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I think I'm out. Don't read if you're sensitive to loss stories

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edited September 2018 in May 2019 Moms
Thought I would make a disclaimer in the title in case anyone wanted to skip this post. 

So I suspected something was wrong when I took follow up tests after getting my positive and they never got darker. I took one tonight and it's so faint I can hardly see it. :( I had to tilt and squint. It looks like this one just isn't going to stick...
I had an hcg draw today and have another thursday to see what happens with my levels, but I'm just waiting for confirmation and my period to come now. :( I'm 99% sure that unless there's some sort of miracle then I'm having a chemical pregnancy. 
This is my third loss. I had a blighted ovum, triploidy resulting in a mmc, and now a chemical pregnancy (I'm assuming and hoping it's not ectopic). I'll know for sure after my testing. I guess I just have colossal bad luck and I'm just feeling really bummed. :(
I hope everyone here has a successful and h&h 9 months. I wish you all well.
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  • I'm so sorry 
  • So, so sorry but hoping for the best. Thinking of you.
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  • Thank you both. 
  • So sorry! Hoping everything is still ok though. Thinking of you!
    projectalice
  • @projectalice I hope you're wrong and there's some sort of miracle that happens.  Im so so sorry if you are right.  Hugs to you,  me dear.  


    projectalice
  • Thank you. I'm just trying to keep myself busy for now.
  • Thinking about you I’m so sorry your having to go through this.

    projectalice
  • I’m so so sorry to hear this :( 
    projectalice
  • I’m so sorry, and I’m hoping for the best for you! I went through one in July, and it hurts my heart for you. Be kind to yourself. 
    projectalice
  • I'm so sorry.
    Me: 36, DH: 35
    Married: 8/10/13
    BFP- 12/18/15, D&E- 4/8/16 @ 21w5d- confirmed Thanatophoric Dysplasia
    BFP- 11/7/17, M/C- 11/18/17 @ 4w6d
    BFP- 8/25/18 ~ EDD- 5/9/19
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  • I’m so sorry! Sending so many hugs your way! Thanks 
    projectalice
  • I'm so sorry. Hoping for a miracle for you! 
    projectalice
  • I'm so sorry. T & P you way. 
    Pregnancy #1 DD 08.30.2007
    Pregnancy #2 Natural Miscarriage at 6 weeks 03/2014 Due date 11/9/2014
    Pregnancy #3 DS 02.23.2015
    Pregnancy #4 Missed Miscarriage at 11 weeks 11/2018 Due date 5/22/2019
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  • So, so sorry. Thinking of you!
    projectalice
  • I am so sorry you have to go through this. Thinking of you!



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  • Oh no, I'm so sorry this is happening to you. It's not fair at all. Take care of yourself.

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  • @projectalice I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through... I had a MMC at 13 weeks in June and I know there's nothing that anyone can really say that will make the pain go away.  Just know that I am thinking of you and praying for you and your family.
    projectalice
  • mamahall1519mamahall1519
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    So sorry, sending hugs and prayers your way. 
    projectalice
  • I'm so so sorry to hear you are going through this. Thinking of you and sending hugs. 
    projectalice
  • Sending thoughts and prayers to you.  Praying for a miracle!
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  • So sorry!!!! We are all thinking of you and sending positive thoughts.
    projectalice
  • I'm so sorry <3
    Me: 33 DH: 34
    Married: Oct 2015
    TTC #1: Sept 2016
    BFP: 10/19/16 ~ blighted ovum ~ D&C 11/23/16
    BFP: 3/24/17   <3  DD1 born 12/2/17
    TTC #2: July 2018
    BFP: 8/26/18 <3  DD2 born 5/16/19



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  • ((creepy internet stranger hugs)) Sending all my positive juju your way!
    projectalice
  • I am so so sorry. Sending hope and love.

    DD1: June 2014 - VBM4lyfe
    DD2: October 2016
    DC3: coming May 2019





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  • I am so very sorry.  All good vibes your way.
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  • I'm so sorry to hear this. Thinking about you. 
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  • Thank you all. You're very kind! I was hoping they had updated me with my initial numbers from yesterday, but so far nothing... 
  • Very sorry to read this. Sending you good vibes. 
    DD1- Feb 2015
    DD2- EDD 5/12/2019
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  • I'm so sorry, mama. Thinking of you. 
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  • I'm so sorry! Thinking of you and sending love your way.
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    Me: 31 │ DH: 34 
    Married 8/16/13
    BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
    BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
    BFP# 3 EDD 9/5/19 Please stick little one!!


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  • @projectalice ; I'm so sorry you're going through this! Can you call them to ask for your numbers?
    Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
    08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN  ,
    10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN

    04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
    05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN  , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
    03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
    4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
    5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
    7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
    9/20/14:  Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d 
     
    10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
    2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
    3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
    6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
    2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
    3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
    6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
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  • I'm so sorry. Sending hugs. 
    projectalice
  • @MSU_Girl1202 I think I'll try calling now but if I don't reach anyone I'll ask when I get my follow up draw in the morning. 
  • I'm so sorry you've had to have such a tough journey.  <3 
    projectalice
  • Sending you so much love. I’m really sorry you are going through this. 

    DD: 8/20/14; DS: 11/13/16; Baby #3: due 5/11/19 (team green)

    projectalice
  • Thank you. I finally got my hcg levels for yesterday, at 4 weeks. I was 37. Which is on the low end, but I got a positive wondfo 4 days before that. Wondfo detects as low as 25iu, so if I was at the minimum of 25 4 days ago then obviously my numbers aren't doubling. Like at all. 
    So they're checking me tomorrow just to see what my numbers are doing, but hopefully they drop quickly so I can get this over with. I don't want to drag it out any longer than is absolutely necessary. 
  • Ugh. I am so sorry @projectalice. I was really hoping your numbers would be good news and bring reassurance. I hope closure comes sooner rather than later for your sake.

    DD1: June 2014 - VBM4lyfe
    DD2: October 2016
    DC3: coming May 2019





    projectalice
  • I'm so sorry to see this update, @projectalice.  I wish I had more to offer than creepy internet hugs.

    DD born PPROM preemie at 36 weeks on 10/1/17 after over a year TI, 
    then 3 failed IUIs, and finally a successful IVF FET.

    Due with #2 5/2/19 after HIO once in my FW,
    because apparently that's how life works now. Team Blue!
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  • I am so sorry to read this! I will pray for you and your family during this difficult time. 
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