Welcome, @rmarble23, to the group and welcome back @BWhitta. Hugs and/or Tylenol to anyone who needs it!
QOTW: If money were no option, what would you do with your life? (VERY broad question!)
2018 BFP Hall of Fame
lablover78 dx: PCOS, Compound Heterozygous MTHFR Rx: IVF
Tops-2: dx: anovulatory PCOS Rx: Metformin, Letrozole & TI
halfanewt: possible PCOS, MTHFR gene, slight MFI Rx: IVF
seethosestars: dx: DOR Rx: IVF + FET #1
Kim41313: dx: unexplained Rx: IVF
soehlerk: dx: Unexplained Rx: Femara + IUI
Mlight28: dx Unexplained Rx: Clomid
SoonToBeMommaHowe: dx: Unexplained Rx: naturally until IVF
honeybeebub: dx:septate uterus, MTHFR Rx: septum resection surgery, baby aspirin & progesterone
be08ryan: dx: PCOS and AO Rx: Clomid
kiwielopingbride: Dx: Unexplained Rx: IUI
thothscribe81: dx: unexplained Rx: IVF
PAGING:
@BWhitta: dx: PCOS, low AMH and endo Rx: letrozole
@Bababatty: dx:Low Motility Rx: IVF
@ChristinaV2015: dx: blocked tubes, PCOS, endo + MFI Rx: lap, OPKs + TI
@ChristenMA83 : dx: MFI Rx: IVF w/ISCI
@emgem819 dx: PCOS, Rx: provera, femara + Bravelle
@hoffmanr7: dx: unexplained Rx: IVF
@jmr1515: dx: Mild MFI/morph, fibroid Rx: Surgery + TI
@mackenzie07 dx: PCOS and Endo Rx: metformin, letrozole, ovidrel
@mandasand: dx: low AMH Rx:IVF (Lupron, Menopur + Follistim)
@MrsM00re87: dx: DOR PCOS, low morph Rx: Femara + TI
@Mythril: dx: PCOS (anovulatory) Rx:levothyroxine, metformin and femara + TI
@rachlee2010: dx: DOR Rx: IUI
@Samanthaarielxo dx: anovulation Rx: still in testing
@sarah0985: dx: PCOS, possible blocked tubes Rx: Lap
@SM746830: dx: PCOS, blocked tubes Rx: Surgery, Clomid
@starlitfae dx: MFI & balanced translocation, thyroid Rx: ivf with pgd testing
@funkykey dx: unexplained Rx: IVF
@Worldtravler0522 dx: PCOS/Unexplained Rx: IVF
@notamyrtle: dx: unexplained Rx: IUI + injects
@Kate437: dx:anovulatory Rx:Letrozole + trigger
@SP128: in testing/unexplained
@eranvo27: dx: anovulatory PCOS Rx: metformin
@brittlefebvre: in testing
@Charligirl28: dx: unexplained Rx: Clomid
@kristimh80: dx: unexplained Rx: Injectables + trigger + IUI
@Brooke4131: dx: Secondary unexplained Rx: in testing
@fluffybookworm: dx: Anovulation + insulin resistance Rx: Metformin + prometrium + testing
@Asampson87: dx: unexplained + MFI Rx: metformin + testing
@hannahlce: dx: anovulatory PCOS Rx: metformin + letrozole
@emmasemm: dx: DOR & autoimmune Rx: IVF
@floridanursegirl: dx: unexplained anovulation Rx:Metformin, IUI+Femara+trigger
@aeb1116: dx: unexplained Rx: IUI
@Happyin14: dx: unexplained, RPL Rx: IVF
@amac2313: dx: unknown Rx: Clomid
@nurseerin2012: dx: unexplained Rx: letrozole + IUI
@Knottie1467155066: dx: unknown Rx: letrozole + trigger + TI
@BenJay: Dx: PCOS/unexplained Rx. Metformin + supplements
@MicahDahn: Dx: irregular cycles Rx: preparing for testing
@moloninge Dx:PCOS, hypothyroidism, insulin resistance, fibroids. Rx:Metformin,Synthroid,IUI w/letrozole, ovidrel, and progesterone.
@beec2421: dx: PCOS, hypothyroidism Rx: metformin, synthroid, clomid
@wishing-and-hoping: dx: unexplained rx: poss. IVF
@echocharlietango: dx: Unexplained Rx: trying naturally
@kgabhart: dx: Unexplained/PCOS Rx: letrozole + IUI
@linz36: dx: Low AFC, MFI Rx: testing/IUI
@jrm_14: dx: Adrenal/overian insufficiency, Borderline-low AMH, Low progesterone Rx: IUI w/ injectables.
