward. I'm terrified to be benched again but I'm also terrified to get the clear to try again. It's such an odd and conflicting feeling.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? TSH follow up this Friday, and will see/discuss results next week with my RE
GTKY? Any fun holiday traditions? We always do a shrimp/crab leg boil on Xmas eve and just sit around the table reminiscing on the year and our accomplishments. This year was particularly tough for our entire family so I'm jotting down fun "positive" things as they come up. They seem few and far between these day.
Regarding Christmas, we have a few meals that always come out, Ham on the bbq, proper full roast turkey for dinner, devils on horseback (with cheese) at some point during the day. We drink a lot of bubbles, in general I stick with white wine or rose but as I am not drinking at the moment i may just have a glass of bubbles (we will see how my willpower fairs).
I know what you mean about being conflicted about trying again, it was nice having a few months off after my last MC (2 cycles) as I got to stop overanalysing everything.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 5 losses. 11/13, 1/17, 11/17, 4/18, 9/18 Currently unexplained.
Status: benched pending testing
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Currently benched so that takes a lot of stress off. I’ve been working on temping and seeing where ovulation is falling in my cycle. I finally met with my new ob last week and I really liked her. I’m hoping to be referred to the RE soon as well.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Did some bloodwork last week. Was questioning the one hour glucose that was in with the bloodwork. I got confirmation that the dr wants that done, so I will be doing that tomorrow.
GTKY? Any fun holiday traditions? We always go see the drive through lights. We moved recently so it will be fun to check out the new area. A few towns over does a walkthrough of the lights a day prior to opening for driving through and we got tickets. I’m really excited about that. I love Christmas, but growing up it was always such an event and very exhausting. Between my bday, my sisters bday, Christmas Eve and Christmas, it’s a very stressful week. DH and I like to keep it low key, stay in our pjs and do takeout for dinner. It’s my favorite part.
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how are things going? Well I am struggling still with the loss at 11 weeks. We were one week away from announcing the good news and I still feel sad a lot that it didn’t work out. Also I am having nightmares about recurrent m/cs and nightmares about having a cancerous polyp and having to get my entire uterus removed and never having the chance to have a baby. I know these thoughts aren’t helpful and try to dismiss them during the day but then they creep into my nightmares, ugh sorry ladies. I know some of you have lived the nightmare of rucurrent m/cs and you’re all so strong and amazing.
What is going well? Well this week I have been working out more. I thought it would help me get some endorphins and sleep better. I have been doing an aaptive 30 day cycling challenge and a 30 day squat challenge with a friend.
GTKY: my DH is a firefighter and works offen on holidays. Right now he is fighting a house fire actually. I love to decorate the house and listen to Christmas music, but don’t do that until the day after thanksgiving. DH works on thanksgiving but I go to the station and eat with the fire families. Another favorite holiday tradition is my older sister who lives in DC always flies home to ND for Christmas and I think she is bringing her bf this year and I really like him and love seeing her happy
@nomangos23 I get the feeling of being worried to try again. I'm sure you'll overcome it
@firewife424 that's tough that your husband works the holidays but it sounds like you always make the best of it.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 1 MMC
Status: no longer benched- according to the app, I ovulate on the 16th so we are going to give it a shot. I am terrified.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? This has been the most textbook AF i have ever had. Because of my PCOS i hadnt ever had a period until I was 24 years old and then it didn't stop for 18 months, I was put on bed rest. it was horrible. Anyways, now since removing my IUD may 2018 and my loss, my period is finally back to normal.
I'm struggling with this same reoccuring nightmare. I cant shake it. my bf has to wake me up every night and reassure me its not real.
I cant do a spoiler via mobile so I'll put a TW** in the dream, I have a new born baby who I bring around to show my family and friends but instead of putting him in a carseat i put him in a flat, box you'd put a dress in. I also keep leaving him in my car and park my car in random spots where I can't find him. that's the nightmare part, constantly searching for this baby once I realize I shouldn't have left him in the car and can't find the car. Its so bizaare. END TW***
Any testing coming up/any recent results? November 19th! And my bf is getting his CT results for his cancer check up tomorrow morning.
GTKY? Any fun holiday traditions? November 29th The town we live in does a 'light up' where the entire town lights up with xmas lights. its my first year to see that and I'm so excited. all the stores close early, its apparently really great. this year we've decided to do xmas eve with my family out of town and then xmas day just the two of us. we will be in our new home so I'd like to have that as a tradition. boxing day my bfs entire family gets together and does a huge dinner. lots of kids and new babies so it'll be tough but im excited for it.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 4 MC. Unexplained RPL.
Status: TWW in limbo. CD 33. Approx. 12-15 DPO.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Everything sucks. My body is giving me EVERY PG symptom I have ever experienced. I've got the queasy/nausea, I've got the sore boobs, I've got the exhaustion, I've got the air bubbles trapped in my stomach, I was light-headed on Sunday while skating... I even got the super crazy dreams with night sweats. BUT I took a test yesterday which was as stark white as could be. So, I really HATE my body right now. Like, I despise myself. It's been over a year since I've been PG last, and it sucks because I was really hoping to get PG before the end of the year so we could either finally have our rainbow or have a 5th MC and probably be done... and instead I'm sitting here with every PG symptom I've ever had and a stark white test apparently waiting on AF. If my body could stop being such a bitch, that would be nice.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? No idea if I should test again tomorrow if AF still hasn't arrived or not. I'm in limbo hell.
