Introducing myself (loss/ divorce/ remarriage mentioned )

Hello everyone! I wanted to introduce myself. I've put my The Bump app to the side for almost a year now, but I'm ready to jump back in again to offer my support and meet some ladies with similar journeys. 

I'm 41 years old and a much different path than I intended to be when I met my first husband in 2007. Long story shortened... we met, we dated long distance, we got married in 2009, all seemed "perfect", bought a house in 2010, lived as a family of 2 until 2012, began genetic counseling to prepare for a family (I was 35 at the time and it was recommended), and two weeks after getting the go-- ahead from our obgyn, my husband informed me of a lifelong secret he'd kept from the world... and from me. I was completely blindsided by his news, and devastated that all of our dreams had to be called off. I was in a Kris Jenner situation, before Kris Jenner even was and I had no clue the strength I was going to need to pick up the pieces. We divorced in 2012.

Many years of counseling and work on rebuilding myself, and I ended up getting my second chance at all of my hopes and dreams. In 2017, I met my now-DH. You know how people always say when one path ends an even more beautiful journey presents itself? Yep! It's true! I met my soul mate, we got engaged, and shortly after I became pregnant for the first time right around my 40th birthday. 

We were at the 10 week point in the pregnancy, hormones were skyrocketing, and all looked good throughout our initial appointments. This was right around Christmas last year, and we had just made the decision to purchase gifts to announce the news to our overjoyed parents. I was high- risk due to my age and steroid- induced diabetes from a previous spinal injury. We went in at 10 weeks for an HCG test and the #s hadn't progressed as they had been. An ultrasound determined the baby had stopped developing just after our last appointment, but my body was not registering the miscarriage. I had a MMC with cytotec, and spent NYE in extreme physical and emotional pain. 

After the MC and 6 more months of ttc, we were referred to a fertility dr. All tests came back at decent levels for my age, DH levels were great, but it was discovered I had uterine polyps. Two days ago,  I went for a d&c to smooth out my lining and am getting ready to begin the IVF process. 

We're very excited, yet very new on this journey. I turned back to The Bump because the support I got during my loss was what got me through, and I wanted to lend my support to others with similar stories. So here I am! Ready to dive back in again, petrified about all the what-ifs and unknowns, and looking for people who understand. 

Thank you for taking the time to read my story, and letting me join in and merge our lives' paths.