@Bgreenfield10: dx: anovulatory PCOS, LPD Rx: Clomid + trigger
@serownarain: dx: in testing
@allisona66: dx: waiting for testing
@manhattanmama2: dx: unexplained Rx: IVF
@mirabelle33 dx: DOR, possible endo Rx: TBD
@meganttc3: dx: PCOS, unexplained Rx: waiting to test
@mrsjcrane: dx: unexplained Rx: femara + trigger + TI + 2nd HCG booster
@mighty-mouse: dx:pcos & HA Rx: provera/letrozole + trigger
@ladystout08: dx: unknown Rx: waiting for testing
@leafyarch: dx: MFI, no thyroid Rx: IVF
@oklahomak: dx: PCOS Rx: metformin/letrozole/estradiol/progesterone+ trigger
@drewsdarlin: dx: RPL, PCOS, Hashimotos, low vitamin D and Iron RX: ?
@ChristenMA83: dx: MFI Rx: IVF w/ISCI
@rmarble23: dx: MFI Rx: IVF
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Re: TTTC 8/9/18 Check-In
We just made it happen last night poor DH is sooooo sick, he was a real trooper. I was like dude I’ve been giving myself shots for 5 days, this is happening (so romantic...) So we’ve gotta do it again today and then I start progesterone (3x a day) in the morning. Just another glaring difference between my old RE and this one, he didn’t have me start progesterone until after we confirmed the second beta, which I’ve read so many times is too late if the progesterone is going to help. Sigh. Anyway, settling in for my TWW!!!!!!!!
Edited to add QOTW: DH always asks what I’d do if we won the lottery and I can never come up with anything good I love our life, haha. We are renovating our little old house, I wouldn’t want to leave it! I would definitely travel more, though...and buy a beach house.
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree.
3 Losses, 8/16 11/16 and 6/2017
AFM: We rescheduled my follow up with the RE due to a conflict. So instead of today, it's the 31st, which sucks a little bit but doesn't really change anything. Detox is going well on day 5 - though I will admit to taking painkillers with caffeine on two occasions to dull the headache. Food-wise I've been 100% and exercise 75%. I even withstood two catered lunches at work with sundae bars and cupcakes. So I'm feeling pretty darn proud of myself It's a 10-day detox but I'll continue to follow the plan afterwards and gradually work some things back in (like more fruit, some beans and corn, will probably try to stay away from the grains). Anyway, that's obviously my focus right now.
TTC History in spoiler Instagram
Married Oct 2007
TTC Since Oct 2010 - MFI Diagnosis 2012 (Morphology 1% + High DNA Frag)
IUI x2 in 2012 - BFN
IVF #1 Feb 2018 - 9 Retrieved - 8 Mature - 5 Fertilized - 2 Snowbabies - no testing
FET#1 March 2018 - BFP - MMC May @ 10w4d
FET#2 July 2018 - BFN
IVF #2 Nov 2018 - 10 Retrieved - 10 Mature - 8 Fertilized - 2 Snowbabies - no testing
QOTW: practical side would buy a nice home and stay home with my babies, maybe only work part time, allow DH to do whatever he desires whether it be start his own business or finish school. Frivolous side would buy an island with a house and a boat and a personal chef and housekeeper and just enjoy life
I think warrior and battle really are good words to describe everything we are going through. It really feels like a fight--against our bodies, against insurance companies, sometimes even against doctors. People that get KU easily have no idea how hard this is.
AFM We decided to stop fighting with my insurance in the interest of time, so they biopsied our embryos on Thursday and we should have results in time for our follow up with my RE on the 23rd. Even if they don't, I really don't care. I'm going in anyway. My RE also let us get started on the prior auth process for a potential 3rd IVF cycle, so that's underway. Only the medicine team seems to be on top of it (they got all the approvals for those last week), so I need to call and harass the medical procedure team about the actual IVF approval tomorrow. In other news, AF is starting and nary a cramp in sight. My last AF my cramps had lessened quite a bit, which I'm attributing to a positive outcome of acupuncture. When I started doing it, my acupuncturist said it could alleviate period cramping, and I will definitely take that.
@ChristenMA83 - Wow, I really don't know that I could pass up on a Sundae Bar at work! That is something to be proud of!
