Has anyone felt like this?

My husband and I had a miscarriage with our first pregnancy.  We are totally torn if we want to try again or just take it as it's just not in our plans to be pregnant.  Did anyone else feel this way. Part of me would be really relieved if he said he didn't want to try again,but part of me would be thrilled if he said he did.
We were so excited when we found out we were pregnant.  But the miscarriage was super stressful for the both of us. I worry about another stressful event or if we did get pregnant again something being wrong with it and it creating stress. Ugh. So confused.