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***TW*** Saying Goodbye <3
BWhitta
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in Trouble TTC
Hi friends,
Well, I have put this off as long as I can. I have been lurking every week but haven’t wanted to post because I just couldn’t bring myself to say goodbye and I didn’t want to keep posting TW’s. I’m still so scared to do this...I have been on this board for more than two years, four pregnancies, three losses. I have learned so much from you all and you’ve seriously carried me through some of the most difficult times in my life.
We will be 12 weeks pregnant on Wednesday. We have had several amazing ultrasounds, graduated from our RE this week, had our first ultrasound with our OB. Baby’s heart rate has been strong and right in the healthy range, we’ve seen it moving all around, arms waving, legs kicking, last week it was flipping over and over. It’s so surreal, I really don’t believe it’s happening still. Like even while we’re watching it on the screen, I can’t make it connect in my brain that that’s happening inside of me. I realize every day how my infertility and recurring miscarriages have affected me. I struggle every day...but it’s worth it.
Thats something I want all of you to remember. This is so hard. It’s so unfair and it’s so freaking hard...but when I think about what we’re doing and why we’re trying so hard, I realize there’s nothing I wouldn’t do to keep fighting. I would do this over and over again to get to our baby. I hope you all keep fighting and you can bet I’ll be lurking and waiting for your good news. I love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!
@Bababatty and @Worldtravler0522 OH EM GEE I am so excited for you both and I will be obsessively checking for updates from you guys!!!!!!!!!!
@GoldenKeys you can graduate me
thank you for everything you do to keep this going!!!!!!
Love,
Brooks and Baby Whitta
Well, I have put this off as long as I can. I have been lurking every week but haven’t wanted to post because I just couldn’t bring myself to say goodbye and I didn’t want to keep posting TW’s. I’m still so scared to do this...I have been on this board for more than two years, four pregnancies, three losses. I have learned so much from you all and you’ve seriously carried me through some of the most difficult times in my life.
We will be 12 weeks pregnant on Wednesday. We have had several amazing ultrasounds, graduated from our RE this week, had our first ultrasound with our OB. Baby’s heart rate has been strong and right in the healthy range, we’ve seen it moving all around, arms waving, legs kicking, last week it was flipping over and over. It’s so surreal, I really don’t believe it’s happening still. Like even while we’re watching it on the screen, I can’t make it connect in my brain that that’s happening inside of me. I realize every day how my infertility and recurring miscarriages have affected me. I struggle every day...but it’s worth it.
Thats something I want all of you to remember. This is so hard. It’s so unfair and it’s so freaking hard...but when I think about what we’re doing and why we’re trying so hard, I realize there’s nothing I wouldn’t do to keep fighting. I would do this over and over again to get to our baby. I hope you all keep fighting and you can bet I’ll be lurking and waiting for your good news. I love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!
@Bababatty and @Worldtravler0522 OH EM GEE I am so excited for you both and I will be obsessively checking for updates from you guys!!!!!!!!!!
@GoldenKeys you can graduate me
thank you for everything you do to keep this going!!!!!!Love,
Brooks and Baby Whitta
Married for 5 years, TTC for 3 years
PCOS, Low AMH, Endo, Uterine Fibroids, Low Estrogen...
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree.
3 Losses, 8/16 11/16 and 6/2017
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree.
3 Losses, 8/16 11/16 and 6/2017
Re: ***TW*** Saying Goodbye <3
7 medicated cycles (see above) = BFN
TTC #1 since 7.2017
Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3 | all BFN
IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys
FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name"
RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET
FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer
2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle
Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks
TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20
Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21
Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation
Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal
Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations
BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22
DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023
Consultation with RI | 6.6.23
Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal
Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56
Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine
Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds
Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox
Repeat labs in 8 weeks
Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues
TTC put on pause
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree.
3 Losses, 8/16 11/16 and 6/2017
TTC #1 since 7.2017
Dx: low morph (1%), ANA positive, low decidualization score, high TSH and testosterone, histone antibodies
IUI #1-3 | all BFN
IVF #1 | 6.11.19 | 24R, 17M, 15F, 6B, PGT-A tested - 5 normal, 3 girls & 2 boys
FET #1 | 9.10.19 | BFN "I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you, but I don't know your name"
RPL, Receptiva, & ERA testing | all normal/negative, recommended going on gluten and dairy free diet for next FET
FET #2 | 3.31.20 | Opted to cancelled due to pandemic, continued diet and tried naturally over the summer
2nd Opinion with another RE | 8.20.20 | Not immune to measles (received 1 dose); SA results similar to 2 years ago; decided to move forward with FET #2 redo at start of next cycle
Surprise natural BFP! | 9.22.20 | MC 10.23.20 at 8 weeks
TTCAL naturally | starting 11.22.20
Initial consultation with Reproductive Immunologist | 9.14.21
Decidualization score biopsy | 10.1.21 | abnormal - low score of 1; endometrial scratch recommended and progesterone supplementation
Saline sono | 10.15.21 | normal
Bloodwork | 10.21.21 | high TSH, high testosterone, positive for anti-nuclear antibodies and histone antibodies, high protein S, multiple genetic mutations
BFP! | 11.3.21 | EDD 7.14.22
DS born 7.19.22 after induction
TTC #2 begins 6.2023
Consultation with RI | 6.6.23
Saline sono, endometritis biopsy, skin & eye check | all normal
Labs | high TSH, Factor XIII mutation, high %CD56
Follow up | 8.8.23 | prescribed metformin, prednisone, plaquenil, and levothyroxine
Repeat labs after 3 weeks on meds
Follow up | 11.9.23 | Green light!, increase in prednisone, added lovenox
Repeat labs in 8 weeks
Follow up | 1.16.24 | Green light continues
TTC put on pause
No Folic acid/pharmaceuticals/supplements (too many to list- private message me if interested), IVIL infusion