@mirabelle33 - hm, the cat situation sounds tricky. Others have probably given better advice, but I can throw in a story from my own experience. When our dog was younger, for a month-or-so, he had some escalating behaviour issues. I called a special trainer, signed up for special obedience classes, etc. Then one day, I looked in his mouth, and saw that one of his teeth had broken clean off - all I could see was a tooth stub with exposed nerve! I felt HORRIBLE, and took him to the vet. He had it removed, and the behaviour issues drastically alleviated.
In any event, I don't know if this is true for your cat, but in some cases, these odd behaviours can be symptoms of other medical situations. Hoping this is a thyroid situation, or similar!
@Bababatty - keeping FX for the embryo test results.
AFM: looks like I'll start stimming on the 29th.
As usual (and maybe mentioned elsewhere?) I'm on a total rollercoaster. Some days, I'm sure this is going to work. I read success stories, I visualize it, I'm optimistic. I spend a fair amount of time on the calculators, thinking through the odds and trying to put together a strategy for my best chance at success: https://www.sartcorsonline.com/Predictor/Patient I try to strike the balance between being hopeful and being educated as to my odds of success.
Other days, it's terrifying and overwhelming, and I just want to curl into a little ball and cry. Last year, my sister moved, and she was cleaning out her closet. We were so sure I was going to be pregnant soon, so she gave me her favourite maternity dress, like: "you'll need this soon." Fast forward a year, and she's trying for another, so I gave her back the dress. She was like: "I'm so sorry." It's just a dress, but it felt like such a symbol of how endless this has been, how the years are starting to just blend for me, you know?
QOTW: Hm. There are a lot of things I'd probably do faster if I weren't thinking about money. For example, there's a construction project we want to do that we've been working towards for a while. If money weren't a concern, we wouldn't have spent so long saving for it!
That, and I'd probably retire sooner. I actually really like to work, and not simply for the money - I like the actual feeling of accomplishment that comes from completing difficult projects. That said, put a lot of my energy into work, and sometimes I wish I had more energy for my friends and family. I can't see working at the same pace forever - at some point, I'll need to put more energy into the rest of my life!
TTC History in spoiler Instagram
Married Oct 2007
TTC Since Oct 2010 - MFI Diagnosis 2012 (Morphology 1% + High DNA Frag)
IUI x2 in 2012 - BFN
IVF #1 Feb 2018 - 9 Retrieved - 8 Mature - 5 Fertilized - 2 Snowbabies - no testing
FET#1 March 2018 - BFP - MMC May @ 10w4d
FET#2 July 2018 - BFN
IVF #2 Nov 2018 - 10 Retrieved - 10 Mature - 8 Fertilized - 2 Snowbabies - no testing
@funkykey I just went down the rabbit hole of that calculator. Do you know if they mean one, two, or three separate IVF cycles or just transfers?
Anywhoddles, I just want to say that I’m sorry you’re on the roller coaster of emotions again. I totally get that. Trying to find that balance is so hard. Not sure if you’re like me, but a huge part of me always feels like I have to be positive because what if I’m negative and my negativity is what causes the failure? But then of course you want to temper your optimism because you don’t want to get hurt. And the longer we go for and the more we go through, it’s harder to strike that balance and not slip too far into negativity.
Obviously you’re happy for you sister, but oh wow is that painful! Not only is it a milestone but it’s a milestone involving pregnancy. Such a horrible reminder of everything that’s happened in the last year and that you’re still waiting while others are going ahead of you. Again. I send you so many hugs, my friend! Hopefully once you get started with the stimming you’ll be so wrapped up in it that everything else will just fade to background noise.
@ChristenMA83 I need to go back and re-read the dietary section. I didn’t even remember that was in there! This last pass I just grabbed all the vitamins recs for RPL and ran them by my clinic for ok. I wouldn’t mind doing that detox; maybe once our visitors are gone this summer. Although the no legumes thing would be hard because DH is a vegetarian and that’s the large part of what we eat. Keep up the good work! 5.4 lbs in one week is amazing!
7 medicated cycles (see above) = BFN
@Bababatty I reread It Starts With the Egg as soon as I knew we would be doing another retrieval. The 10-day detox book does cover solutions for vegetarians. Tofu is allowed, but it suggests organic, non-GMO. There is one other allowance for vegetarians but I didn't pay all that much attention so I don't remember. And after the initial 10 days, legumes are one of the first things to transition back into the diet. Oh, and if you do try it, check out the cookbook as well. The Smoothies in the cookbook are tons better than what he provides in the detox book. I think most the info can be found on the website 10daydetox.com/resources and 10daydetox.com/tools. There are plenty of other diets out there like this one, it's not revolutionary, I just like the structure of the detox and having a specific 10-day plan.