GTKY? Any fun holiday traditions? So, holidays have changed as people have died the last several years. Both of my grandmas died within a year of each other, around the time I started experiencing my MCs. So, holidays have become harder and harder for me. This year, DH and I are trying something totally different. Instead of driving across the state to visit both our parents (which are 2.5 hours away from each other, on top of all being on the other end of the state, and always entail driving on Christmas and usually Christmas eve as well)... we're going to be doing Christmas at home by ourselves, with our dogs. I love holiday traditions and family, so I'm a little anxious about how this will go... super nervous about it actually. We're trying to start some 'new' traditions to help me out.
@nomangos23 Sorry for the conflicting MRI feelings. It’s always stressful TTC with RPL. I hope you are able to work through it once you get the information, and come up with a plan, and feel more confident going forward!
@kbrown2385 Enjoy the drive through lights! That sounds fun. I haven’t seen lights in several years and I love going!
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
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Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 2 MC (2/2017 and 7/2017). Diagnosed with uterine septum 8/2018.
Status: Benched for surgery (8 days left to wait!)
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Things are good 'round here-- level, which is nice. I don't have a ton of anxiety about the surgery and I am looking forward to only working one day next week because of it. Had a really wonderful time on girls' weekend-- lots of whiskey drinks!
Any testing coming up/any recent results? No tests planned.
GTKY? Any fun holiday traditions? My mom, sister, and I make sugar cut-out cookies every year for Christmas. This year my niece is almost 3 so she might join us. It will be fun to pass the tradition on!
@kels0091 Congrats on being off the bench! But that nightmare sounds awful, especially to be living through over and over!
@firewife424 I am sorry you are dealing with all the racing thoughts about your health. It is so easy to get pre-occupied and only think worse-case scenario-- hopefully the added workouts will help! I love the Aaptiv app and it has really helped me do at least a short workout on those days I am feeling the least motivated (and am definitely NOT leaving the house!). How are your quads doing on the 30 day squat challenge?!
@kbrown2385 Sorry you are benched, but glad it is helping take some of the stress off. PJs and takeout-- this is my dream holiday celebration!
@nomangos23 Can I ask what the MRI was looking for? Glad it came back clear, but I hear you on that conflicted feeling! I am so anxious/excited for surgery, but when my OB was like "And then go ahead and try after one normal cycle!" I was oddly panicked about how soon that feels. I would like my brain to figure out how it wants to feel about this and get consistent!
@lokibear89 Summer Christmas. Sounds so strange but also so lovely! I keep asking DH if we can go to like, a tropical island for summer and he always says, "You'll miss the snow!" but I'd like to try it before we make that declaration! Hope the hospital calls soon-- I HATE waiting for something that feels as simple as scheduling appointments.
@minnek8 The countdown is on! What will the recovery time look like? Have you properly researched all of the Netflix shows you will binge? If have haven't already I suggest Handmaid's Tale, Marvelous Mrs Maisel and The Haunting of Hill House (holy nightmares but oooo it's good) If you're into reading I really liked Pachinko.
@kels0091 Ugh I can not imagine having that nightmare over and over again. After I lost my first I had dreams of my daughter in scenarios that I couldn't save her from. It. was. awful. But therapy has helped so if this continues much longer you might check out talking to someone if you don't already. Dreams are a weird and super personal thing. Glad your body is finally getting back to normal though, that's such a relieving feeling. And your town "light up" sounds so cool!!
@firewife424 Welcome, and sorry you're here. Having fertility nightmares seems to be a recurring theme here. Just know you're not alone. My best advice is to keep up healthy habits, even when you start to feel better. Exercise is a great form of therapy. When is your next appt to check on your blood clot? Does your doc know you're TTC?
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 1 MMC at 11 weeks 6.18
Status: WTO
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I had a great vacation last week, but it is nice to be home. I had a somewhat traumatic family emergency over the weekend that has taken over the last few days so honestly, I haven't really had the emotional capacity to think much about TTC.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I had my first RE appointment this morning. I probably should have canceled it. Family stuff had me feeling very overwhelmed and it was just a lot to process. The plan, for now, is to redo all the testing my OB did plus a bunch of others. They also want me to get the MRR vaccine before trying again. Once we get the green light, we will do Femara with an injection and IUI. It was nice to feel validated by them. Sometimes I feel like I'm dramatic about how long we've been trying, but they were very empathetic about our journey. If the stars align we will do the IUI in December.
GTKY? Any fun holiday traditions? Christmas Eve at my grandma's with all the cousins. So much fun. It has been hard to miss it every other year now that I'm married.
I'll come back for tags when I get home from work
On positive note... it's my anniversary so after therapy (woo hoo, I need that today!), DH and I are going for a massage! Definitely need that and excited about it!
minnek8 Hah... yeah I die too looking at my GIF! I love it. And thanks, I'm hoping it is a peaceful holiday.
nomangos23 LMAO. My 'kids' will hate you! hahaha. I almost always get exhaustion. I don't usually get sore boobs, but occasionally I do. I rarely ever get nausea/queasy (although TMI but I had a cycle once where I got queasy/nausea so bad I'd have sworn I was PG if I hadn't been bleeding buckets of blood from AF at the time). I mean, so it's rare for me to get all of these at the same time. It's been over a year of us trying naturally on our own and it's just frustrating to feel so PG, and be popping stark white tests, when I just want to be off this roller coaster....
kgg2241 Sorry for your struggles... I hope the family emergency is getting better/resolved/you're at least getting to be in a better mindset/head space about it.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1