TTC History in spoiler Instagram
Married Oct 2007
TTC Since Oct 2010 - MFI Diagnosis 2012 (Morphology 1% + High DNA Frag)
IUI x2 in 2012 - BFN
IVF #1 Feb 2018 - 9 Retrieved - 8 Mature - 5 Fertilized - 2 Snowbabies - no testing
FET#1 March 2018 - BFP - MMC May @ 10w4d
FET#2 July 2018 - BFN
IVF #2 Nov 2018 - 10 Retrieved - 10 Mature - 8 Fertilized - 2 Snowbabies - no testing
Ugh, you're not alone feeling like that re: positive thinking- I've seen other women on these boards make comments about "staying positive" even when they have doubts, but I guess I don't share that particular affliction... or at least I don't right now. I generally try to just let myself feel what I'm feeling- be sad when I feel sad, anxious when I feel anxious, hopeful when I feel hopeful.
That said, I do tend to pour out my more negative thoughts on TB than I do my hopeful ones- probably because, apart from DH, I don't feel like I can share those feelings with other people. Sometimes when I do share those doubts with friends IRL they try to be like cheerleaders, all: "it will work", and I end up getting defensive and kind of confrontational. Like: "Just f*cking listen! Don't smother me with your positive thinking BS." I guess I feel like IVF is hard and scary not because it works out, but because it actually might not work out. We are not strong because we are doing something easy, we are strong because we are facing one of life's great injustices head on. I often feel like, when my IRL friends give me pep talks, they gloss over the hard parts, and don't acknowledge the depth or size of the struggle.
So, maybe I let myself feel too much? Maybe my emotions are too at the surface? (Jk. ) I do feel differently about women going through IF treatment than my IRL friends. With my IRL friends, I can't handle the cheerleading without fair acknowledgement of the struggle. With women going through treatments, I'm like: "Whatever gets you through the day, sister. Do what you need to do to live with love."
7 medicated cycles (see above) = BFN
My parents aren't so bad, but sometimes DH's parents say the wrong thing. Sometimes they make comments that rub me the wrong way, kind of like the "are you excited?!", but about how much they want more grandchildren. I have to stop myself from snapping: "Do you want grandchildren so badly that you're going to help us pay for this?"
ETA: I love that this thread has been more active lately
TTC History in spoiler Instagram
Married Oct 2007
TTC Since Oct 2010 - MFI Diagnosis 2012 (Morphology 1% + High DNA Frag)
IUI x2 in 2012 - BFN
IVF #1 Feb 2018 - 9 Retrieved - 8 Mature - 5 Fertilized - 2 Snowbabies - no testing
FET#1 March 2018 - BFP - MMC May @ 10w4d
FET#2 July 2018 - BFN
IVF #2 Nov 2018 - 10 Retrieved - 10 Mature - 8 Fertilized - 2 Snowbabies - no testing
I had one friend I felt like really got it because she’s had multiple losses. After our last one, she just said, “I can’t promise you it will happen, but if it does, I’ll be leading the celebration.” It was the perfect response. *TW* Of course she just told me she’s KU, soooo there goes that sounding board.
I’m so glad to have all of you (and my therapist)!
@funkykey and @ChristenMA83 You made me chuckle with your “are you going to give me a donation?” Comment. How you haven’t said that already is beyond me!
@Bababatty - After our last one, she just said, “I can’t promise you it will happen, but if it does, I’ll be leading the celebration.” It was the perfect response. That is the perfect response.
7 medicated cycles (see above) = BFN
@funkykey that breaks my heart for you, so hard. My sister in law gave me all of her maternity clothes when we started trying...which was so kind bc they’re so expensive and she and I have similar bodies...they’ve been sitting in the corner of our “nursey”/storage room for three years now. I don’t think I’ll be able to bring myself to wear them even if I do get pregnant now. But I also can’t get rid of them.
AFM, I’m 8 days post trigger...and even though I said I wouldn’t, I bought some dollar tests and have been testing out the trigger. I *thought* it got a little darker today instead of lighter but it’s so hard to tell, I will probably just keep testing every morning even though I should just wait for Monday. My beta isn’t until next Friday I’ve had really low energy the last few days and I’m having a really hard time focusing on anything else! But I’ll keep trying because I am way behind on work.
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree.
3 Losses, 8/16 11/16 and 6/2017
and a Partridge in a Pear Tree.
3 Losses, 8/16 11/16 and 6/2017